《Trigger Warning》(suicide)

It's been weeks. It's almost time to leave. I thought I wanted to get better, to learn how to love myself.

But I don't... I just don't think this world is for me any longer. No matter where I go, I'll always be hurt in some way.

I'll always be shown that I don't belong, that I'm not wanted or loved, that I'll always be alone.

I know I have friends but I still feel alone. In a crowded room, I'm invisible.

Do you know me anymore? Did you know that my favorite food is strawberries and my favorite band is Girls' Generation? Or that I'm planning to dye my hair blonde?

You don't care and I know you never will. I just wanted you to know, this is the end of me. The end of my existence. My love for you will always be here though. My love for you will surpass the mortal world and I realized I'm selfish.

My love for you is selfish. I should be happy that you're happy and that you found love. I am, I truly am. I'm just sad that your happiness isn't with me.

I love you and I'll always love you. Never forget that.

Take care of my hyungs for me. Show them your beautiful bunny smile and make them laugh with your quirkiness.

Don't miss me too much. It's just my time. It's the end for me. I'm not meant to live longer and I'm not meant for happiness.

Don't try to stop me.

Is it ever gonna change? Just let me give up.
So let me just let go
If this isn't good for me, well I don't wanna know

Let me just stop trying
Let me just stop fighting

I'm so tired, Jungkookie

I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright
You don't know what it's like

Don't look at me like that
Just like you understand
Don't try to pull me back

Let me just give up

I'm sorry, Kookie

I love you

Let me just let go
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