Ellie's POV -

"How about we take it back to the start, and you tell me where it all went wrong for us." Nathan replied, averting his gaze to the floor and avoiding all contact with me now.

"There's nothing much to tell. I got pregnant and left. It's as simple as that." I shrugged, not really seeing why I needed to explain myself or my actions to him; it's not like he would have been there for me anyway.

"But it's not that simple. You took off with my daughter, and then never told me I was a father. How is that right El? How?" Nathan questioned me, and it's almost like he was about to burst into tears if I didn't tell him the truth.

"I didn't think you would want anything to do with me, or the baby. I assumed you would have accused me of cheating and told me to get out of your life, so I saved myself the pain of you doing that." I sighed in defeat, knowing I was going to have to admit the truth to him sooner or later.

"And why would I think that about you? Unless you were sleeping with someone behind my back?" Nathan replied with a tone of curiosity.

"Yeah. I loved you and spent all my time with you, so there was plenty of opportunity for me to sleep with someone else and end up pregnant with their child." I replied sarcastically.

"If you loved me then you never would have done this to me in the first place. You would have told me the truth and we would still be together now. Do you not see how much you've caused me?"

"You have no idea what I was feeling the day I found out, and I had no idea what I was supposed to do. I'd found out I was pregnant. I was pregnant with Nathan Sykes' baby and there was no way I could bring it up in your world; not in a world where I was already hated by so many. You've got to see it from my point of view." I reasoned, because I knew how much pain and hurt I had caused him, but I did it for a reason that seemed logical to me at the time; I just had to get myself and our baby out of the limelight and I had to give the baby a chance at a normal life.

I didn't want her to grow up in the limelight, and I didn't want people constantly questioning her about the movements of her father whenever they didn't where he was.

I just wanted her to have a normal life, and have people who liked her for the person that she was and not because she had a famous father that they all wanted to meet - that was the main reason that I did what I did, but no one seems to understand that and keeps telling me I'm the bad guy in this entire situation.

"I'm sorry El, but I can't see it from your point of view. To me, you took away my chance at being a parent and you took my happiness with you at the same time. I never wanted anyone else other than you El. I will always love you; despite what you have done to me." Nathan sighed as he looked away from me again because he didn't want to admit that he still had feelings for me, even after I had walked out of his life and taken his daughter with me.

"I never wanted to hurt you Nathan, I swear I didn't." I sobbed slightly.

"Then why did you do it El? Why did you walk out of my life like it didn't even matter?"

"We were both kids, and there was no way I could handle both dating you and bringing up a baby at the same time; especially when all eyes were on you at the time. I was messed up, didn't know what I was doing; I just wanted out and running away seemed like the best thing to do at the time." I cried again, this time standing up from the sofa and walking around in frustration at the same time; all the feelings and memories I felt the night I left came rushing back to me like a sudden burst of unwanted energy and I couldn't help but breakdown in front of Nathan.

"Just answer me one thing then El...." Nathan practically whispered.

"What?"

"Did you ever love me, or did you just use me for my growing fame?"

"I loved you then, and I love you now. Nathan, I never stopped loving you. I just used James as an escape, as a way of forgetting my feelings towards you in some lame attempt to move on; but it didn't work. You're all I think about and, in answer to a previous question, the hurt I caused you has been the reason I've silently cried myself to sleep so many nights. And did you ever love me?" I replied through the tears, still not turning my attention back to him because I didn't want to see the look on his face.

"I love you El. I wish I knew why, but I haven't got a clue, I could just never let go of my feelings for you.  Every single night since you've left, I've done nothing but want you back in my arms and back in my bed with me. I miss you." Nathan sighed.

"I miss you too Nath, and I'm sorry for everything."

"What about Aimee? Are you going to let me see her?" Nathan asked quietly.

"I was never going to stop you from seeing you. It's just, it's just it's, it's complicated."

"She thinks that James is her dad and, by telling her the truth, it will only confuse her?" Nathan questioned, and he knew that he was right, even before I had answered him; mostly because I was really bad when it came to making people feel better about things and making the blow seem not as bad as it actually was.

That was one of the things that both Nathan and James hated about me.

I could never soften the blow. My looks always gave away what I was thinking and I couldn't make it sound better than it actually was, my looks just told the truth before any lies could even leave my mouth.

"I'm sorry Nathan. It's just that, after calling someone dad for two years of your life, you don't ever expect to be told their not actually your dad." I replied sympathetically, still with a tone of sadness as the guilt of what I had done actually came back ten times worse than it did when I first walked away three years ago.

"You know, if there was a chance for me and you again, would you ever go back there?" Nathan asked, suddenly changing the subject and putting me on the spot even more than I already was.

"I couldn't Nathan. Not after all this happening, and the fact you've got a girlfriend and I've got a boyfriend; and then there's Aimee to think about as well. It would just never work Nathan. Too many hearts would be broken." I sighed because, as much as I would love to go back there again and have the happiness that we had, it would hurt too many people; including our daughter and I could never do that to an innocent child.

"It's fine. I understand. At least I know now." Nathan said.

"I am sorry Nathan. Maybe we could go out before you move on though. I mean, only if you wanted to that is, and you don't mind being seen in public with your bitch of an ex-girlfriend?" I chuckled slightly, earning a smile from Nathan as well as he turned around and looked at me; catching me wiping the tears away from my eyes.

"Technically we never broke up, so we're still together, and I'm sure I can go out with you for one night." Nathan laughed back at me.

"Tomorrow? Half nine?"

"That sounds good to me." Nathan smiled.

"But this isn't a date, just a chance to catch up and talk about Aimee. OK?" I said, making it clear that there was nothing else to it. I just wanted to catch up with him a bit more, and actually give a chance to get to know more about the daughter he didn't know existed until earlier on last week.

He at least had the right to know some things about her, even if I wasn't going to tell her the truth just yet. I didn't want to confuse the poor little girl when she had spent just over two years of her life calling James 'daddy' and going to him when she had a problem.

"Yes. It's not a date. I get it, I'll see you tomorrow." Nathan said before he left the room and then I heard the sound of the door closing behind him, just leaving me here now and with nothing more than my thoughts and memories; especially the ones that me and Nathan had shared before I discovered that I was pregnant with Aimee.

They were good memories and, of course I missed them and I really did still love Nathan, but I had my life now and there was no going back from that.

Was there?