I watched as Maria walked out the door, saying that she was going to her 'job'. Bullshit! Like she would want to get a job, ha! What a joke.

Still, if she isn't going out for work, then....what's she going out for? Like I said, she doesn't have any friends. Of course, she could just be meeting up with strangers. Why do I care anyway? Is it because she was my little sister's girlfriend? Maybe.

I release a heavy sigh before going off wandering through the dorm. I'm so bored, and there's nothing to do! I suddenly see a red leather book lying on the ground near Maria's desk. That isn't what I think it is, right?

I pick it up and open it. Sure enough, on the first page it says 'Maria's Diary'. I know it's wrong to snoop through other people's stuff, but come on! This is Maria! It has gotta be good. I sit down on her bed and begin reading.

-
Dear Diary,

      You are literally the only one I can talk to in this world anymore. Before, I had Peggy. But since she's gone, everything has turned so dark. Since she's gone, there is no more light. At least, none that I can see.

After Peggy died, I became so lost in heartbreak and grief. I completely lost control and made so many bad decisions. Peggy was the one person I could rely on to stay, and understand me. She listened to me, and I listened to her.  We were so in love, Diary! Then, the world took her away from me.

I know Peggy would be dissapointed in the way that I have become, but what am I supposed to do?! I don't know how to change back. All I know is, is that I'm broken. Peggy was the only one who was okay with me being broken. And now that she's gone, who will say that's it's okay to be broken? I just wish Peggy was still here.

Peggy would be able to guide me back out of this tunnel that I have lost myself in. She would probably slap me, then hug me saying, "Don't you ever do that again! I love you."

God, I miss her. She was my bright sunflower, and I was her elegant rose.

You're the only thing I have left of her, you know? She gave you to me for my birthday, a little bit before she got sick. Do you remember? Of course you don't, you're just a book.

Maybe, someday I will be better.

Love,
Maria

-

Wow.

Just, wow.

I never knew how much she was hurting. And I thought I was hurting because she was my sister. I have been such a complete bitch to her! I should've remembered how in love they were, because they were in deep. I never realized how heartless I was being. I put the book on Maria's dresser and walk to my own bed.

I remember that book. I was the one to actually pick it out. God, how could I have forgotten?!

-Flashback-

"Angiiiiiiieeeee, I don't know what to get her!" Peggy dragged me into the mall to go search for possible birthday gifts for her girlfriend, Maria. I rolled my eyes.

"Just get her something she likes." Peggy sighs exasperately.

"I already thought of that! I wanna get her something that's meaningful, though." I mentally groan, knowing that this is going to take a while.

"Why not some jewelry? Or, posters? Clothes? Books? You could get her a diary of some sort. I don't know!" Peggy then gasps and looks like she's about to burst with excitment.

"Okay, what is it? Just spit it out, Peggy."

"I know what I want to get her!" Suddenly, I get tugged into a random store. Peggy then zips around the aisles, clearly looking for something. After finding whatever it was, she yells for me.

"Angie, over here!" I walk towards her and looks at what she's standing in front of.

"So, you are gonna get her a diary?" She vigorously nods her head.

"But, which one should I get her? I want it to match Maria, you know? Like, match her personality." I nod absentmindedly as I look at the different diaries. Then, I spot one out of the corner of my eye. Perfect!

"How about this one?" I hold it in front of her face as she squeals and takes it from my hands.

"It's perfect! Thank you so much, Angie!" She hugs me, and I hug back. I'm so glad that I get to help Peggy and Eliza. They are my world, and I will always put their happiness over mine. That's what big sisters are supposed to do.

We go up to the cashier and pay for the book and go home to wrap it. Peggy decides to write a little message inside the book. She didn't know, but I took a look at what she wrote.

'If there is ever a time when I'm not here, and you need to talk, you have this to use in the place of me.'
'-With much love, your Sunflower'

I awed at it, admiring the strong love that was between the two.

When it was Maria's birthday, and Peggy handed the book to her, she was instantly in love with it.

"Oh Peggy! It's wonderful! It's so beautiful. I love you, so much." They shared a sweet kiss as Maria held the red leather book in her hands.

They both looked so happy, like the rest of the world just faded away. Soon enough, for Maria, it did fade away.

-End of Flashback-

I remember it all like yesterday. I realize that I had been crying and go to wipe the tears away. Tonight, I will make an oath.

I make an oath to be a better person towards Maria.

I will do everything in my power to make up for all the unkind things I did.

I'm sorry.