In your eyes, there's a heavy blue
One to love and one to lose
Sweet divide, a heavy truth
Water or wine, don't make me choose
- Selena Gomez, Wolves

RONAN

I chased her all the way to the front of my house and caught her wrist. "Autumn, stop. You don't have to leave."

She finally stopped and turned around to face me. "Look, Fray. Today has been really fun but I seriously don't need another episode with your mom."

"She's not my mom." Autumn lifted one brow and I quickly added, "well, she did give birth to me but she is not my mom. She abandoned me a decade ago and I don't fucking care about anything that woman says."

"I'm sorry." Her eyes softened and she twirled her hand so she could squeeze mine. "Every child deserves their parents' attention and love." Taking a deep breath, she ducked her head and licked her bottom lip. "I think it's best if I just go home. We can continue being James Bond tomorrow."

With my free hand, I put a lock of curly dark-brown hair behind her ear and slid my hand to her chin then tilted her head up so I could see her in the eye. "Let me take you home, okay?"

A smile appeared on her face as she nodded. My phone buzzed and ruined the moment. I shoved my hand to the back pocket and took it out. Of course, it was from my diva mom who could not have a minute break. I knew if I did not answer her she would go overboard and call the cops or SWAT team to search for me so I ran my thumb on the screen, right on top of 'slide to answer'. "We'll talk later after I get home. Sit your ass and stop calling me. I really hate it when girls nag on me so don't even try or I won't ever speak to you again."

I ended the call before she could even say anything then shoved it back into my pocket. Autumn did not say anything but I could tell that she knew the call was from the nasty woman who had called her little bitch a few minutes ago. Seriously, what the fuck was wrong with my mother?!

"Come on." I jerked my head in the direction where my car was parked and offered her my hand. I thought she would reject it, maybe even pretend she did not see it, yet on the contrary, she put her hand on mine and smiled. My brain knew I should not do this. Friends hold hands but friends who had sex once (or in our case, more than once) and agreed that such a thing would not happen again should not be holding hands. Well, fuck it. If I did not have much to live, I might as well enjoy and cherish the little things.

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As much as I wanted the trip to be longer, her house was not exactly in New Jersey so it did not take more than twenty minutes by car. Living in NYC for years, just like everyone else, I hated the busy traffic but for today, I wished the traffic was busy. Again, not my lucky day because the traffic was good and we did not have any hitch in our way to her apartment.

"Are you going to be okay?" asked Autumn once I parked the car on the side of the road, in front of her building.

I bobbed my head. "Yeah. Don't worry, Isobel might be a bitch but she won't bite."

Autumn let out a giggle. "Why all bad mothers always named Isobel?"

I was confused for a few seconds before I figured out what she was referring to. "Ah, Elena's mom, Alaric's wife." I nodded, agreeing with her. "Yeah, I think if you have a kid, you shouldn't name her Isobel. It kinda gives a bad omen, I guess."

"I'm nineteen." She rolled her eyes as if the thought of her having kids was ridiculous. "I'm not gonna be a mom for a while and I don't think I can imagine myself having kids."

On the other hand, I did not find it ridiculous at all. I had seen her with kids before and she had been nothing but patient. "Please, Autumn, you're gonna be a great mom someday."

Her eyebrow furrowed and there was amusement in her face. "How'd you know?"

"I've seen you with the brats, Matteo and Greg." I rested one hand on the steering wheel and sighed. "If you can handle those two, you can handle any children."

Autumn smiled, shaking her head. "Sometimes I forgot how you are related to Liam and close with the boys." She pursed her lips and tilted her head. "If Isobel is a bad name, what name would you consider good?"

Baby names, especially girls, were on top of the list of things I didn't know and didn't give a fuck so I shrugged. "I don't know. Maybe Caroline, I always like Caroline Forbes." I tried to think of other girls name and all that I could come up with were from TV shows and movies. "Elizabeth is decent. You can call her Betty like the Riverdale chick. Penny is cute in a nerdy, cool kind of way." I saw Autumn's lips twitch and groaned. "I don't know, Autumn, I suck at this. You should buy one of those Baby Names books when the time comes."

Autumn finally cracked and laughed. "I was joking when I asked you but now that you seemed to give it a thought. How about boys? What would you name a baby boy?"

"This one's easy," I smirked. I loved how random our talks sometimes. "Aragorn from Lord of The Rings, Niklaus, and Kol from The Originals, Ash aka Ashley Williams from The Evil Dead Trilogy, Yoda from the Star Wars cos he's a legend, Mr. Deadpool aka Wade Wilson, and last but not least, Severus Snape from Harry Potter because he made me believe in true love with his amazing one-word quote: always." I took a deep breath, feeling like I had run a marathon by listing all those names down, and grinned at her proudly.

If she had been laughing then, now she was practically rolling on the car mat. I watched her with a raised brow, deciding whether I should feel offended or not by her reaction. After all, I did take her question and answered it seriously.

"Damn, that list just made my day," she said in between waves of laughter. Seeing how happy she looked, I smiled and joined her in laughter. "Are you sure you're going to name your kid Aragorn?" Autumn raised one brow and inclined her head towards me. "Aragorn Ronan." She tasted the name a few times before nodding. "That sounds pretty legit." Her lips twitched again and I knew she must be thinking of another joke. Sure enough, she blurted, "definitely better than Yoda Ronan."

This time, even I could not refrain myself. I must admit, Yoda Ronan sounded weird as fuck. "Okay, that one sounds not as good as I thought."

When we finally stopped laughing, Autumn put her hand on the door's handle. "Okay, I must go now before I pee myself here thinking of those names."

I suddenly felt sad that she was leaving. Damn. If only Isobel called or texted me first that she'd be at home, I would have taken Autumn elsewhere. "Alright. Good night!"

"Good night!" She smiled then got out of the car. As she reached the entrance of her building, she looked over her shoulder and waved before entering the building.

Staring ahead, the reality settled in again. The bad news I had received earlier today was not just bad news. News mostly overrated or even untrue but this one was as real as it could get. I did not want to die, obviously, I mean, who would, so I had to start thinking of the steps I was going to take. Surgery, chemotherapy, and other horrible stuff that I had never imagined I had to deal with.

I pressed the ignition button and was about to get into the road when I noticed something sparkly on the car mat. "What is that?" I bent forward and grabbed it. It was hairpin, something Autumn always used to put the hair in the front of her face in place. I played it with one hand as I tried to decide whether I should give it back to her now or tomorrow. My hand decided it for me as it grabbed the door handle. "Ah, maybe tomorrow. She probably has more of this. This cannot be the only hairpin she has, right? Right?" I stayed still for ten seconds. "Fuck it." I opened the car door and got outside.

I had gone to her place a few times so I knew my way to her apartment. What I did not know was when I got there, she was not alone. Standing in front of her apartment, there were two guys wearing all-black attire. One of them was holding her wrist, dragging her to go with them while the other was on the phone.

"Hey! What the fuck do you think you're doing?!" I sped towards them and grabbed Autumn's arm then yanked her to my side. The guy who had not expected this clearly did not hold her as firm because he let go of her wrist. "Who are you, people?"

"Frazier, I think they're the Italians," Autumn whispered to me.

The guy, who was on the phone, suddenly realized the situation, put his phone away and glared at me. "Don't be stupid. If you want to live, give us the girl."

"Yeah, that's not gonna happen." I rolled my eyes. How stupid were these guys? I would not even give Autumn to her dumbass ex Tyler had it been my choice, there was no way in hell I would give her to these two morons. "Why don't you two fuckers leave before I call the cops?"

"Oh, really? Since that girl mentioned Italians, you probably know who we are. We are not someone you should be messing around with, boy." The guy who had held Autumn moved forward. "Save us the trouble of skinning you alive and hand over the girl."

Slowly, I slid my hand into my pocket where my phone was and pressed the volume button using my thumb. I pressed it until my thumb felt numb.

I smirked and raised my eyebrows as I said, "Suck. My. Dick." Both of the guys stared at me as if they did not hear what I just said. "Well, in Italian it's succhiarmi il cazzo, cretino!"

And that was when it happened. The guy pulled out a gun and without hesitation, he shot my knee and then my stomach. No matter how hard I had worked out in the gym, I was no match for bullets and guns. As I fell onto the floor, I could hear the noise. It seemed that the moron who was supposed to be professional in the whole being a thug thing had not put the silencer before he shot me. Fucking moron.

"Shit!" was the last thing I heard coming out of those fuckers' mouths before my eyes suddenly felt so damn heavy. I heard Autumn yelling, calling my name multiple times but deep down, I knew that even she could not wake me up.

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a/n: two more chapters, can you believe it, my angels? It has been a crazy ride. I enjoy all of your comments, truly it made my day that you are willing to spend some of your time to write (type) them! What do you think about Faith and Mario? Do you like how he proposed to her? Also, what do you think will happen next now that Tyler finally called quit? Let me know your answer to these in comments ;) loads of pizza, agi x

p.s. Do you think Phraser will make it? For Phraser x Autumn shippers, tell me, why do you think they should be together? The same question goes for Tyler x Autumn shippers ;) I wanna know!