basically when i was 11-12 i had a small circle of friends and i was very close with them

and these were the friends who didn't ditch me after becoming popular so yes i loved them vv much

but then my best friend,, made another friend and we started hanging out together but everything was changing

the friend she made was extremely toxic lmao she kept on making shit up and always left me out in conversations but that was still sort of ok 

aaaand then all the shit went down when the "friend" started telling lies about me to my best friend. i tried to clarify them and tell her they weren't true, but she insisted that my other friend was right and we got into a really big fight and stuff because we were immature 

i ignored her for three months and started hanging out with my other friend instead,, we tried to talk after that but things were never the same and we eventually drifted apart oops,,, especially when secondary school came and we went to different schools

but basically yeah that was the last straw and all my Trust Issues™ stemmed from primary school

in the last few days of primary school i think the "friend" tried to apologise but we weren't that close so i just let it go because like i don't give a heccing hecc about her

and if all this sOUNDS EMO

JUST WAIT OKAY

a few days ago that friend messaged me !! she sent me a long ass message apologising and i was really happy because things are !! ok between us now !! and now my other old bestie wants us to meet irl again someday

^ so yes closure to t hat situation !! doesn't mean i don't have trust issues now but i'm just happy that all that was solved hO

why am i sharing so much today i have a feeling i'll regret this like an hour later lMAO