I always wanted to live long enough to meet my children's, grandchildren and be that old women, who would never ever be alone, because she would keep being gifted with family members like grandchildren and great grandchildren.

Then realisation his me.

Me living for a very long time would mean, I would have to be around to witness my friends die, to see the ones I know die leave and to see the ones I love die.

So now....looking at it again,  I'm not so sure if I want to live for a long time.