(I'm going to use my name in this one shot. Sorry, I'm just a huge fan of Simon. The one shot will be special because it will be a long one shot not because my name is in it)

*Tami's POV*
"JOSH" I shouted as I walked into his room
"What is it now?" Josh asked as his span around to look at me
"Simon's being mean" I said as I folded my arms
"Why can't you and Simon just get along?" Josh asked
"BECAUSE SHE IS ANNOYING AND CAN'T SHUT UP" Simon shouted from which ever part of the house he was in.
"HE IS A DICKHEAD" I shouted back.
You see, Josh is my older brother and I have to live with him because our parents got into a car crash and didn't make it. Because I live with him, I also live with Simon and Vik. JJ does live here but stay at his flat because of the fact that me and Simon are always shouting at each other. I don't know why me and Simon don't get along, in fact I've got a big ass crash on him; no one but Vik knows. I didn't tell Josh because he would get all protective.
Vik and Simon walked into the room
"Josh, you wanna go Nando's while Tami and Simon sort whatever it is out?" Vik asked, Josh nodded his head and grabbed his phone
"WAIT, WHAT?" I shouted
"I'm not staying here with that" Simon said while giving me a dirt
Ok, that one hurt
"I don't give a fu- I mean I don't care" Vik said and Josh nodded in agreement. They both walked out of the room; me and Simon followed
"Josh, you can't leave me here with him" I said
"I don't care, I'm tired of you guys fighting everyday. Just learn to get the f*ck along" Josh said before him and Vik left
"This is your fault" Simon said, I looked at him
"No, it's not" I said
Great another fight
"If you stop being a whiny b!tch then we wouldn't be here" Simon said, his voice was raising a little
"If you wasn't a dickhead then maybe I wouldn't have been rude" I said
"Forget it, I'm arguing with a child" Simon said before heading upstairs
I just stood there then walked into the kitchen and grabbed something to eat. After I ate, I headed upstairs to my room which was the guest room on the third floor opposite Simon's room.
Simon's door was a bit open and I could hear him on the phone
"No, you don't get it. She is a whiny b!tch"
"But I can't, she is Josh's sister for gods sake"
"I wish she would just get lost. Josh didn't even want to take her in"
I stopped listening and walked into my room, I locked the door behind me. I grabbed my backpack and started putting clothes into the bag. Simon wants me to go then that shall be it. After I pack the bag, I got changed into black skinny jeans, white vest, a black hoodie on top with vans. I then throw my hair into a pony tail, I walked over to my desk and started writing.

After I wrote the note/ letter, I grabbed both of them and my bag then walked downstairs. I walked into Josh's room and placed the letter on his desk, I then walked out and into the kitchen. On the island in the middle of the kitchen, I left the note. I walked out the house and locked it behind me before posting my keys through the letter box. I then pulled my hood up and started walking...

*Simon's POV*
The house is quiet, that not normal. I got up my chair and walked out my room. I walked across the hall and knock on Tami's door, might as well see why she is quiet. I opened the door to see that she wasn't in her room so I walked downstairs into the living room to see she wasn't there either. Wtf? I walked into the kitchen to see a note with my name on it so I picked it up

Simon,
You got what you wanted, I left.
Have a nice day
Tami x

No, she heard me. I didn't really mean it. Just then the front door opened, I quickly ran into the hall way to find Vik, Josh, Tobi, JJ, Ethan and Harry. How was I suppose to tell them?
"Why is Tami's keys on the floor?" Josh said before picking them up
"She probably drop them" Tobi said
Josh nodded and put them in his pocket before jogging upstairs. By now I had tears running down my face, I can't believe I made her leave. Vik looked at me
"Simon what's wrong?" He asked sounding worried, the others looked at me
"S-she l-left b-because of me" I said and handing the note over. They read it and then looked at me with hatred but also sympathy.
"H-how d-do I tell Josh?" I asked
Just then we heard footsteps coming down the stairs, we looked over to see Josh with a paper in his hand and tears running down his face
"She left" he said before breaking down, I quickly run to him before he fell down. I made him sit down before I grabbed the paper
"J-Josh i-it's my fault" I said, he looked at me confused
"Here" Vik said before handing him the note. Josh read the note while I read the letter.

Dear Josh,
Firstly I would like to say that your my brother and I love you. Me leaving wasn't your fault, I just had to. There's something I need to tell you which is........I can't, ask Vik he knows what it is. I hope to see you in the future that's if faith wants us to. Promise me, you'll continue with YouTube even through I'm not there with you. BTW don't worry it's not a suicide note, I promise. I'm just going away. Tell the others that I will miss them and that I love them.
Love you bro
Tami xox

"You made her leave?" Josh asked
I nodded my head
"But I didn't want her to, I was angry and I said something's over the phone to Callux and she heard. I really didn't mean it" I said with more tears falling
"V-Vik it say she wanted to say something but couldn't so we have to ask you" Josh said
I realised that we all had tears running down our faces. Vik looked a bit nervous
"She has a crush on someone but didn't know how to tell you and also because she knew you would get protective" Vik said
"Vik, who did she have a crush on?" Josh asked
"She has a crush on.... S-Simon" Vik said.
After hearing those words, everything around me froze. She has a crush on me and I've been nothing but rude to her. I made her leave
"We need to find her"
We that we all ran out the house and into cars. We all drove all around London...

*Back to Tami's POV*
I've been walking for God knows how long when I came across a park. I deicded to go and sit on the swings. I pulled my phone out to see text messages and calls from the sidemen and both Callum's.

Tami, please come back - Harry
Tami, don't do this. Come back home where you belong. We need you here - Vik
Josh called me and told me what happened. Tami, please come back - Calfreezy
Tami, I know you heard mines and Simon's conversation. He didn't mean it, please come back - Callux
Tami, come back. Josh isn't himself - Ethan
Tami, come on. We're all worried about you. Josh is practically shouting at Simon - Tobi
Tami, come on PICK UP THE PHONE - JJ
Sis, please please please I'm begging you. Come home, I need my little sister home where I know she is safe and sound. Please - Josh
Tami, I swear to god I didn't mean anything I said. Please come back home. I let my anger take over but I swear I didn't MEAN it, please please please come back home. This is your home and this is where you belong - Simon

Tears ran down my face as I read everyone's message. I logged into Twitter and tweeted

@TamiiiJ17 said:
I want to go where I belong but can't right now, knowing that there are sooo many of you that hate me right now. I can't go back knowing I've hurt you. I'm sorry. I'm going to close my Twitter account, sorry guys 😢

I tweeted out and watched the replies coming in. Some asking what's wrong and some tagging the sidemen. There was two tweets that caught my eye

@Miniminter7 said:
@TamiiiJ17 please come back home, please 🙏

@ZerkaaHD said:
@TamiiiJ17 please don't do this baby sis, come back home ❤️

More tears rolled down my face as I closed down my Twitter account. I heard someone sit down on the swing next to me, I quickly put away my phone and looked at the person. It was a girl about my age with blonde hair and blue eyes.
"Hey, you okay?" She asked
I shock my head
"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked
"I ran away from home after I heard my brother's friend saying that he wanted me gone" I said softly
"So you're basically homeless now?" She asked
I nodded my head
She stood up and held her hand out. I looked at her before accepting it, I grabbed my bag and we started walking
"You can stay where I stay" she said
"Can I know your name?" I asked
"It's Jessica Valentines but call me Jess" Jess said
"I'm Tami Zerker" I said, Jess stopped walking and looked at me
"Your Josh Zerker's sister?" She asked
Of course she would ask that, I nodded my head
"Oh my god" she said
"Fan?" I asked, she nodded her head
"Wait, so one of the sidemen didn't like you?" Jess asked
"Yea" I said
"Come on hun. I can't promise you that the place we are staying at is comfortable" Jess said, I looked at her confused
"I'm homeless aswell" she said, I nodded my head and followed her. We both walked to this bridge that I've never seen. We walked under it to find it empty
"I live here on my own but you can stay" Jess said, I nodded my head. We both sat down on the floor
"Tell me about yourself" I said wanting to know her
"Well, I'm 19 and homeless. My favourite colour is purple, I love R&B music and I love watching the Sidemen. Your brother is actually my favourite. How about you?" Jess said
"Well I'm also 19 and homeless. My favourite colour is red, I also love R&B." I said
"Who's your favourite sidemen since you live with them?" Jess asked
"Lived* and Simon" I said and blushed
"You like him?" Jess asked. I nodded my head
"What about you? Do you like my brother?" I asked
"Yes" she replied and blushed
"If you don't mind me asking but what happened?" She asked
"Me and Simon don't get along for some reason even through I have a crush on him. And today he was on the phone and told someone that he wished I left so that's what I did I left. Now that I think of it, I was always in the way which explains Simon's hatred. They crew never took me to events and I think it's because they were embarrassed of me. I mean I'm not even in one of their videos as well and I've been living with them for about a year now " I said with tears following down
"Hun, that's awful. I never thought Simon would be rude. And that's just horrible of them not taking you places or in any of their videos" Jess said and gave me a hug
"Hun, get some sleep" she said, I nodded and laid down. I slowly drifted into sleep..

*7 months later*
Over the past few months a lot has changed, I wasn't the same girl I was before; I had got the tips of my hair dyed to red, got a tattoo on the right side of my stomach it was a flower pattern with music notes and I had a part time job at a Cafe not to far from where me and Jess now live. Yes, me and Jess had become best friends over the few months and we both managed to get a small flat that was perfect for us, it's actually around the street from the sidemen house. They don't know it, I've seen the guys around but always hid so they don't see. I've been watching the guys on YouTube and noticed they haven't been the same, I have such a big effect on them and I didn't realise. Josh and Simon have been the worst out the others and I understand why. Me and Jess both are 20 now seeing as our birthdays had went by. I remember the video the guys did on my birthday, I remember them all wishing me a happy birthday at the end. God I miss those guys. I was curling my hair when Jess walked into my room and sat on my bed
"When do you plan on telling them?" She asked looking at me. I stopped curling my hair and looked at her through the mirror. She knew that the guys lived around the corner and she's also seen the changes in them
"I don't know" I whispered as tears fell
"Oh hun" she said before walking over to me. She grabbed the curling iron and placed it the the table then switched it off. She then pulled me into a hug, she then pulled away
"Come on, we both got work" she said and walked out. I turned around and look at my outfit in the mirror; black skirt, black vest with black flats. My hair was out and curled, you see I'm a waitress at the cafe and so is Jess.

*skipping journey to the cafe*
"Morning ladies" Luke -male waiter- said
"Morning" we both replied and grabbed our aprons. I noticed a group in the back of the cafe but didn't pay attention to it because they looked like new comers. I hopped onto the counter top and sat there, Jess walked over the counter and grabbed the guitar knowing what I was gonna do. Luke throw the microphone to me.
"Ladies and gentalment I give you Tami and Jess" Luke said in a announcer voice; people including the group in the back looked at us.
"This song is called Stand Out" I said before Jess started playing the gutiar

When I see myself in the mirror
Is this really me?
When I take off all my make-up
That's the person I should be

See I know once they get to know me
Then they'll see what I see
I'll make 'em all believe the story
And I don't know that I'm the lead

On this day I'll finally listen to what's been calling me
All it takes is letting go of whatever people think of me
This way I'll stand out and break away to be free
Happiness is what I can't live without

It's time to stand out (oh oh, oh oh)
It's time to stand out (oh oh, oh oh)
It's time to stand out

I'm a bird that's learning to fly now
I'm getting better everyday
And there's no taking the time out, yeah
Cause I've got too much to change

On this day I'll finally listen to what's been calling me
All it takes is letting go of whatever people think of me
This way I'll stand out and break away to be free
Happiness is what I can't live without

It's time to stand out (oh oh, oh oh)
It's time to stand out (oh oh, oh oh)
It's time to stand out

I'm holding on to what's real
That's what matters to me
I'm still searching for me
I'll search and do anything that I can
I've made up my mind
I will take a stand

On this day I'll finally listen to what's been calling me
All it takes is letting go of whatever people think of me
This way I'll stand out and break away to be free
Happiness is what I can't live without

It's time to stand out (oh yeah yeah yeah)
It's time to stand out (oh oh, oh oh)
It's time to stand out

I finished singing and handed the microphone back to Luke then grabbed my notepad and pen. You see everyone that worked in this cafe is like my second family, the sidemen being my first knowing that no one can take their place.
"Oh Tammy, you look lovely today" Jess said in a posh British accent
"Oh Jessy, stop it. You don't look bad yourself" I replied in my posh British accent. We both started laughing after.
"Tami, I need coffee" someone said really loudly. Jess smirked at me and I rolled my eyes. I grabbed the coffee kettle and started walking towards the table. I poured coffee into the cup and started walking away when I felt that the guy had slapped my ass. I gasped and stopped walking
"OH HELL" Jess said
"YOU BETTER RUN" Luke said
I saw that Jess and Luke both had came out with knives in their hands; no surprise. I quickly stopped them
"I got this" I said and quickly grabbed a water jug which was filled. I walked over to the guy and smiled before pouring it over his head. The guy gasped and stood up
"This is how you treat your customers. I've going to report you to the manger and get you fired" he said, I just kept smiling at him
"There is no need to report her and even if you do I'm not going to fire her" I heard a familiar voice say behind me. The guy got angry and left. I turned around to see my manager Mike standing there; he smiled and winked at me.
"I'm so glad you didn't hit him" Mike said and chuckled
"Hey! Last time it wasn't my fault, my fist just connected with his face. It wanted a better view" I said and winked. Mike chuckled and walked back to his office.
"I really wanted you to hit him" Luke whined. Me and Jess laughed
"If you want to see her beat the shit out of someone, just go gym with her" Jess said. I started learning MMA (Mixed Martial arts) fighting and boxing, I had to protect myself.
"The girl scares me. Are you crazy?" Luke said
"I'm not scary" I said and innocently smiled
"Come on you two" Jess said. With that we all started working.
*skipping 3 hours forward*
The group hasn't left yet and it was making uncomfortable because they would look at me once in a while.
"Well at least we got her to stop smoking" Jess said Luke while cleaning the table
"Guys I'm here" I said
"Oh my god. That was the worst when she started smoking, she also started partying and drinking. It was horrible" Luke said. I stopped cleaning and grabbed a beer. I sat on the counter and just watched Luke and Jess talk about me.
"Wait, why did she do that?" Luke asked. Jess looked at me, I nodded my head telling her, she can tell him. She sat down and Luke sat down as well.
"She ran away from home like I did. She lived with her brother and his friends. One of them didn't get along with her and she had a fat ass crush on him which she still has. You know how me and Tami are off the streets now and got a flat well it's near her home. We see them everyday and she noticed they aren't the same which cause her to drink and smoke because she knew they were in pain because of her. It's hard Luke because she still watches their videos, she misses them and is scared to go back." Jess said and by the end I had tears running down my face
"Aw hun" Luke and Jess said before hugging me, I laughed a little before we pulled away. Luke grabbed the beer and throw it away
"Stop drinking. It's bad for your health, Tami don't do it for us but do it for your brother. Think about what he would say" Luke said
"Well, he drinks himself so it doesn't matter" I said
"Tami, I'm being serious" Luke said
"He probably would be mad" I said
The door bell rang, we looked up to see Luke's boyfriend -yes boyfriend, he's gay- walks in
"Babe" Luke said before hugging him and gave him a kiss. Me and Jess looked at each other
"YOU GUYS ARE GROSS! FAGS" we both shouted joking
"What was that Zerker?" Gary -Luke's bf- say
"I called you a fag" I said and smirked
Gary dramatically grabbed his shirt like he was having a heart attract,
"No, what did you do you monster?" Luke said dramatically as Gary fell to the floor. It was silent for ten seconds before we basted out laughing. I was on the edge of falling off the counter top. Jess, Luke and Gary were rolling around the floor laughing. Mike walked in
"What the hell?" He shouted
"D-dramatic a-a-acting" I manged to say before falling off the counter and onto the floor laughing
"Oh lord help them" Mike said before waking away
We had manged to calm down
"Why don't we go hang out at Tami and Jess's flat?" Luke asked, we nodded our heads and said bye to Mike before walking out. We got back to the flat and just sat around. Just then the door bell rang, we all looked at each other confused. I got up and walked to the door. I opened it and there stood the people I thought I would never speak to again... The sidemen and both Callum's.
"G-guys?" I said with tears running down my face. They all had tears themsleves, I looked at Josh and he pulled me into a hug. We both started to cry, Jess and the others had came to see who was at the door. Josh pulled away and looked at me
"You've grown" he said. I nodded and let them in. We all sat in the living room
"H-how did you find me?" I asked looking at them
"We was at the cafe today and heard everything" Tobi said
"You guys were at the back of the cafe?" Jess asked, they all nodded
"How are you baby sis?" Josh asked. Baby sis oh my god, I've missed him. I started crying and he walked over and hugged me
"I've missed you" I said
"I've missed you too" he replied he pulled away and sat next to me. He held my hand and I cuddled into him, I miss the cuddles he would give me.
"Why didn't you come back?" Vik asked
I looked at Simon to see him already staring at me. He stood up and walked over to me, he held his hand out for me to take. I looked around the room unsure of what to do; Jess nodded. I take his hand and he helped me stand up then we both walked into the kitchen. He closed the door behind him and leaned on it while I leaned on the counter opposite him. I was looking down at my feet not knowing what's going to happen.
"Tami" Simon whispered but loud enough for me to hear. I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe
"I'm sooooo sorry for what I did" he said with his voice cracking a little
"I really didn't mean for you to leave. I don't even know why I hate you, in fact it was the opposite. I was in love with you the first day Josh brought you home and introduced you. But I knew Josh wouldn't let me date you so I had to get rid of the feelings by hating you but all it did was hurt you. I didn't mean for it to go this far" Simon said and broke down in front of me. I can't believe he actually liked me. I walked over to him and wiped his tears away and shock my head. I then stood on my tip-toes and did something I wish I done a long time ago. I kissed him and he kissed back. We stood there making out for about a minute or so. I pulled away and rested my forehead againsted his.
"I love you" he whispered
"I love you too" I whispered back before we kissed me again. We heard cheering, we pulled and looked at the door where everyone stood but I noticed that me and Simon weren't the only ones making out; Jess and Josh were making out too. I looked back at Simon to see him looking at me. I smiled at him...

*A/N*
Hoped you enjoyed this because it took forever to write, now time for me to sleep.
Tamiii xx