Chapter 46

"Daddy . . ." Eyda called.

Aiden loosened his hug on Ayah and made her face him with a smile. He stared at her eyes for so long as if he can't see anything other than those blue eyes.

"You're really beautiful like your mom." He squeezed her arms softly.

Ayah pouted and wiped his tears off with her little palms. Aiden let out a soft chuckle and held her hands tight as he stared at her adoringly.

"If your sister is alive. She'd be as pretty as you." He caressed her hair but a hint of sadness was palpable.

"Kel?" Ayah asked.

She knew about Kel. I talked about Kel ever since she learned how to listen and ever since then, she'd consider Piper as Kel . . . as her older sister.

"Mmm . . ." He nodded as his tears fell.

Ayah looked at his tears innocently and then wiped them again.

"I'm sorry if I wasn't there." He caressed her half-burned face.

My tears fell. How it was hard for me when I saw her half-burned face for the very first time after the accident. I thought she wouldn't survive and would leave me like what Kel did but she didn't . . . she survived for me.

Her half-burned face was like a mask . . . a mask to hide her true appearance, the features he got from most of his father. I thought he wouldn't recognize her even if he stare at her longer but he did. How funny both her blue eyes remained as if it was intentionally there to leave a mark for her father.

"I expected your mother's future daughter to love cutting classes too." He laughed and kissed Ayah's forehead.

"Daddy . . ." Eyda pulled his sweater.

Aiden turned to Eyda and smiled.

"Baby, you have a very beautiful little sister. Ayah." He introduced as if he was already sure.

"Sister?" Eyda looked at me.

I avoided my gaze and couldn't find the right words to talk.

"Do you want to play more?" He asked the two with a huge smile.

"Yes! More games!" Ayah shouted happily.

Eyda was just quiet when she nodded.

I chose to be far from them to give them time together. I know Eyda felt uncomfortable around me, she doesn't like me, I know that. Of course, if I were in her position, I wouldn't like me too. Who would choose a stepmom rather than her own mom who carried her for nine months, right?

Watching them, most of the time, Aiden would choose to be with Ayah, maybe because he knew he didn't get to be with her for so long. I hate to see Eyda being jealous at them like . . . my daughter was a stealer for her father's attention but I can't do anything, Ayah seemed happy that she's getting the attention from him.

I'm glad you got to experience it, Ayah.

Deep inside, I want to talk to Eyda and say sorry to her. I'm in the middle of dilemma right now, both can be selfish and selfless decision at the same time and I don't know if I should keep this going.

"Drop us in the school where my car was left." I finally uttered a word when the night comes and the two kids were already sleeping at the back seat.

"No. Ayah's sleeping with us." He said and started the engine.

"But what abou—"

"If you're thinking about Rhiana, we live separately. I'm the one who's taking care of Eyda and she pretty much cannot give her enough attention." He started the engine.

I became quiet for a while.

"Rhiana's mentally unstable. She cannot handle taking care of Eyda when she herself cannot take care of herself alone. She's in the phase of finding herself." He said.

She looks okay when I saw her earlier . . . I never thought she'd be like that.

The car stopped at his familiar penthouse. I sighed and looked at him.

"Drop me by in my house—"

"We still need to talk about Ayah, Miracle." He cut me off.

"But—"

"We will talk." He dismissed and get out of the car.

I couldn't do anything but to follow what he wants to do. It's all pure talk after all, I guess I should brace myself for an all-night explanation about what had happened.

Aiden carried them one by one and thankfully, no one was disturbed. I waited on his couch while drinking the coffee he gave me before carrying them.

When I heard his footsteps, I breathe out, trying my best not to get nervous if he ever gets mad about hiding his daughter for the second time.

"Where are they?" I tried to act natural when he sat beside me.

"In Eyda's room. Sleeping."

I nodded and was about to spray alcohol in between us when he snatched the alcohol off me.

"Hey!" I tried to grab it but he raised it high with his long arms.

"First, tell me what's with the sudden alcohol addict?" His both brows raised up.

I grunted and sat back, looking at the front.

"Do you still sleep on the roof?" I changed the topic.

"Answer me."

I put down the coffee on the table and shook my head.

"And the gloves—"

"Bacteria!" I spanked his hands that was about to touch me.

"I touched you several times this day." He shook his head.

I rolled my eyes and didn't talk any longer.

"Why are you suddenly afraid of bacteria?"

I didn't talk for a moment as I look at nothingness.

And then I saw her watching me again outside the glass window of Aiden's penthouse. Our eyes met and I immediately paled.

"Miracle?"

I closed my eyes and let out a deep breath to calm myself down.

"Why are you sweating?" He touched my forehead and I dodged my head off his hands at forthwith.

I'm so sorry. Please forgive me . . .

I opened my eyes and let out a sigh of relief when she ran away once again.

"What's wrong with you? Are you okay?" His voice was in deep worry.

I gulped and looked at him in the eyes.

"You want to know the reason why alcohol has always been with me?"

He nodded but his eyes were worried.

I smiled bitterly and looked at the glass window where I saw mom earlier.

"I just feel dirty. My body felt so dirty."

He was quiet for awhile.

"Why?" His voice softened.

"You'll be disgusted if you know the reason." I shook my head.

"Why would I be? You weren't even disgusted of me when you discovered that I sleep on the rooftop."

I flinched when he tucked the strands of my hair behind my ear.

"It was different. You were the victim while I'm the . . ." I couldn't continue my words.

"You have fear about being touched?"

I nodded.

"Because I feel dirty. But I'm . . . getting better!" I said happily.

"Let's make it best then."

My eyes widened when he pulled my nape and kissed me on the lips. I want to push him but he was too good it led my eyes shut. My hands were touching his chest, finding for the right time to push him away but I was too intoxicated by the sensation he was giving me, leaving my mind in complete blank.

Slowly, he removed the gloves off my hands as he deepened the kiss. I couldn't move nor kiss him back but he didn't care, he was dominating my lips completely.

"Aiden . . ." I grasped his chest with my bare hands.

But he didn't listen. He even pulled me closer as his tongue flickered ravenously inside my mouth earning a moan from my mouth. I didn't even notice I was already lying on the couch while he's on top of me!

"Did you know how much I thirst for you the moment I got to talk to you after years?" He whispered hoarsely.

I gulped as I felt the same thirst enraging at the sight of him on top of me.

He attacked my lips and this time, I retaliated, giving him the same intensity of rekindled fire building up within me, condensing the smoke of flames into a sweet liquid of avidity.

"Next time don't wear jumpsuit." He huskily said as his lips went down to my jaw.

"Why?" I tilted my head upwards, giving him admittance to my neck.

"It's a hassle to take off."

I opened my eyes when he stop and saw him expeditiously slid his sweater up. I gulped as my eyes wander around this naked glory in front of me. He grabbed my hand and made it touch his chest whilst he nipped my neck.

Damn. His chest felt so hot and hard. I thought I would need alcohol but this is giving me insane, meandering my hands on his hard stoned abs left me in thirst for more.

He put down the top jumpsuit, I arched my back to help him but it was hard in my position, I pushed him to sit on the couch and sat on his lap, attacking his lips as he try to take down my jumpsuit. When he finally put it down until my waist, his hands sneaked inside my black shirt as he massaged my two mounds with his hands.

"You improved." I said and rolled back my eyes up when his fingers started playing, making me crazy.

"Miracle." He groaned when I started humping, cutting his prolonging.

I could feel how ready his member is as I tried to meet up my clenching sensitivity against his iron clad sword. I opened my slurred eyes and saw how his jaw were clenching hard as he looked at me with his lustful eyes.

"Aiden . . ." I moaned softly.

That's it. He pushed me back on the sofa and started thrusting against my womanhood. I wrapped my legs around his waist and moved my waist to meet his thrust. Now I regret wearing jumpsuit because it's torturing! Especially when his hands caressed it as he thrust.

I'm not gonna wear jumpsuit again!

A footsteps made me push Aiden off me.

"Where are you, mommy?" I heard Ayah yawned as she go down.

Aiden sitting on the ground with one bended knee, groaned and messed his hair. I can't believe I still find him hot in the middle of being caught!

I sat on the sofa and arranged my shirt and he stood too. Ayah immediately saw me and ran towards me.

"Mom!"

She screeched and giggled when Aiden caught her and scooped her up. He was still topless but Ayah's innocent so she wouldn't think of something bad . . . I hope.

"Why are you still awake, huh? Why are you still awake?" He teasingly shouted and showered her face with kisses.

Ayah shrieked with laughter and even forgot my presence. He swayed her as if she's flying and she's laughing hard. It was easy for him to carry her upstairs and she didn't notice it, I even saw his smirk when he glanced at me. I just rolled my eyes and smiled.

He's really a good father. That's all I could say.

I stood and stretched my arms, deciding to take a shower on his bathroom. I've been here several times, I already know the twist and turns of this penthouse.

I stopped the shower when the door in the bathroom knocked. I grabbed the towel on the towel holder and wrapped it around my body when I stepped out of the shower room. Smirking on the inside, I opened the door in a little hole.

"Too bad I'm done." I said.

He narrowed his eyes on me but his eyes shifted down to my wet body I didn't get to wipe just yet.

"Let's undone it again." He smirked and entered the bathroom.

And we did it all night. I guess that was what the coffee for.

I woke up when I felt him showering me kisses. I grumbled and re-arranged my head that was lying on his arms while he hugged me tight.

"Good morning." He kissed my neck several times, it tickles.

"I wanna sleep more!" I complained.

His breathy laughter echoed around my ears. How he smells so good and fresh made my eyes open while he's playing with my fingers.

"You sleep beside me?" I turned to him.

"I already learned how to sleep on bed." He kissed my bare shoulder, I shivered.

"When?"

Instead of answering me, he sucked my neck, I closed my eyes and tilted my head upwards.

"Aiden, you're getting horny. We just did it yesterday." I said but there's a hint of desire.

"You're my last and it has been years. Of course I would be horny." He bit my neck before pulling off.

I watched him stood. He's already wearing a broad shorts while I'm still naked under the comforter. He removed the comforter and stared at my nakedness with a smirk as if it's his favorite dessert.

"Aiden!" I blushed and was about to cover my body with the comforter when—

He scooped me up and head towards the bathroom.

"I'll just clean you up, don't worry." He laughed at what he said as if he knew how ridiculous that is.

And we did again for the nth time. I guess we missed each other for so long that we were insatiated by how many times we did it. Now I feel so sore.

"Good morning, Aunt!" Ayah greeted, she must've forgot she didn't need to act.

She's sitting on the island counter beside Eyda with a breakfast in front of them while Aiden's in front of the two. He smirked when his eyes shifted down to my body. I'm wearing his black long sleeve polo and since I'm just like what I'm used to, it's oversized with his cycling shorts.

I bet he's already horny at the sight of it.

"Good morning!" I greeted and sat beside Aiden.

Eyda was quite when she looked down on her plate and started eating.

"You sleep with him?" Ayah asked.

I coughed.

"Huh?" I tried to act innocent.

"But why he on top of you yesterday?" She blinked innocently.

I thought she didn't see that!

Aiden laughed and didn't talk. I kicked his feet but he was smiling wide as if it's something to be laughed at.

"He not heavy?" She seemed worried.

"Huh?" I laughed nervously and kicked Aiden's feet again.

"You walk like you hurt. Did he hurt you, mommy?"

"That won't happen, baby." He pinched her cheeks.

The fork crashed loudly on the plate along with the glass that was cracked on the floor. We all turned to Eyda who got off her seat and ran upstairs.

"Eyda!" Aiden chased over her.

I sighed and looked at Ayah who's looking at the broken glasses on the floor. She looked sad.

"Eyda did not talk to me yesterday." She looked at me sadly.

I stood and grabbed a broom to brush the crystals off the ground. Ayah was just quiet when I finished but Aiden and Eyda still hasn't come down yet. I scooped Ayah up and decided to go upstairs but stopped midway when I heard them talking.

"It's not like that." Aiden sighed.

"No! You love her more!" Eyda's loud sob was echoing upstairs.

"I love both of you. She's your—"

"No! I don't like her! She stole you from me!" She cried louder.

Ayah played with my hair. I looked at her but she's just blinking.

"Eyda, don't say that. I still love you like the way I did. It's just that I didn't get to be with her—"

"You don't love me anymore!" Loud bang of the door echoed.

"Eyda! Open the door please." He knocked.

Ayah hugged me tight.

"Let's go home, mommy."

I sighed and nodded. Going downstairs while rubbing Ayah's back.

"Eyda's mad at me. If I do not go close to daddy she will not be mad anymore?" Her voice was sad when she asked that.

I understand her. She lost her only friend.

"I'm sure she'll be happy to know she has a sister as the time goes by. Let's just wait for that to happen." I assured her.

I looked at the stairs when Aiden hastened his steps towards us.

"I'm sorry. I—"

"It's okay. We'll go back." I smiled at him.

Aiden glanced at Ayah but Ayah didn't turn to him. She remained hugging me tight.

"Let me drive you home." He offered and sighed.

I just nodded and walked outside. Aiden opened the back seat for Ayah and I put her down, assembling the seat belt. Ayah didn't dare to glance at him, she's avoiding his gaze.

"Ayah, don't be mad at me." He whispered gently.

Ayah shook her head and leaned her head against the window as she closed her eyes, pretending to yawn just to avoid talking to him.

I shut the door and gave Aiden my small smile.

"I'm sorry. I'll talk to Eyda after this." He held my hand and squeezed it.

"It's okay. Don't be pressured." I nodded.

He pulled me closer to him and hugged me tight. I let him, I know he's having a hard time right now so I tapped his back.

"Please understand me. I'll try my best to talk to Eyda. Please don't think I'm neglecting our child."

"It's okay, Aiden. I really understand that." I rubbed his back and smiled.

But my smile disappeared when I saw mom looking at me with her eyes once again, as if she's telling me I have no right to be with him, I have no right to be happy, I have no right to have a family, I have no right in everything.

"Miracle?"

She's stepping towards us. Towards where my daughter is. I paled and once again petrified to even move nor talk as our eyes locked.

"Miracle? Who are you looking at?" Aiden blocked my vision of her.

I looked at him with my parted lips, hands were trembling in fear and nervousness but his warm palms calmed me down.

"Are you okay? What's wrong?" He asked worriedly and wiped my tears off I didn't notice came out.

My tears fell when she's now beside Aiden, looking at me intently as if guilt trapping me.

"Do-Don't kill her . . ." I was almost out of voice.

"Miracle?"

I sobbed with how closed she is right now. Begging her in my mind to stop doing this to me because it's torturing me.

"Mom . . . please stop." I whispered as I closed my eyes tight.

Warm embrace from Aiden made me calm down. He rubbed my back and caressed my hair that gave me comfort. I buried my face on his chest, feeling the protection from him against mom.

"She's not here, Miracle. I'm right here, it's okay."

I know. I know that, Aiden. Because she's . . . dead.

I hugged him tight, thinking he wouldn't be able to do this to me if he knew the reason why mom kept appearing on my mind.

Because I was the one . . . who killed her.

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Celestial Aurora