Yet again my mind went innocent

And fell for the view of the perfect world

Yet again the whole imagine of pain became blurry

Slipping into being more than okay

Forgetting the real truth of how my actual world works

Trying to blend in with everyone with the real smiles

Knowing I can't ever be that but I did last and it felt good

It just took one word and the picture showed

The weak side won again

I'm a fake for trying to be happy

I'm a worthless piece of crap for even trying

I'm such a failure

I'm not supposed to be alive

Why do I try to only get hurt again

I will never understand it

It pointless fighting....