((WARNING: Triggering material present! Reader discretion is advised!))
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Some things have to be said
But that
Wasn't just in my head
I always feared the worst for us
I warned you
It wouldn't work between us
All those feeling of infatuation
Were they all a lie?
I can never tell behind our constant interrogation
My head pounds with my heart's beat
The noise around me lifts me off my feet
The house is drenched in wine and beer
I've been at it again
You're never here
Why would you care about the affliction
It's an addiction
Feeling the poison run through my veins
The pain
It never goes away

I try, failing to keep it at bay