His p.o.v.

A few days later we head home with the baby to start our new life.

We happen upon a conversation about her parents who I've never heard her talk about or even mention. Not even once.

"So how come you never talk about your parents?" I asked holding the baby in the bedroom.

"Well because they aren't around and not in my life anymore." she answered looking down.

"How come? If you don't mind me asking?"

"We had a falling out when I was younger regarding my health. And when I turned 18 I left and never looked back. And that was so long ago so I don't talk about it. To anyone. Ever. So I've been on my own for many years." She explained.

"Wow. I'm sorry to hear that. Had no idea."

"Which is another reason why I was afraid to have a child. I didn't want it to end up being like my relationship with my parents."

"Oh ok wow." I say not really knowing what to say and choosing my words carefully as usual.

"I was afraid of screwing him up. Hell I still am afraid." she answered

"Kelly..you won't I'm here." I told her.

"Yeah now. But not in the beginning.."

"Yeah and I'm sorry for that." I apoliguse.

She just sits there with tears in her eyes.

This is worse than I thought it would be. Now what do I say?

"You are a good mother so far..just take it one day at a time. This is new for the both of us. I'm nervous as hell I'll screw him up too. Honestly. But we will yet threw it together."

"I hope so." She said taking the baby from me and walking to put him in his crib.

Now I'm sitting here really regretting not have asked that question sooner. Knowing me and Kai are really all she has is sad.

The fact that that is her reality.

"So do you have any friends you talk to or hang out with?" I asked her when she came out of our room and sat on the couch.

"Not really. To be completely honest most people I know don't want anything to do with me even as an adult. Like I told you before they all think I'm crazy. So having friends would be and is very hard." she admitted looking down almost in tears again.

"I'm so sorry. I here for you now. The guys are here for you if you need them I'm sure. I know its not the same as having girlfriends to hang out with but its the best we can do. I'm sorry for not being there in the begining and I'm sorry that you had to go threw all the shit you went threw to get here in the past. But I guess in a way what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. Kelly your a strong woman with a great heart and a good person whoever can't see that is blind and doesn't want to get to know you. I've seen all that and more in you. You are worth something. To me to,to Kai. And that's why I want to marry you. Because your worth it all. " I explain on the couch about to cry myself

Damn six weeks with no sex is going to be the death of us both. But didn't say no oral..

"Oh Namjoon! You know exactly what to say and how to say it to make it all better." she says hugging me still crying

"Well I'm being honest. And I love you." I tell her.

I think that's the first time I've actually said that outloud to her. Except for Kai's birth I think it is.

"Damn this no sex rule is going to kill me. " she says laughing and whipping the tears from her cheeks

"Ah..but didnt say no oral.." I chuckled raising my brows

"Ah haha." She laughed

We both look at eachother. And laugh. Like kids about to break the rules.

And now there is awkward silence. Just looking at the wall or anything trying not to give into temptation.

"Well what about your family? " she asked breaking the tension and awkward silence

"Oh my family? Normal life. Parents are still together in Seoul where I grew up. Had a great childhood actually." I answered trying to take my mind off my bulging pants throbbing.

"Sounds amazing." She nodded.

I look down and shit..I'm rock hard about to poke threw my pants. She looks over notices.

"You got excited? for what?" She asked chuckling

"Well we were talking about it earlier...I can't help it. And cant just leave it like this." I chuckled

She looks at me and
Pulled me out and it was solid. I leaned back as she leaned forward and started to pump me in her hand.

I let out a moan as I wait for her to slowly start sucking on my tip around in circles. Slides it all the way back to her throat sucking in and bobbing up and down. Fucking me with her mouth as I watch. I let out a few moans and start to buck my hips with her motions over and over again. She looks up at me with me entirely in her mouth and it gets me off.

"Umm yes!" I let out as I start breathing heavily.

She takes it out licks all around the head and in between. And that sends me over the edge of no return. I cum atleast three times from the pure satisfaction of releasing in her mouth.

"Ohh god!" As I start to regain my breathing back to normal.

"I really wish I could get on top of you right now.." she says kissing me as I can taste myself on her lips.

"Lay back I'll take care of you." I say switching her spots so now shes sitting on the couch.

Without hesitation or second thought she throws her pants off and lays with her legs spread on the couch.

I gently slide her to the end of it and cup her ass cheaks in my hand as I kiss her thighs and start to kiss her pussy lips. I take a finger gently and my tounge and start finger fucking her and sucking on her as I do so gently. I look up at her and she is holding onto the cousions with her eyes closed.

"Am I hurting you?" I ask concerned.

"No,keep going..!"

I continue with adding more fingers and swirl my tongue inside her. Licking every part and sucking on it. Over and over again.

"Uh god ummm!" she moans as I continued.

I part her lips with my fingers and go deeper trying to not miss that sweet spot she loves when I reach it.

"Uhh yes yessss!" She moans as she let go in my mouth Her legs and body shaking.

"Umm!" I moan kissing her and sitting next to her.

"Just fuck me right here nice and slow I don't know how much more of this I can take." she begged looking at me with pleading eyes.

"Kelly..I.." I started to say but she cut me off .

"Maybe you're right maybe it is too soon." she agreed.

"I'm sorry..I want to I really do I just don't want to hurt you."

"Just put the tip in slowly and pump slowly."

"Really Kelly? What's that going to do but get both of us more excited."

She knows how to break me I swear.

So that's what I did. Against my better judgement and the heat of the moment I climb next to her standing infront of her sitting on the couch legs spread once again. I slowly started to guide the tip into her. Holding it at the base and slowly pumping. As my ass quivered and she wrapped her legs around my waist and her arms around my neck. Moaning and me grunting. The shit was tight and I was afraid of hurting her. I grabbed into her as I thrusted and she moved with me.

"Ohh god!"

"What am I hurting you?!"

"No! Keep going!" She moans.

"Ah fuck yes!" You're so tight baby..umm."

"Ahh a little faster and a little harder please!"

So I comply and sped up a little. Body's slapping and sloshing. Breathing heavily and grunting.

"Shit...ahh!" She moans.

"You cumming baby? I'm about to blow!"

"Yesss yes yesss!" She moans and we both let go at the same time.

"Ahh fuck!" I say as I collapse next to her spent.

"Umm that was better then I remember it ever being..we should do it more often now." She said as her breathing came back to normal.

"Uh I hope I didn't break anything that was fixed. But yeah that was amazing!"

"Don't worry we were careful."

We get dressed and check in the baby. He's fast asleep in his crib. We decide to take advantage and take a nap ourself's cause who knows when we will be able to again.

A/n: Sorry it's so short