hello guys i'm back but not really oops

let me explain lol

basically i thought this hiatus would do me good but a lot of things happened irl when i was gone and now i feel worse than before

well to put it simply, i got into an argument with my dad and i'm grounded from all electronics unless it's for schoolwork (sneaking online now). he said a lot of hurtful and offensive things and it made me really out of it

(he told me that my so-called depression is stupid (i never even said anything about being depressed) and that all i needed to do was turn my mindset around (if it was that easy i would have done it long ago) and that's bad but he also called suicidal people stupid which is really offensive tbh i wanted to punch him)

he also called me worse than a useless pile of shit! and compared me to a drug addict! fun!!

and i tried rambling to one of those close friends and we made depressing jokes out of our lives (because she can relate) but i'm really scared that she's annoyed even though she didn't show it okay

because i'm grounded (and i deleted wattpad from my phone) until the end of the week, i won't be very active until then. i also won't be able to make any graphics so yeah 

thank you for reading