Warning: R-18+

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Chapter 31

It's pure lust.

After giving in to the man I love, I've never done it with anyone again. Perhaps I was too busy or maybe . . . I was just stuck with the thought it's only him and him, no other than him unless I find another man who can overshadow the love Weakling gave to me.

But now I realize I'll never find a man like Weakling again. No man can give me the love he gave to me even with the same man in front of me. He's not the same Weakling I loved and still love because he's not him and will never be him.

The Weakling I love died but I know for myself he's still growing inside my heart through the tears of our memories and seedlings of my love that keeps it alive and I'll forever keep it sealed and treasure as I cohere and adhere the broken pieces of my heart's beat.

"Ohh . . ." I moaned softly and tilted my head upward to give him more access to my neck.

And now, I'm giving in to him . . . again only that I don't love him today unlike yesterday. I'm not giving in to the Weakling I love, I'm giving in to a stranger because I know Weakling will never show up so might as well just enjoy my life instead of waiting for him to come back.

I'll spoil myself for now and will let myself regret later. I've never been turned on by a man for six years not until we did the scene earlier so now we'll just continue it only that there's no camera around us.

I pushed his neck more in my neck and he gladly nipped it well. His tongue seemed so skillful I can't help but moan from it. My hands played on his chest as I unbuttoned his polo shirt. I felt like he's burying me on the bed with the way he consume my neck.

I hear my dress getting ripped when he spread my legs wide using his bended knees on the bed in between my thighs. I pulled off his mouth away from my neck and guided it towards my lips. Now we both attacked each others lips hungrily as if we were both thirsty for each other this much.

"Ohh . . . Fuck." I stopped kissing him and bit my lower lip when his fingers started rubbing against my throbbing flesh even with the cloth against it.

"You're damn wet." He whispered hoarsely and bit my earlobe.

"Just do it. Stop teasing me." I commanded, irritated.

He chuckled sexily and I almost shouted when his hands entered the cloth in between my womanhood. I gulped and tightened my grip on his neck as he massaged it.

"Planning to choke me, huh?" He uttered, amused at the sight.

I didn't answer him and just stifled my moans, I'd look like too anticipated if I come with just a gentle touch from it although I am very much turned on.

And I screamed when his finger finally played inside me, hitting something I don't know why it pleasured me well even with the pain on it. My hips started to move in order to meet the rhythm of his finger while he's staring at me intently with his lustful eyes. I can't deny the fact he seemed so expert unlike the first time we did this together.

The first finger fuck he gave me, it was messy yet pleasurable. Today, it was pure bliss.

I dug my nail on his nape as I struggle my moans. He attacked my neck, it made me more crazy but just when I was about to release, he pulled off, leaving me at the edge, making me annoyed so well.

"Fuck you." I uttered, breathless.

He chuckled. I opened my eyes only to see him tasting his wet finger. It made me feel hot with those blue eyes on top of me, staring at me darkly while a smirk played on his lips.

"Not done yet," he played with my mound against the cloth.

My breathing hitched, I could feel my nipples hardening with the sight of him being hot on top of me. Even when chasing my breath, I managed to unbuttoned all the button left and he let me do it, not moving, giving me time to strip him off until his well built body finally showed up, inflaming the raging fire of lust in between me.

I almost lost my oxygen due to holding my breath when he swiftly ripped my dress from the top down to the bottom, leaving the dress worn-out in pieces.

"You better buy me clothes you thrifty man!" I shouted, annoyed just by seeing my clothes.

"Yeah," he ripped my bra, showing me the veins in his arms.

I grasped his hair tightly but he just gave me a smirk as he stare at my naked top. I thought he was done but then—

"Aiden!"

He ripped my panty.

"Ooh . . . Damn." He commented as he stare at my naked glory.

I grunted and unbuckled his belt. I can't be the only one who's naked because this ain't fair. But then I didn't get to finish it when he attacked my mound, making me scream at the top of my lungs.

His other hand played with the other one as he tickle my nipple while his mouth sucked my other as if finding a taste from it. My sanity completely left me the moment his free hand continued the edge he left me earlier while massaging my clit through his thumb. He's an expert for that and it's making me out of my mind.

Until I felt my body's convulsion because of the synchronizing pleasure he's giving me. I never thought I would want it but I screamed his name loud by the time his mouth reached my just released sensitivity, building another bucket of ecstasy with the help of his tongue skillfully playing and delving inside me as he thrusts his fingers against it.

"Fuck." I wrapped my legs around his shoulder and pushed him closer to mine.

His breath was a mix of hotness and coldness, sending me shiver and before I could even release another, he pulled off and removed his pants off him, enough to let out his erection.

"Aiden!" I screamed with the sudden thrust he did and it was so deep! So deep by how long it reached inside me! Thank god I was too wet that it slipped inside me without problem.

I may not be virgin anymore but this is just my 2nd time! And considering how it grew so well just like how his built grew, I almost feel my soul leaving me.  He spread my legs more wide as he pull slowly and then abruptly push inside me. I dug my nail on his shoulder as he thrust, it's painful but his lips and hands distracted the pain, leaving me to the edge of pleasure as he starts to create a new yet familiar rhythm inside me. It was a mix of speed and roughness, it made me moan and I'm sure my nails left a mark on his back.

"Fuck," he groaned and wrapped his hands around my neck as he dived in deeper.

I tilted my head upwards and moaned by the time I felt the pleasure. He was almost choking me but it wasn't that thight unlike my nail I know it hurt him. The speed became more faster and faster as if we were chasing something until we both reached the ecstasy simultaneously. I don't know what happens afterwards because all I know after the tiring session, my consciousness left me.

Hearing something unknown, I woke up from sleeping. I saw Aiden's hands wrapped on top of my stomach beside me so I removed it off. I stood although there was soreness in between me, internally, I grunted at the sight of my clothes on the ground, ripped and cannot be worn by someone. I picked Aiden's longsleeve polo and decided to wear it even without garments underneath. The manly scent from him immediately traveled through my nostrils.

"Still early?" I whispered to myself when I saw the window.

I looked at the clock and saw it's still 5 am. If I'm not mistaken, we started 12 in the morning since that's when we finished our filming and finished it at 3 am? So I only sleep only for 2 hours?

"No . . ." I heard Aiden whispered.

It's the same sound that made me woke up early in the morning and saw him sleeping and looks like having a nightmare. I sat on the bed and saw how sweats were all over his forehead down to his neck. He was panting as if someone was chasing him inside his head and . . . tears kept on dropping from his eyes.

"Aiden!" I woke him up.

But he wouldn't wake up as if he's stuck in the nightmare. I wiped his tears off but it kept another batch of it even with the neverending wipe. I tried to put my palms on his forehead and he was hot.

"Aiden!"

He rose up from laying, panting. His eyes were anxiously scaning the room as if he thought someone was inside the hotel but no one. Looking at the ceiling, he closed his eyes and tried his best to calm down. I held his hand, he opened his eyes and looked at me while my eyes were worried at the same time broke by just seeing his state . . .

"A-Are you okay?" He whispered, breathless.

"What happen to you?" I asked and wiped his tears off.

He must've not noticed his tears. Immediately, he avoided my gaze and wiped those tears away. He looks pale, still hasn't calmed down yet.

"Just a simple . . . nightmare," he chuckled and shook his head. "Uhm . . . can I go out for a while?"

I nodded and he immediately stood. He's wearing a pants but no top since I'm wearing his polo. I watched him got to the balcony and saw how he looked at the sky as if trying to calm himself down by the help of it.

I know I should give him space but I can't help but to follow him and go out to only to hear him whispering to himself.

"You're already outside, you're safe. You're safe, he cannot see you. You're safe . . . you can escape . . . you're safe. He cannot chase you . . . he can't . . . he can't." He uttered those word as if they were the memorized words he's already used to.

Who's that guy, Aiden? Is he hunting you?

He let out a huff and turned to my direction. His lips parted when he saw me just behind him, shock.

"You . . . heard something?" He seemed ashamed.

Silence enveloped for a while. Only the whistles of wind remained the loudest sound in between us.

"Don't worry. I can beat that guy for you. I'm strong." I finally said and showed him my muscle.

He stared at me for a while before he chuckle.

"Yeah. You're small but terrible." He commented.

"What?!" I shouted, irritated.

He just gave me a smile and pulled me inside.

I rose from laying but then immediately winced at the soreness of my body. The sun's rays already shining across the window, kissing my skin. I stretched my sore body because he made me feel worse than the soreness I felt earlier. I grunted because even his polo was ripped by him earlier, now I don't have anything to wear! I'm naked!

The door opened, showing me the criminal with his innocent smile.

"You're awake. Good morning!" He greeted.

"What am I going to wear?!" I immediately shouted.

"Uhm none? I already saw everything." He laughed.

I threw the pillow on his face and glared at him, telling him I'm not joking.

"Just kidding. You can borrow my clothes."

"Do you have bra?! Do you have panty?! None!"

His mouth formed an "0" realizing that. He scratched his nape afterwards and looked at my clothes in the trashbin. I crossed my arms, annoyed.

"I'll call a friend. Wait a minute." He said and stormed out of my sight.

I grunted and lay back on the bed. I saw his phone on the night stand. I can't help but to click my tongue bacause he said he's gonna call a friend when his phone is in here. I waited for a minute but then his phone rang.

"Aiden!" I shouted.

No one answered. I looked at the door, maybe he was too busy. I can't walk naked, he might get tempted again and the chance of not being able to walk afterwards is huge. He's too rough for my small body.

I grabbed Aiden's phone only to give off my good mood by just reading the name.

Rhiana calling . . .

I shrugged after realizing something. It's okay, I already accepted my Weakling died so there's no room for jealosy. Thinking of it, I answered the call.

She's crying on the line. Sobbing.

"Grayson abandoned me after that Alessia bitch came back! I thought she's gonna go stay in the Philippines for good!" She shouted in sob.

My brows raised. This asshole is insensitive as fuck. 

"You're still filming? Can you tell me where? I'll go there." She said.

"If you love Grayson, stay away from Aiden. If you love Aiden, stay away from Grayson. Make up your mind, asshole." I can't help but to say.

The line became quiet for a while.

"Excuse me? Who's this?" There's no hint of sob in her tone anymore.

"Aiden's one night stand." I said in a matter-of-fact.

"Oh." She laughed. "He must've missed me so much, he did it with the other girls. Don't worry, I'll go there as soon as possible."

I scoffed. I don't know why I was annoyed. If she's just in front of me, I would've yanked her hair down or maybe slap her face to make her feel the shame.

"He loves me." She said confidently.

"Why would I care who he loves? It's just his body I used not his heart unlike you." 

"What did you said?!" She seemed annoyed.

I ended the call and put it on the night stand out of annoyance. The phone rang again but I ended it again. For the third time it rang but Aiden already entered the room with the plastic bag.

"I brought you some in the market. Did I took long?" He asked and looked at the wall clock.

"It—"

His phone rang again. He looked at it and I could see how his brows both raised at the sight of the caller. I pretend I didn't care as I look at the clothes he brought to me when he grabbed his phone on the night stand.

"Go change. I'll just answer the call." He said and went to the balcony.

For a while, I stared at him outside. He was looking at the Greece's houses. He turned to my direction but I avoided my gaze and busied myself with the clothes. Probably that girl told him about our talk earlier. I took a quick shower, wearing the black one shoulder ivory dress just below the knee. The dress' simple but it make it look unique with the grecian styles on it.

I went outside and saw Aiden still talking on the phone. I sighed and decided to go out of the room. Aiden rented a hotel with kitchen and small living room. It's pretty big unlike mine since mine doesn't have any balcony on it. I sat on the sofa and turned on the television. We'll have a shoot later in the afternoon so there's time to waste.

"Oh, you're done. Let's eat." I heard him behind me.

I stood and stretched my arms. He looked at my dress for a while and nodded in agreement as if he picked something good.

"You're done talking to her?" I asked and sat on the chair in front of him.

He put down the plate with bacon and toasted bread in front of me and I ate it as I wait for his answer but he didn't answer so I looked at him.

"Did you two fight?" I asked.

"No . . ."

I nodded.

"You talked to her?" He asked after a while.

"Yup." I continued eating while looking at the food.

He sighed.

"Don't worry. I'm sure she knew well it's pure lust." I said in a nonchalant way.

"That's . . . good." He trailed off.

"She'll go here? We'll shoot for a few weeks here for the action scenes." I said.

He nodded.

"She said she will."

"That's good. She said she got dumped. You should start courting her." I suggested.

He looked at me and raised both his brows.

"I should?" He asked in confirmation.

I shrugged.

"If that's what you want." I looked down on the plate.

He stared at me for a while but I didn't mind him and continued eating.

"This won't happen again?" He asked.

"If that's what you want." I repeat what I said earlier, still looking on my plate.

"What do you mean by that? What about what you want?"

I looked up to him with one brow raised.

"Why? Will this continue if I said I still want it?" I challenged.

He didn't answer. I scoffed and looked back on my plate to continue eating.

"That's why I—"

"Why not?" He finally answered.

My brows furrowed when I looked at him.

"I mean if you want, why not continue right? We're both single so there's nothing wrong." He shrugged.

Silence enveloped for a while.

"Okay if we're both in the mood. Friends, no falling in love. Deal?" I said.

The corners of his lips twitched.

"No falling in love?" He smirked as if he cannot believe what I just said.

"I liked you but I don't love you. Liked, Aiden. I'm so sure my feelings are gone now." I said confidently.

"It's gone? You sure?" He narrowed his eyes on me.

"We love someone else but they cannot love us back for a reason so I'm sure we can agree on this, right? No falling in love. I'm sure I won't lose." I smirked and leaned my back against the chair as I cross my arms.

"Someone else? You love someone?" He tilted his head.

"Yeah . . . but he died." I chuckled and drank the coffee beside me.

My Weakling died long time ago and I'm just gonna use your body and face to fill the gap of longingness Weakling left in me, Aiden. After all, it's the same person . . . only with the different soul.

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Celestial Aurora