Song "Fix you~Coldplay" only expressing myself thank you for your lovely messages xx

When you try your best but dont succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you cant sleep

And the tears come streaming down yourface.
Sorry those lines explain how i feel

When im alone sometimes i wish someone was there
I miss people that dont want anything to do with me
I have gotton good grades to make them proud, yet no one notices, now my grades drop and they yell...
I have missed meals and i get the courage to eat something and their worrds are "you eat everything"
They laugh when i walk by, they say they know my secret and spread it round
They torture me and walk over me
They laugh at me like im a clown
I put my head down
I sleep randomly to forget or atleast get through the day faster
At night i remember how much your words have made me hate myself, you have motivated me to end it
The rope hanging there, i stand crying looking at it
The pills i hold i my hand thinking
The blade i draw across my skin but never deep enough to the vein
Why am i holding on?
I deny im in pain and say IM FINE
I get uncomfortable around people
I see the ugly faces you give to me
They give excuses just to make sure the lonely girl is not in their lives anymore
The compare me to people saying why cant you be useful

But with all this I just want someone to hold me and say its okay
No one is
I just want someone there to see my emptiness
No one is
They say we all have guardian angels, I believe ive driven mine
Ive pushed everyone away but i still need them
Theres no one there
I shouldnt exist
Im running away from everything
Will anyone help me?
Anyone?