I know what I feel, sad and miserable
But I rather replace it with anger
I know I should be feeling pain doing this
But my heart feels at ease
I know I should be crying because I miss you
But I rather not think of you
I know you hate me
You never told me why
I know I'm boring
But I like being in my room alone
I know I can't be happy again
Because I like this sad cloud
I know I'm not worth anything
But I've tried to be
I know I look ugly
I see it everyday
I know I'm a social outcast
But why remind me
I know I'm a failure
But I'm seriously trying now
I know I'm alone
I get reminded every night
I know you're only talking forcefully to me
I see it in your body movement
I know I'm quiet
But my mind is noisy
I know I'm nothing
But I want to feel like something sometimes
I know I've become a mess, a rebel
But that's my minds escape
I know I'm not what you thought I'd be
Oh well, me either
I know I've lost it
I know I'm broken
I know I'm empty
I know....
But no one cared to ask