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chaewon was at first shocked, then she was a jumble of emotions. though this was what she had been wanting for a very long time, a part of her couldn't help but yell at her that she was wrong for doing this to her sister.

if they wanted to be together, they needed to do things the right way.

she gently pushed him away after a moment, thinking she was probably absolutely out of her mind for rejecting kim namjoon. but as she bit down on her swollen lips, she saw the confusion on his face too, and she started to explain. "no matter what, rin is my sister, and i can't do this to her."

his high from wanting to kiss her so badly had gone down and now he was seeing the reality of it all. she was right.

rin was his girlfriend, but she was chaewon's sister.

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last update tonight, guys.

im super tired so i'm going to be going to sleep now. im also really jumpy all of a sudden. idk how, but a rat got into my house and we've been trying to fish it out for about two weeks. 

stupid rat is sneaky though and hangs out in the kitchen a lot at night. right now i can hear it lurking so i keep making noises to scare it away.

but right now i heard it knock over something and it startled me.

i'm not scared of the rat, per say, but im grossed out and don't want it anywhere near me. i want it out of my house.

anyway, just something dumb and random about my life.

another random detail as well, i got back into playing the piano. i practiced for about an hour today and it felt so nice. i haven't had time to practice guitar, or piano, since i graduated and got a job. vocals i practice every day when i hum a tune or burst out singing to myself when i'm alone.

but i missed playing the piano.

-clary