okay so

yesterday my form teacher told me and Phenomexx to meet her today after school

and naturally we were both salty and anxious like "wtf why???" bc the only things we have in common is the fact that we don't participate in class much and the dubious websites we go onto during class-- (and our depressing jokes™)

so she (++ another teacher of ours) met me first and pheno told me to tell her what everything was about after I was done for

at first they were talking about my bad grades and stuff, which is okay, I was kind of expecting a bit of that

then tHEY BROUGHT UP THIS SURVEY THAT MY CLASS WAS CHOSEN TO DO EARLIER THIS YEAR AND IT HAD A SHIT TON OF QUESTIONS

BASICALLY ONE OF THEM WAS "I VIEW MY LIFE AS MEANINGFUL" AND "I TREASURE LIFE" AND ME AND PHENO PUT THE ALMOST NEVER/NOT OFTEN OPTION AND THEY WERE REALLY CONFUSED AND SCARED

okay at least I was able to bs my way through mine with a lot of smiling and explanations about issues that happened early in the year and how they were already resolved (pFft they still aren't but they don't need to know) but pheno literally just threw shit fake information at them until they let her go i'm crying

also, I went home and got scolded by my dad again :^) he started insulting depressed people again i'm