Sexy Papa Wilson ^^

Brandon

It's has been a couple of days since Kevin and i kissed and told each other how we feel and, nothing has changed. We act like nothing happened. Except it's kind of awkward. I need to do something.

I sigh. Currently I'm in photography class and usually I'm always in the mood to take pictures and learn new techniques for taking pictures and stuff. It's my favorite class seeing as i want to be a photographer in the future but Kevin is in my head and i can't get him out.

"Brandon?" i look up and see Mr. Woods and half the class staring right at me.

"Yes Mr. Woods?" I ask with an innocent smile. He just glares at me but i know he's not all that mad at me because I'm one of his favorite students because I'm nice and a great photographer.

"Will you just please pay attention. We will have a test over these techniques tomorrow and i don't want to see you fail that test. Now lets continue where we left off and nobody get distracted anymore." He looks at me at the end of his sentence and i just smile innocently. He laughs and goes back to teaching like usual.

This time i try and rid any thoughts that i have of Kevin and just listen to my teacher. Lately in every class though I'm distracted by Kevin. The hard part of it all is that he is in almost all of my classes and he is an everyday part of my life that i cant get rid off. He's my best friend and we've always been around each other but now it's kind of awkward. Christy and James have tried everything, i swear. We don't even hang out like we used to. He mostly has swim practice. Usually i'd stay and watch but now i make up some excuse, like i have a job interview, which i do only today though. I need a job to distract me from Kevin. That sounds really awful but it's the truth.

After another 20 minutes of listening to Mr. Woods talk the bell rings and i haul ass. I'm leaving for the day i don't really want to be at school. I came to my first class of the day and that's it though. I'm a bad student. Sike. I'm a really good student i just don't, yet do, want to see Kevin. I know he'll come chasing after me though. I make it to my car and just as i do i get a call instead of a text from Kevin. I debate on whether i should answer it or not. I decide not to but then it starts ringing again so i turn it off. I start my car and make my way out of the school parking lot.

I don't really know where i'm going. I'm just driving around but then something comes up. I start driving a bit further from the city and keeping going for 30 minutes or so. I listen to some music from my phone and soon mine and Kevin's favorite song comes on.

"Dance me to your beauty like a burning violin. Dance me through the panic 'til I'm gathered safely in. Lift me like an olive branch, be my homeward dove, and dance me to the end of love. Please dance me to the end of love." I start to sing the song softly and think of Kevin when he sings it. He loves The Civil Wars so much.

"Oh let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone. Oh let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon. Oh show me slowly what I only know the limits of, and dance me to the end of love. Please dance me to the end of love. Oh dance me to the wedding now, oh, dance me on and on, and dance me very tenderly and dance me very long. We're both of us beneath our love, and both of us above, and dance me to the end of love, ooh. Won't you dance me to the end of love." The song ends just as i arrive to where i was headed. I park and get out of my car. I leave everything in the car except my car keys of course. I make my way through the cemetery until i find my parents.

I see my mother's head stone first.

Janette Marie Elkin

Beloved Daughter, Wife, Mother and Friend.

Rest In Peace

Then I see my father's right next to her's. Forever together like they said they'd be.

Brendan Elkin

Beloved Son, Husband, Father, and Friend

Rest In Peace

I kneel down in front of them, tears forming in my eyes already. "Hey mom, dad. How are you guys? I miss you. I miss you so much. I wish you were still here with me. I'm lost with you." I cry out to them.I end up just sitting there and cry for who knows how long.

Then i start to tell them everything. Everything from me missing them, to me and Kevin. I really miss them and i never thought we would be separated and they aren't here to help me with Kevin. If they were here though, they'd smack me upside the head and tell me to toughen up and ask Kevin to just date me or work things out. Yeah, sounds like something they would say. Before they passed they had already known that I love Kevin. They didn't care, they didn't love me any less and I loved them even more for that. They were even wishing that me and Kevin would date since we were little kids. I chuckle at that memory. Sigh. After a couple of minutes I get up and say my goodbyes.

"I love you mom and dad. Please keep watching over me like I know you are. I'll come back another time. Bye." I kiss my fingers then press them to their headstone. First my mom's then my dad's.

I make my way back to my car and start it right away seeing as i was sitting in the cold for a while. I look at the time on my car and realize i was there for a good two hours. I turn my phone on and see i have 14 missed calls from everyone and like 50 messages, most from Kevin. I text him back reassuring him that I'm okay and that I'm headed to Lake Michigan after visiting my parents. I don't wait for his response and start the drive to the lake.

I know it's winter but i still want to go. The lake has good memories for me. It always reminds me of my parents, but also of Kevin. My parents would always take me here and we always had a great time. And with Kevin, well he told me his biggest secret here. That's when he came out to me. That's when i thought i had a chance. I DO have a chance, but I'm being a little bitch and not doing anything. Ugh. My head hurts now.

I eventually make it to the lake and I'm glad it's cold outside because that means no people. Well not so early because people still go all the time. Anyways, I make way to the sand and just sit. I look up into the dark sky, even though it's still early. It's cause it's Chicago and that's how it usually is in the winter. I take my phone out and see a message from Kevin.

Kevin: We are on our way.

We? I guess that means him, his dads, Christy and James. I know his dads would come because he must of told them i skipped out on school and i never do that so, yeah. Why all of them though? Oh well. I'll enjoy my alone time for now. Or for the next twenty minutes. I stare off into the ocean for a while until i hear my name being shouted by an all too familiar voice.

I turn and see everyone walking towards me with a, basket? Why a basket? Oh! Maybe they brought food. Thank goodness cause I'm really hungry. I didn't eat breakfast and no crappy school lunch.

I get up and papa Wilson opens his arms to me. I walk up to him and hug him. He's alot smaller than me though. Papa is like my best friend. He said he fell in love with me like he did when Kevin was born. That meaning he loves me like his very own son. And i love him cause he's good at cooking and makes me cookies. Of course he is like another father to me, actually more like a mother but if i tell him that he'll kill me. Oh and I can't forget daddy Liam, as i called hin when i was younger. I still do and i don't care what people say. He's like a father as well. Without them two I wouldn't have someone to guide me. They're here for me, just like my friends are.

After i hug the dads, Christy and James i hug Kevin last. He wraps his arms around my torso tightly. I hold him close to me. He's so warm and small. He smells like his, and don't judge him he loves it, cherry blossom lotion. An old friend of his bought it for him a long time ago and he fell in love with it. He always has to have his lotion.

We hold each other a little longer before we let go. Everyone is stareing. I blush and i turn to Kevin who is very red. Aww. He's so cute! We sit afterwards and papa Wilson takes out food and plates.

"So care to explain why you skipped school Brandon?" Daddy Liam asks with a not too happy look.

"Umm...I needed to think a bit?" I don't know if that will let me of the hook to easy.

"That's no reason to skip school Brandon. You should of tried to get through the day or contacted one of us. We would of been there for you." Papa Wilson says as he gives me food along with everyone else.

"I know but i didn't want to bother you guys." I start eating and they don't say anything else. I'm surprised that my friends aren't saying anything.

We eat quietly for a while until Christy and James start conversation. We all eventually start talking. I talk very little though. It's really cold so once we finish we pack up. Everyone heads to their cars and I start to as well but i get my arm grabbed. I know it's Kevin though.

"Can we talk for a little?" Kevin asks quietly. I nod my head.

"But let me tell your dads first." He nod and tells me he'll wait. I go tell to his parents and they tell us not to stay in the cold too long. They also give us a big blanket that they had in the car.

I make my way back to Kevin and see him sitting on the sand. He's shaking so i grab the blanket, wrap it around myself then sit behind him while wrapping the blanket around him too. He seems surprised but either way cuddles into my chest. Ah it's so much warmer now. I hold him closer and wait for him to talk. I know he wants to say something so I don't say anything.

"Okay, i think I'm mentally prepared to talk now." i chuckle at that. He suddenly slaps my thigh though.

"Don't laugh! I'm nervous!" he whines.

"I can tell. When you're nervous you bite your finger which you shouldn't. It's bad and they're cold right now, so you'll end up in pain." I grab his hands and I intertwine our fingers together and place them on his lap.

"Well I'm not the only one who messes with my hands! When you get nervous you mess with your hands al ot like if you're picking at your nails with your fingers." Yeah, he's right. I've caught myself doing it multiple times.

"Well let's just talk okay? But first of all, you aren't cold?" He shakes his head no.

"Okay so tell me what you wanted to talke about." Let's get this over with.

"What a shame that the groom's bride is a shh!" Ah this song came up on the radio while i was writing this so i stuck in my favorite part cx. I am horrible with names of songs even if they're my favorite so i don't remember the name to the song. All i know is that it's panic at the disco. Anyways I'm done rambling. Bye bye!