I really didn't want to start this but this song got to me "Black Veil Brides~Lost It All". Check it out if your into songs like that.

Suddenly feel numb after crying for days.
Sometimes i want to break something to let it out.
Sometimes I just want to show how weak I am and let go.

I'm screaming inside...im crying silently to make sure i dont disturb your nights.
Im cutting in secret to let the pain out.
Just trying to breathe...but i still want to die. I scare myself how much i plan my death....
All of this is happening can you hear me?