Part Eighteen ~ I've Got The Boys...Aimee...And Nathan -
Ellie's POV -
Me and Aimee were in Nathan's room, I was laughing at his attempts to pack his case while Aimee had passed out on the bed; I guess she must have been tired from all the running around.
"Do you want a hand there?" I asked, managing to stop laughing long enough to see if he really needed help.
"Only if it's not too much trouble babe." he replied sarcastically, throwing another top into the top of his case.
"Look, we need to start again because you've made a total mess of this." I laughed, emptying out his whole case back onto the floor and starting from the beginning; making sure I actually folded everything up so I could get more into the case. "Not that difficult, is it?"
"It is when your mum packs your case for you, just to make sure it's done on time. How are you so good at this sort of thing then?" Nathan asked, which just seemed like a weird question to me when there were so many other things that he could have said to me.
"I'm a woman. Duh." I shrugged, to which Nathan simply laughed.
We carried on talking while I continued to throw things into his case, finally getting the job done before he even knew it - I even found out that both Jess and Karen missed me; the only reason being that Nathan never told them that I walked out on him. He told them that we both agreed on needing some space, so I moved away to clear my head and he stayed where he was.
"So, how do we explain Aimee to your mum then?" I questioned him as we both sat down on the sofa, his arm immediately making its way around my shoulder as I rest my head on his chest; enjoying the last time that I was going to see him for a while.
"I don't know. Maybe that can wait a little bit longer?" Nathan suggested.
"Yeah. Maybe it can." I sighed, looking behind me quickly to see that Aimee was still asleep in the middle of the bed.
"You know, you should be proud of yourself. You've raised a beautiful little girl and she seems exceptionally happy, and most definitely full of life. With someone like you in her life, she's going to grow up to be amazing and everyone is going to love her." Nathan grinned, his eyes also turning around and looking at the little girl who was asleep in his bed.
"She needs you though. I don't want her growing up thinking her dad was some arsehole he broke her mum's heart. You're her dad and she needs someone as loving, caring and amazing as you in her life. I need someone like that as well."
"You keep telling me how much you need me, and I've already told you I'm always going to be here for you because I don't want to lose you again. As for Aimee, you need to take your time with her because we don't want to rush into anything."
"She needs to know the truth at some point and, don't forget it's her birthday in a couple of days." I replied, finally taking my eyes off Aimee and looking back at Nathan with a slight smile on my face.
"I'll be sure to send her something from our next state. I might even send you a little something." Nathan winked, as he suddenly kissed me in the spot which would always make me go weak at my knees; I was surprised he remembered something like that since it's been so long.
I couldn't help it as a little moan slipped out of my lips and he moved down my jawline, taking his time in doing so; this was all wrong but it felt so right at the same time and I wanted him to keep going.
"Nathan. Stop. Aimee." I giggled, attempting to push him off me.
"But, it's been so long and I've missed you. Just one more night?" Nathan smirked, continuing to kiss me, ignoring everything that I was saying to him.
"What about Am?" I questioned as Nathan moved towards my lips and kissed them more passionately than he had since the first time we actually ended up kissing again; and it was like it used to be with no worries or cares in our world.
"Guess we'll just have to be quiet." Nathan laughed as his hands now started to make their way under the top which I was wearing.
"Look...if we're going to do this....then at least get Jay and Max....to look after Am." I spoke in between the kisses.
My head was telling me that this was the right thing to do and, if Nathan was serious about being there for me and wanting to give me chance, then there was nothing wrong with having a little bit more fun before he left in the early hours of the morning.
But, then my subconscious was telling me this was all wrong and I should wait until Nathan had proved that he was serious about me rather than rushing into things just two weeks after we had found each other again. It was telling me that he was only doing this because it was our last night together and he was only going to use me, before never talking to me again.
I hate the male generation at times and I really wish I could read their mind, then it would make everything so much easier.
"Fine. I'll go and ask them to have her for the rest of the night. Just make sure you don't go anywhere." Nathan smiled as he moved me from where I was sitting and went over to the bed, picking Aimee up and walking out of the room with her in his arms.
"What are you doing El?" I asked myself out loud.
"I don't know El, what are you doing?" I heard someone ask and I turned to see Tom stood there with a smile on his face.
"I wish I knew. What am I doing here Tom? What am I doing in Nathan's room, while you lot all look after Aimee for me?" I sighed as Tom took a seat next to me.
"Because, no matter how you look at it or try to argue your way out of it, you love Nathan and you want to be with him. You love the idea of actually being with him again, and the idea that you'll have the chance to give Aimee a proper family; the one thing you never had. I think that, if I'm right, you've fallen for Nathan all over again and you don't want to lose him." Tom smiled and he was right.
"I love him Tom, I love him so much that it hurts but I can't be alone again. The last time I was alone was before Aimee was born and it was the worst time of my life, I had no one and all I did was cry. I hated my life, and blamed everyone apart from me for the things that happened. I don't want to be that person again, I need to know that Nathan really does want me back and he's not taking me for a ride." I sighed, holding back the tears which were about to fall from my eyes. "Aimee needs a proper family because I don't want her to have the childhood that I had. Is that too much to ask for?"
"Of course it's not El. If you want Aimee to have a family, then that's what she'll have and we'll make sure she never ends up going through the same mess as you did. Besides, who wants to think that their dad broke their mum's heart for the sake of another woman?" Nathan laughed, making me jump slightly as he took the spare seat next to me on the sofa and wrapping his arm around me again; pulling me into his chest.
"You made a mistake and it's not fair for you to keep being punished for it. You've brought that little girl up on your own, now it's time for you to stop being alone and know that we're always going to be here to help you. Everyone deserves happiness, and everyone deserves to be loved as well." Tom grinned.
"And, I promise you now that I'm not taking you for a ride and I really do love you El. I've had enough of life without you, so how about we pretend nothing ever went wrong and we're still that perfect couple we used to be?" Nathan smiled at me, and it was a genuine smile; not one of those which I had become so used to either putting on myself or seeing on James' face whenever he told me he wanted to be with me.
"I'll leave the pair of you alone. Just remember, you're never going to be alone again and we don't mind looking after Aimee either." Tom spoke, before he walked out of the room and closed the door behind him.
"Now, where were we?" Nathan chuckled as he pushed me down onto the sofa, his hands working their way over every part of my body as he left trails of kisses up my neck at the same time.
Suddenly, this felt like the right thing to be doing and I wasn't going to stop it from happening either.
*
I was lying their, admiring the ceiling and looking over to Nathan as he slept; his arm wrapped protectively around my naked body as I moved myself onto his chest listening to the gentle sound of his heartbeat - knowing that it was beating only for me and no one was going to get in the way of that this time.
"Will you stop looking at me." Nathan muttered without opening his eyes.
"How did you know I was?" I chuckled.
"You always used to do it when we were together before. I'd catch you looking at me when you thought I was asleep." Nathan replied, and I could feel my cheeks warming up as he said that and I was grateful that the light wasn't on or he would have seen how much like a tomato I looked right now.
"Sorry. I was just making sure this is all real and I'm not living in some dream again." I smiled.
"This definitely isn't a dream El. This has been the most amazing night and I'm going to miss you so much; I wish you could just come with us and then we won't have to be apart." Nathan sighed, finally opening his eyes and putting the lamp on so he could actually look at me.
When I looked at him, I saw the sadness and hurt in his eyes that he was going to be leaving me very soon and I wasn't going to be able to see him until he was done on tour.
"I'll still be here when you're done, and so will Aimee." I grinned, but then it hit me that I was living in America now and I had friends over here that I'd never be able to leave behind; while he was living in the UK and he had everything over there.
"You should move back to the UK. Come and live with me. My house feels big and empty when it's just me there." Nathan spoke.
"I can't just up and leave. My friends are all here now and, apart from you and the boys, I have nothing worth going back to the UK for. My family all hate me, my friends all decided they wanted nothing more to do with me and I sold my flat to afford the place I've got now." I replied.
"Your friends are always welcome to come and stay for a while as well. Just, give it a go and see how it works out for us. We'll never know if we never try?" Nathan reasoned, and i guess he was right.
Having him and the boys was better than having no one, and i could do with a fresh start away from everything that has happened over here; especailly with the flat that I've got now and all the memories of James which i have from them.
"Promise me one thing?"
"Anything babe."
"If I ever leave you again, promise me you'll come after me this time and you'll fine me, no matter what happens?" I asked.
"I'm not going to let you again El. If you ever feel the need to leave, then talk to me and we'll sort it all out. We're going to be a family, and I'm not going to let anything get in the way of that." Nathan smiled as he placed a kiss on the top of my head and wrapped his arms around me again.
"I love you Nathan." I grinned.
"I love you too Ellie. Forever and always." Nathan replied.
"Forever and always." I repeated before i feel asleep in his arms again, knowing that everything was perfect once again and I had my life back on track.
I had the boys.
I had Aimee.
And I had Nathan.
Hello people,
So, this is the last part of Show Me Love - the Epilogue will be up soon - so please let me know what you thought of this part, and just of the story in general really. I'd love to know if you liked it, or if you would read it again because you happen to love it that much.
Thanks for the support, and for the sheer amount of votes I've been getting on every single part I've posted; I never expected it to be as popular as it has been and that's all down to you as my amazing readers.
I love you all so much, and I'm sending you all hugs because of how amazing you've been to me and I love the support you've given the story.
Until the Epilogue, I bid you farewell.
Love El:)xxx
PS - to the side there is a banner of Selena Gomez who plays Ellie-Mai in the story. So, yeah, just thought I'd mention that to you all.
Bye.
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