I'm tired. I'm tired of yearning after you and never getting anywhere. I'm tired of this longing to be with you. Are you tired of treating me the way you do? Are you sick of losing our friendship?

You'll never see me again. That's a promise. I need to learn to love myself. I gave my whole heart to you, forgetting to keep a piece for myself.

So when you finally decided to hurt me, I'd have a piece for myself and air to breathe. You were my air and now I feel as if I'm suffocating. Without you, I'm a mess.

I'm a mess, I'm a loser
I'm a hater, I'm a user
I'm a mess for your love, it ain't new
I'm obsessed, I'm embarrassed
I don't trust no one around us
I'm a mess for your love, it ain't new

I'm starting to believe, everything will be okay, because I have Jinnie-hyung, Joonie-hyung, Jiminie-hyung, Yoongles-hyungie, and Hobi-hyung with me.

Hobi-hyung brightens up my day with his blinding, heart-shaped smile and his always cheerful behavior. Jiminie-hyung always joins me for anime marathons and we end up talking about nothing and everything all at once while binging on tubs of ice creams. Yoongles-hyungie makes me feel loved and cared for. He cuddles with me for naps and just his overall presence makes me feel safe and warm. Joonie-hyung and Jinnie-hyung treats me like the 'child' they never had and in turn, I treat them like the amazing and loving 'parents' they are.

I feel loved and, I think, everything will finally be okay.

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
It's gonna be a good, good, life
That's what my therapist say
Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be just fine
It's gonna be a good, good life

I want to give you another chance. I want to give you just one more chance to ensure, you still want me. If this chance goes to waste, by the time you finally realize, I'll be gone. I want to start a new life somewhere without you and Jinnie-hyung and Joonie-hyung are joining me since it's their idea.

I want to move on and I want to finally be happy without anything holding me back and I want to pick up the shards of my heart so I can love myself and live with myself again. I love you, I promise.

Sincerely,
Me