Y/n

That night you couldn't sleep.

All you could think about were Jungkook's words.
He told you that he loved you and that he was sorry for how he had treated you that night.
He had the audacity to ask for your forgiveness when you couldn't even forgive yourself.
You pitied yourself for how you've allowed to be treated. For how low you were willing to go just for a man.

You went against everything that you stood for, everything that you are just for a mere chance to explain yourself. Just to prove someone that you loved them. You betrayed yourself and for what? In hope that someone may deem you worthy of their time. You couldn't forgive yourself for that.

So how could you forgive someone else?

When you felt embarrassed, ashamed, guilty.

When you felt used.

No, you were better than that.
You tried with all your might not to let a tear out.

And the worst part was that you still loved him.

Your heart ached and your head spun and you hated yourself for that but you couldn't deny it.
You loved a man that was capable of doing something like that to you.
Your throat tightened as you let a sob out.
You needed to forget about him. You owed it to yourself.

The morning after you got ready for your first day at work after the long break.
Hoseok and you discussed some of your marketing plans for the second half of the year on your way there.
You grew tense once you stepped inside, knowing that you would inevitably run into Jungkook.
To your relief, he didn't come in for work that day.
It was better that way you thought. It allowed you to concentrate on your work, leaving you with a sense of fulfilment once the work hours came to an end and you had completed all of your tasks.

In the evening you met with Jisoo for drinks; she wanted to apologize for leaving you in the middle of the street with Jungkook and she wanted to hear how it went.

You quickly filled her in, leaving out some bits and pieces. In particular, the bit where you still loved him. She didn't know either about what had exactly happened that night between Jungkook and you. The only thing that you told her was that it was over for good.

"I'm sorry you have to listen to this. After all, he's your friend" you said to Jisoo over a glass of wine.

"Don't worry babe. I think you did the right thing, choosing to focus on yourself first. Jungkook will have to understand. It's just..." Jisoo hesitated "well, I've never seen him like this".

You shrugged your shoulders, not knowing what to say.

"I guess he will need to get over it" Jisoo said.

"I guess...but enough about this" you recomposed yourself as a smile formed on your lips " How are you? Your baby bump is adorable".

"I'm great, if you ignore the scorching July weather" she gulped down her iced water making you giggle.

"The little one must be thirsty" you said pointing at her belly.

"You have no idea. If only he would like a sip of wine instead" she fixed your glass of alcohol, making you laugh.

"If it's of any consolation, I'm not drinking it either tonight" you pushed the glass further away from you.

"Why? Is something wrong with the wine? We could order another one" she was already ready to do so but you stopped her.

"No, it's just that my head has been spinning almost constantly since last night" you massaged your temples "Don't feel like drinking".

"It's probably from all the stress of yesterday. And the jetlag" she pointed out "Those are a bitch".

You spent a couple of hours chatting and catching up with Jisoo until it was time for you to call it a night.

The jetlag was kicking your ass.

The morning after you gulped down as much coffee as you possibly could in order to stay awake through the day.

The only good thing was that Jungkook didn't come to work neither that day. Or the day after. Or the day after that.

You for once were glad that he heard your requests and was keeping his distance. It allowed you to enjoy your work time more. When you weren't working with Hoseok, you spent your time with Taehyung. Or at lunch with the three of them. Occasionally, Jisoo would join Namjoon, Hoseok, Taehyung and you. Everything was going smoothly.

That's why, a couple of days into the week you were extremely surprised by the unannounced visit, to say the least.

You were working on your laptop when you heard knocking. Unaware, you invited the person in, thinking that Hoseok was back from his business lunch.

"Am I supposed to think that you closed the deal that quickly?" you joked but your smile instantly died once your eyes met his.

"Get out" your jaw hardened.

"I just came for a second of your time".

"Get the fuck out, Jungkook" your breath quickened as you watched him enter your office, closing the door behind him.

You stood up as soon as he tried to approach you. "Get out or I'll scream" you threatened him.

"Please don't" Jungkook lifted his arms "Listen, I know I have no business asking you to hear me out but-".

"You're right, you don't".

"But" Jungkook continued " I just wanted to ask you to come upstairs after work. Everyone is going to be there. I need you guys to see something. After that, I'm going to leave you alone. I'm going to walk away and never bother you again. Okay?".

As soon as you heard Jungkook say that, you felt something crack inside. A sudden fear of him not being in your life overtook you.

You nodded.

"I'll see you then" Jungkook nodded and walked out of your office. As soon as he left, you collapsed onto your chair with your head in between your hands as it started to spin badly again.

Somehow, you made it through the day. The only thing that was left to do was to go to Jungkook's club and see what he wanted.

It was calming to think that all of you would be going upstairs and that you wouldn't be alone with him again. God knows you couldn't bare it.
You were the last one to arrive; everyone else was already there. They were busy chatting, drinking and eating under the soothing evening summer sun.

"Y/n, come" Jimin gestured you to come "come and sit next to me".

As you walked the distance, you felt Jungkook's gaze on you. Those big, doe eyes followed your every movement.

"Do you want some steak?" Jimin offered you.

"No thanks. I'm not hungry. What are we doing here?" you asked. The question was directed at everyone but really aimed at Jungkook.

"We're just hanging out. Having a drink and a meal" Yoongi instead answered.

"You seem in a good mood today" Namjoon noticed.

"Because I am" Yoongi smiled.

"You're scaring me" Jimin said.

"Should we show them?" Yoongi turned to Jungkook.

"What are you two plotting about?" Jin felt the need to interfere.

Jungkook nodded at Yoongi who stood up and went to his laptop.

"Jungkook-ah" Jin called him "what are you up to?".

"Would all of you please come inside? Yoongi and I have something to show you".

Everyone looked at each other but obeyed and followed Jungkook inside.

"We've been working on something these days" Jungkook said once Yoongi signalized him that everything was hooked up and ready to go. All nine of you gathered in front of a big screen on the wall; somehow you didn't seemed to have noticed it when you walked in earlier.

"Yoongi hyung made all the arrangements. The rest...well, it's me" he shrugged his shoulders as he gave the okay to Yoongi. A soothing melody surrounded you as the screen lit. Shortly after words appeared at the same time Jungkook's voice began to spread across the club.

https://youtu.be/ec873NIGDH8

" "You are the sunlight that rose again in my life
A reincarnation of my childhood dreams
I don't know what these emotions are
Am I still dreaming?" "

You read the words on the big screen. Jungkook's voice, like a wave reached your skin.
"Ah Jungkookie-ah, you made a song?" Jin giggled while crossing his arms, reading amused the lyrics.
"It was about time Jungkookie" Jimin smiled, melting away at the angelic sound of Jungkook's voice.

"I'm so happy, I can't breathe
Everything's getting blurry"

"It's something I wrote a while ago" Jungkook said. He was smiling but inside, he trembled.
He hoped you'd understand that the song was about you. That everything was about you.
He poured his entire being into the song, hoping that you'd understand what you meant to him. It was the only way. He didn't know what else to do.

"Take my hands now
You are the cause of my euphoria"

"Wow Jungkookie" Hoseok clapped his hands while laughing when the beat dropped " What a great song".

Everyone was smiling and laughing in awe at Jungkook's song.
You were the only one who was overwhelmed by emotions.

"It has a really nice flow. Good job Min Yoongi" Jimin clapped in Yoongi's direction who did a little bow behind his laptop.

With the corner of her eye, Jisoo was looking out for you. She wasn't able to fully enjoy the song, regardless of how beautiful it was for she was worried about you. And Jungkook. She noticed that he hadn't taken his eyes off of you, even when trying to engage in a conversation with his hyungs.

"When I'm with you, I'm in utopia"

"Jungkookie, who is this song about?" Hoseok teased him upon hearing the words.
"He wouldn't tell" A small Min Yoongi popped behind the laptop, following Hoseok's teasing with a smirk.

"We share the same painful views
Won't you please stay in my dreams"

You couldn't move. You couldn't breathe.
It was like Jungkook had captured the essence of your relationship in those words.
There it was; all the good that there was.

The endless night, breathtaking laughs, understanding and overall peace.
Like a truck, flashbacks hit you. Filling your eyes with tears.

"Jungkook-ah, are you in love?" Jin asked.

Jungkook scratched the back of his neck, smiling and looking away.

"Our Jungkookie is in love" Hoseok clapped ecstatic.

"Tell us who she is" Jimin encouraged him.

"No no" Jungkook waved his hands in a dismissive way "I'm not in love" but the damage had already been made.

"Come on Jungkook, tell us" Jimin insisted.

"Jimin, let it go" Namjoon intervened.

Taehyung had been awfully quiet during the entire time. The entire situation was strange to him.

"Even if the earth crumbles
No matter who shakes this world
Don't let go of my hand
Please don't wake me up from this dream"

And then he saw it; you silently crying and Jungkook's eyes glued on you.

"Why?" Jimin asked confused "I want to know who's the girl Jungkook fell in love with".

"Let it go" Namjoon repeated himself upon picking up on the tension that was forming.

"What is wrong with you?" Jimin asked but Namjoon silenced him, afraid that Taehyung might snap at any moment. And he was right.

In a blink of an eye he put two and two together and, as his face contorted in anger, he jumped the distance between Jungkook and him.

"You piece of shit!" he screamed right before grabbing Jungkook by the collar of his shirt.

Everything happened so fast and yet to you it seemed in slow motion.
You saw Taehyung jump on Jungkook, his enraged face yelling. You saw Namjoon race towards Taehyung in an attempt to get him off of the other one. Jisoo screamed while being immediately shielded by Jin who embraced her. Jimin ran towards Jungkook, dragging him away from Taehyung. Yoongi rushed towards Hoseok who was busy holding you, stopping you from getting involved.

You didn't even notice that your body was fighting Hoseok, screaming at him to let you go.

"Let him go!" you yelled at Taehyung.

Namjoon and Jimin were struggling to keep Taehyung and Jungkook away from one another.

"Hoseok, let me go" you pushed him.

Somehow, you managed to free yourself from Hoseok's grip and you ran towards them.

"Stop!" you yelled as your head pounded and spun.

They ignored your pleas and kept reaching to one another, occasionally landing a punch or two despite Jimin's and Namjoon's efforts to keep them apart.

"Stop. Please" you whispered before everything turned black.

You woke up in what it seemed to be a hospital.

You blinked a couple of times as you looked around in order to get some grasp of what was going on.

"Oh good. You're awake" an unknown male voice caught your attention.

"What happened?" you asked with a raspy voice.

"You had a case of syncope. Nothing to worry about".

"A case of what?" you slowly prompted yourself on your elbows.

"Syncope. You fainted Miss" the doctor clarified.

"Oh" you nodded.

"Nothing to worry about. It happens when your blood pressure drops due to hormonal changes. But Miss Y/n we do need to talk".

"Where is everyone?" you asked the doctor.

"Your friends are waiting for you outside. But I need you to listen to me now, okay?".

"I need to see them. I need to see him" you said as memories became more vivid.

"Miss, you have to be more patient. I can't let anyone in just yet".

"No, no. I need to see him. I need to explain everything to him" you wanted to get out of bed.

"Miss Y/n please. It is very important for you to remain calm as I'm about to share important information with you".

"You don't understand. I need to get ou-".

"You're pregnant, Miss".

And...here we are.

I couldn't wait to get to this part of the story. So so eager to hear all of your thoughts in the comments.

The drama JUST started.

Oh and also, you were right and called Euphoria on my last post. It was about time she made an appearance in all of her glory hehe.