As soon as I came from college, I ran down to the gate to look for my posts. To look for his letters. Day after Day, I was getting attached to him. We had met only one but the kind of bind that was getting formed between us was much more than anything else. Why was so eager to meet him? To get his letters? To see his shabby yet beautiful work? Why was I? Even I did not know.

His long hair falling his face and his lopsided smile, everything seemed perfect. How handsome he was....beautiful by appearance and by heart. And coincidentally I was the first girl to enter the canteen, and just like he had decided he spoke to me. But somewhere, a fear of losing the friend in him was haunting me, a fear that he was just talking with me because I was the first girl.

Everything that seemed right at one moment never stayed for the very next moment in my life. Ma left me and went away, I was laughing in her arms and she left me. I knew I was unlucky, I did not want this luck to affect us...Us? What was between me and Sameer that I was thinking so? We were just friends, and the day I get married, I will have to forget him.

I stood holding his letter at the gate thinking about Us, Even though we shared the pain, we wouldn't be able to share the joy together....after all it's destiny's game. I clutched the letter and held it closer as soon as tears trickled down, why was my life so miserable? Can't I live a life of a normal girl...well, normal girl's life would mean getting settled and serving your husband, I did not want that either.

I ran back home and locked myself in the room. I knew the only thing that could soothe me today was him. But I did not understand how? I subconsciously opened his letter to find Naina written, that was the moment of joy. Somewhere down there, I knew this was heading somewhere. I thought the feeling was single sided but thankfully it was becoming mutual or was it?

My tears turned into smiles and smiles into laughs. All the grief was engulfed by the warmth of the letter. The fragrance of his body...and the voice of his heart both were embedded in the letter and now engraved in my heart. To receive his letter and to read it was my only happiness....and now it was a need...to breathe.

I grabbed the pen and wrote back a letter for him. I wanted to meet him as soon as possible. Maybe in the college or the temple but I had to meet him. Only once we met but the desire to just keep seeing him, admiring his antics was too high.

Sameer, mera Prem

Mere baare mein kisi ne pehli baar aisa kaha hai. Taiji toh mujhe karamjali bhulati hai kyuki Maine maa ki hatya par diya thi...jab main paida hui thi toh maa chal basi. Pata nahi aaj yeh kyu bata rahi hu, dil kiya bata diya. Mujhe darr lagta hai, kahi maa ki tarah tum bhi mujhse durr chale jaoge, lekin phir iss chitti ko padkar laga nahi, joh apne dil ki baat itni aasani se rakhta hai dusre ke samne, woh chod kar nahi jayega. Promise karo ki hum humesha dost bane rahenge. Pata hai taiji kehti hai ki agar maa apni beti ko chod jaa sakti hai toh , koi bhi mere jaisi ladki ko chod jayega aur isliye mujhe darr humesha rehta hai. Aaj tumhara letter pakadkar ro rahi thi, soch rahi thi ki tumne letter mein mujhse good bye kaha hoga par padkar ankhein aur bhar aayi ki tum aisa sochte ho mere baare mein. Film se kam toh lag nahi raha tha...hum dono ka takrana aur phir aise hume pata chalna ki Sameer and Naina takra gaye sab itna filmy tha par sach tha, hakikath tha. Kya samjhu? Samjha do na...please. Yeh toh accha hua ki main hi pehle canteen mein aa gayi warna...warna humari dosti tut jaati hai na? Main tumhe nahi kohna chahti hu...mere first pen friend ho...acche dost ho mere. Mein tumhari Suman hu? Kehne ka matlab kya hai? Thik hai Mandir mein hi milenge had somvar ko. Agar tum nahi aaye toh main na...main tumhare ghar aa jayungi. Aur haan der mat karna, jaldi aana....intezaar rahega. Tab hai ke liye Chittiyon Ka sath rahega.

Tumhari Suman yani ki Naina

I did not understand why writing the letter to him and revealing my world to him made me feel satisfied. Where was the Naina who hid the pain behind her fake smile? Where did she go away. Did he take her away and replaced this Naina? One thing was there, I trusted him, his eyes did not look like a betrayers eyes. There was genuine happiness not like the one he would have had if he was going to ditch me. 

Hey guys,

I  know the chapter is not that huge but I couldn't figure out what to write. Hoping to write the next chapter longer. Also I have decided that next time onward's both their letters will on the same chapter. If that will make the chapter longer, then I will do that.

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Thanks

Roshni