I live a life full of lies... I work my ass off to keep my little girl alive and happy. She is six years old and her daddy has left us the minute we found out that she is blind. Since then I keep us both alive. And since then I also stayed single. But lately I have begun to fall for my boss and kind of best friend Simon. We work on BGT together and for him I am just the friend without husband and kids.

Nobody knows about Lexi. I always have a hard time when I am away with BGT since I can't take her with me. She would just be way too confused. She can't see where she is going and I want to keep her in her familiar suroundings. Simon and I were out for dinner and Lexi should still be with my best friend so I ask him in.

We walk up the stairs and I open the door to my apartment. We walk into the living room and Simon looks around. He has never been here but I have been at his so many times. Suddenly I hear a sweet little voice say, "Mommy?"

My eyes widen and I hear crying. I run into the bathroom and see Lexi sitting on the floor, blood running down her forehead. "Oh my god Lexi! Everything is alright... your mommy is here," I say and pull her into my lap.

I hold her close and rock back and forth while she is crying. "What have you done, sweety pie?" I ask and she just continues crying. I see Simon standing in the door and he takes a towel and wets it. He washes off the blood and looks at us lovingly.

"I wanted to use the toilte but Lilli placed one of her many boxes there and I hit my head on the bathtub... It hurts mommy," she says and continues crying. "I know sweety. Everything will be alright. Where is Lillie anyways?" I ask, angry on the inside.

"She went to see her boyfriend..." she says and I boil from anger... How could she?! She stops crying and I take care of the wound on her forehead. Simon doesn't say a word and since Lexi can't see him she doesn't ask who it is.

I bring her into my bedroom and place her on the bed. "So you are going to rest here and I'll come in a few minutes to check on you, okay?" I say and she nods. I close the door behind me and sigh.

"Mommy?" Simon asks and I look to the ground. "I knew you would find out sooner or later," I say and we walk into my kitchen. We sit down and I begin to talk, "You know... Her father and I were madly in love and everything was perfect. I would have done everything for him. So we were more than just happy to find out that I was pregnant... Well something went wrong and I nearly died while I was giving birth. My boyfriend was there the whole time until they told us that Lexi will be blind for all of her life. He left me in the hospital and I have never seen him again. I came home from the hospital a few days later and all of his things were gone. He moved out of town and I haven't seen him since then. I always fought for her to have the best life she can have but it's hard..."

"I am so sorry. I would have helped you if you had told me sooner..." he says and I laugh sarcastically. "You know at first I was open about her but they started to say mean things about her and especially me. I accepted it but as soon as Lexi was old enough to understand they were talking about her I told nobody about her and just kept her out of the public. She doesn't need to be insecure. It's hard for me to be away from her for so long if we are on tour with BGT and I hate it but I need the money. Of course I could have it worse with the money but I worked hard to get where I am today. Since the day I gave birth my heart doesn't work too well anymore. I have to go to the hospital every three months to make sure it doesn't get worse. My heart just works twentyfive percent of a normal heart and they say it doesn't look too well for me. I need to take tablets that can make it work for a few more months but it has been going on for too long. My body just gets weaker and weaker and they say I am happy if I have another nine months but that's it..." I say and he looks at me with tears in his eyes.

"That means you are going to die?" he asks and I nod my head yes. "I just want Lexi to be with somebody I love... I need to know she is being taken care of before I can let go..." I say and he nods his head. "Simon... I want you to take care of her," I say and he looks at me with wide eyes.

"Me?" he asks and I nod my head yes. "I have loved you since day one and I am afraid I said it too late," I say and tears roll down my cheeks.

5 months later

I look at the grave in front of me. I am the last one standing here. Alesha took Lexi with her to give me some space. Amanda and I got closer from the day I met her daughter. We married two weeks ago and I was there when she died. She was happy and sure Lexi is in good hands.

It's hard on all of us but especially for Lexi. Her mother was her safe place. She knew that she would always be there for her no matter what and now she is gone... forever. I love that little girl so much. She takes life as it is and I have never heard her complain about her blindness.

She is as beautiful as Amanda. I am sure she'll grown up to be just like her. God I miss her so much. One day we'll meet again and then it will be for ever.