It was a cold day in January. I hated January. Everything feels so empty. Especially after Christmas. All the decorations are gone by now and it just feels empty and cold. Like my spark. I had to join a meeting. Ratchet sat beside me and backed me up. We really started to get closer and Optimus didn't like it. At least someone understands my statement. 'How's Skyla doing?' The medic asked as he walked me towards the main hanger. 'She's doing great. She's a little bit down today. Bit of a sore throat so I made her some tea with honey this morning.'

'But?'

'Sideswipe is requiring all her attention. Not really too fond about that. We used to watched a movie every Saturday and now, Sideswipe makes his own plans with her. She seems to enjoy his company,' I said and but my lip. It hurt. I can't tell for sure if I am jealous because I missed the attention or because I had an optic on her. I have been walking around with that feeling for so long. 'What is it,' I shook my head and waved my hand dismissively. 'Skyla is special. I never met a femme like her before and sometimes I just feel strange... I never felt it before.'

He hummed. 'Do you feel... excited and happy to be around her?' He asked. 'I am always glad to see her... is that feeling happiness and excitement?' I asked. 'I guess it is. Does she pull a smile on your face?' He asked. I nodded. 'She does for sure,' I stated. 'That's happiness... you're protecting her and willing to sacrifice anything for her... you know what that means?' He asked. I shook my head. 'That you love her,' he said. I snorted, 'I don't love anyone, especially not a human. Are you out of your mind?' I asked.

'Think about it...you're jealous, protective, possessive, she makes you smile and I have never seen you smile in a lifetime. You always seem to have a permanent scowl splattered over your face,' he said with a snort. 'I am a psychopath... a serial killer. I don't have a love life. My brother does, but I don't.'

'Psychopaths can have a love relationship but it just works a little different, because you don't feel much emotions,' he said. I thought about it for a moment. 'You're different than regular mechs but if you're good for her, she'll be good for you and she'll be with you forever.' I liked the sound of that. I drove home and found Skyla in the kitchen. It made my engine nearly puur in delight to see her.

I wrapped my arms around her. She yelped. 'Hi gorgeous.' I spun her around and placed her on the counter. She blushed a deep shade of red. I wrapped my arms around her waist and laid my head in her chest. She gently wrapped her arms around my shoulders and kissed my head. 'Tough day?' She whispered while thumbing my scalp. 'A long, boring day honestly,' I replied. She hummed and made me look at her. I brushed some strands from her face. If she only knew how beautiful and special she is.

Ratchet is right. Perhaps I should give it a change. I have never been as close to a femme before as I am now with Skyla. I opened my mouth to say something but Sideswipe strode in. 'Skyla, are you coming?' He stopped and raised a brow. 'What are you doing?' He pushed me aside and pulled Skyla against his chest. 'We are going out for dinner,' he said. 'Dinner? The two of you?' I asked. 'I won't drop her off and leave,' he mocked. 'I actually meant... without me.'

'Yeah, but I'll look after her,' he said. I was speechless. 'Sideswipe.' I walked after him. 'Why are you taking her for dinner? Something special to celebrate?' I asked. 'No, just for fun,' he replied without looking. 'Only for fun? Nothing else?' I asked. He perked his head up, 'well, maybe more like a first date if that's what you're aiming for,' he said. 'A date?' I repeated. He nodded. 'Don't you think you should consider taking me?' I asked. He turned around, 'Sunstreaker, she'll be perfectly fine, okay? The past worn repeat itself. Just relax and go draw or paint,' he said, waving me off. Skyla walked downstairs and kissed my cheek before grabbing her jacket and leaving.

I couldn't believe it. Through the kitchen window, I watched them leave. Skyla flashed me a smile before hopping in my brother's alt-mode. I sighed and headed upstairs. She's human anyway, I don't care what she does. I grabbed my sketchbook and started drawing. An hour later, I was called to come to the base. As I rolled in my eyes fell on a girl or woman. That's Eden!

I incur my engine what on earth is she doing here? I narrowed my eyes before hopping out. I grabbed her and slammed her against the wall. 'What are you doing here bitch,' I snapped. Her eyes widened. 'It's you,' she cracked. I tightened my grip. 'I don't trust you,' I growled. Ironhide pushed me away from Eden. 'Leave her alone,' he snapped. Eden quickly walked off. I narrowed my eyes before eating a punch in my face. I hissed and reached for my nose. 'Asshole, piss off and do what you're supposed to do,' he snapped. He walked off while blood oozed from my nose all over my shirt.

A soldier behind me laughed. He stopped as he saw spotted me turning around. 'Did it hurt?' He taunted. I deactivated my holoform. 'Scared puppy!' He laughed. My engine roared to life and hit him, driving over him. Blood splashed all over my yellow hood and windshield. As my back tire drove over his face, I stopped and transformed, looking down at the dead bundle of meat on the ground. I growled and steam emerged from my nose. I tilted my helm in the air and walked off.

'What have you done!' Prowl tried to grab me but I was quicker and slammed him against the wall, pressing my sword against his face. 'Humans deserve to die,' I snarled. He growled. Optimus pulled me away from Prowl. 'That's enough,' he warned. I showed him my fangs. 'Sunstreaker,' I glanced at Ratchet. He gestured me to come over, which I did because he seems to be the only mech to understand my worries.

'What's the matter with you,' he grumbled. 'A human called me 'a scared puppy' well, now he won't think anything anymore,' I growled. 'Human can not be trusted,' I snapped, glaring at Optimus. 'We have had this argument so many times before, Sunstreaker,' he warned. 'No! You need to listen and get some sense back in you! Humans only want power. If you're not above them, you'll become hunted. They will always pick the strongest branch. One day, they turn their backs on us and start hunting us down. Slaughtering us one by one until no one remains,' I snapped.

'You are paranoid, Sunstreaker. They can't and won't kill us. They're our allies,' Prowl snapped. I took of my chest playing. 'This human work...' I pointed at all the scars on my muscular chest area. 'You see this! This is not done by a decepticon, by my father or by you... but by humans. Look at it Prime! If I am the most feared serial killer on Cybertron and they manage to do this to me... what will they do when they fully turn their backs on us!' I shouted. 'I have seen what this pathetic race is capable of. Why are you so blind! You haven't seen what I did,' I screamed. A silence fell. 'Humans will always be the same. They can't be trusted,' I said before u turned around and stormed off.