I was at my peak
I was at my down

You hold me like a cadillac
You saw me wearing lilac

You were there
But now you weren't

Why..Why couldn't you do what you could always do?
I'm bastard
Emotionally wrecked
Like a mecha given heart
Like mother given child

I thought you're in my dreams
I thought you're in my reality

Same things just can't
I'm insane
I just don't care
If you have been there
But come with me anywhere

I swear
Or maybe more than swear
I could love you more than again

I'm so alone
Give me drugs so I couldn't be as fearsome

Come on
Take me with your bone
We will live in a quiet home
Where there will be no mourn

I want to feel
The way you made me feel

Again
And again

If you could only be there
Breathing and smiling

If only..
But I see you now blank
Hollow as hole
Flying with the dust.

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crying thoughts