So like

I've been very stressed out and depressed lately?? I have a lot of things going on in my life right now--school commitments, 4 projects to finish by next week, exams that just finished and more exams in a few weeks' time, and my mum's constant nagging about being too quiet.

I feel like my class is very nice about everything but like I feel like I'm being too clingy to Pheno and Evie and other stuff now?? My anxiety has just shot up this year idk that's probably why I don't make friends hAh

And I've been thinking about the future too. My grades have been slipping and my dad keeps on comparing my grades to my brothers' and saying that I'm not going to get a good job in the future--he only wants me to get a high-paying job and everything and nothing to do with creativity. It sucks. I don't fricking understand anything going on in school (except for maybe english and geography) and it makes me want to punch something.

Another thing is that the more I read here on wattpad, the more I start to compare myself to others (even my friends) and then I'm just like,, "wao why are they so good wth I want to be like them" and then I start to think that I don't deserve my follower count

and tbh the number of supporters I have will probably drop after I stop writing Pokemon?? 

yeah I don't know about anything anymore. I've been thinking that I should leave Wattpad for a while--maybe deactivate my account and start anew, since half my followers are from cover and could just go to a new shop anyways. The other half of them can find new and better fanfiction to read, so really, me leaving doesn't really make a difference ;w;

lmao guys happy april fools