I am truly happy. I am married to Simon, we have a daughter, I finally worked my way up again, BGT is going great and we have enough money to travel around the world with Lexi. It wasn't easy for me to let go of all of my fears.

My father left me when I was six years old and I lost trust. I didn't trust Simon, pushed him away and treated him bad... Bu he fought for me and came back every time I threw him out. He slowly restored my faith in men and I agreed to marry him after almost ten years of relationship...

I walk through the supermarket, looking for food to buy for dinner. Lexi is sitting in the shopping cart and tries to grab everything colourful. "Lexi no... You are too young for that," I say and grab the alcohol out of her hand.

She is only three so she doesn't see anything bad in this colourful drink. "You ain't gonna drink or else your daddy will kill both of us," I say and tickle her sides and kiss the tip of her nose softly. "Amanda..."

I turn around slowly and hot, salty tears well up in my eyes as I look at the man standing in front of me. "Is that my grandchild?" he asks and I grab Lexi and pull her close to me. "What do you want?" I ask harshly. "I want to talk..." he says. Lie. He always lies. He didn't want to talk for the past thirty years. Why now?

"That's just complete bullshit," I say and Lexi repeats the word. "Shit," she says and I gasp. "No no no. Don't say that word... Lexi you can't say the word shit or your dad is going to kill me. I promised him to not swear in front of you..." I say and turn my attention towards Lexi, forgetting he is there.

"He what? Does he hurt you?" he asks and I look at him, anger radiating off me. "No. He is the best thing that happened to me," I say and he sighs. "Then why do you look scared?" he asks and I laugh.

"I am not scared of him. I am scared of you. All I remember is your back while you were walking towards the airport, leaving us all in your past. I traveled fifteen hundred miles to see you, begged you to want me, but you didn't want to. You destroyed me. I didn't trust men. You made me lose faith in men. But piece by piece, he collected me up off the ground where you abandoned things. And piece by piece, he filled the holes that you burned in me at six years old. And no, he never walks away, he never asks for money, he takes care of me, he loves me. Piece by piece, he restored my faith that a man can be kind and a father could stay. And all of your words fall flat.I made something of myself and now you wanna come back, but your love isn't free.It has to be earned.Back then I didn't have anything you needed, so I was worthless. I would never leave her like you left me.She will never have to wonder her worth because unlike you I'm gonna put her first. And no, he'll never walk away, he'll never break her heart, he'll take care of things, he'll love her. He is nothing like you and he fouht for me for ten damn years because I was too afraid of commitment because of you. I threw him out thousand times but unlike you he didn't walk away. He came back every damn time for ten whole years. He showed me that I am worth the effort and uilt up what you destroyed. After ten years of a fight with myself I could finally let loose of all the insecurities I had because you had to go. The past two years were the happiest of my life and the twenty eight years before that where a living hell for me. I pushed everybody away from me, I lost all of my confidence when you left me at only six years old. I needed you. You were my father. You were supposed to love me. All I ever got from you was hate. You hated me from the moment I was born. You never showed me any kind of affection. I had nobody to turn to when mom died when I was sixteen so I travelled around the world to find you playing happy family with your wife. You didn't want me. You never did. You treated me like shit, you hit me and you mentally abused me. You told me I am worth nothing and you regret conceiving me. No kid should hear that... But I did and it scarred me. I could never move on. You abandoned me. Why do you think you have the right to show up thirty years later, when I am finally happy and finally have the family I always longed for? Why now? Why do you always have to destroy me? Why?" I say and tears stream down both of our faces.

"I am sorry," he says, sobbing. "Sorry won't do it..." I say and leave the shopping cart standing and walk towards the exit. "Amanda wait!" he says but I just keep walking. Lexi is playing with my hair and I smile at her, wiping my tears away.