John slammed the door to their master bedroom and Felix winced sitting carefully on the bed. "J-John please-" he started, but was immediately interrupted.

"Shut up!" John practically screamed at him and rubbed at his tear stained face. "I thought you were better then her" He sobbed and looked at Felix.

Felix's face pained with guilt and he started crying. "I am better then her! I don't know why I did it! I... I.. don't know..." he started sobbing and hugged himself. He made a mistake, he ruined his relationship with John, he ruined their whole marriage. John was absolutely furious when he saw the tears in Felix's eyes. "No!" He said making Felix flinch and look at him. "You don't get to be sad!! How could you fucking do this to me?! To Nat?? To Mike! To Ester and Tyler?!!" John rubbed his eyes and ran his hand through his hair as Felix watched him, tears still running down his face, quietly sobbing as he watched John unravel in front of him. "Why? I love you, I loved you" John said. "I.. why?" He started crying again and Felix wiped his tears. "I-I don't know! I.. I just saw him and I.. I wanted to sleep with him!"

John's mouth went agape. "So you didn't think about us at all?!" Felix rubbed his arm and shook his head. "I-I'm sorry! I-I used to d-do this all the ti-" John interrupted him. "I know! I know! I wanted to help you! I thought I did! I fucking cared for you. That's why I married you! I fell in love with you and agreed to be poly with you. I did everything for you! And you go out in the middle of the night and go and cheat!! Just like her!! You're no better then my ex-wife!!" He practically screamed out and started sobbing again, leaning against the wall. "I thought you... were... better" He slowly slid down onto the floor and buried his face in his hands. Felix just sat there stunned and feeling like he was hit by a train.

Suddenly Felix puked and he was on the floor with a sobbing Tyler above him. "W-why w-would you m-make us d-do that?" He sobbed and Felix looked at him mortified. "W-why won't y-you say a-anything?" Tyler hiccuped, tears still streaming down his face. Felix rubbed his face, crying. "There's nothing I can say that'll ever fix this" he told Tyler. "I ruined everything" He hiccuped and started crying harder. "Yeah. You did" He heard John say, only encouraging him to sob louder.