Living in our own little world was what Shel and I do best and right now, we were practising. The words just flew out of our mouths without a single thought. That was how comfortable we were with each other.

No, we weren't sisters but we were at the same time. It was just that unbreakable bond that best friends have. The point where we basically know each other more than ourselves.

Shel was blabbering on and on about what her boyfriend did for her on Valentine until a soft vibration and noise interrupted her. I have never seen anyone's expression change in such little time. For 1 second, she was all happy-go-lucky and the next- well, her eyes widen and her mouth hung agape. And this was before she could even answer the phone.

"Yes? Uhum. Yes. I understand. Okay, thank you," She was muttering her answers but the endless years of being besties with her had thought me to understand her. Even if she was speaking barely a whisper, I knew what she was saying. Or at least trying to say.

If you want to know or do anything for her,better ask me first. I could swear that I know her better than herself.

A single tear trickled down to her cheek. I could see that she was trying to hold before she could burst. I don't even have a single clue as to the reason that caused this reaction from her. Shel never cries. And if she did, she only cried with me.

"I-it's" She chocked on her own words and I had to stop her to let her breathe. Or else she could have suffocated.

"Shh, it's okay. Don't talk," I tried calming her down rubbing her back for comfort.

"It's Jeremy! He... died," her voice barely a whisper, struggled to hold it's stable form. It sounded like a wavering croak.

With this information, I struggled to comprehend. Jeremy was Shel's boyfriend. He was the only guy who had ever made Shel happy. Others were even jealous of them! She'll and Jeremy we're the most popular and most talked about in the whole school! Heck- they even made a ship name for them-Sheremy.

"H..how did.. " Even I couldn't find my own words and instead stuttered.

"He had cancer... Only I and his parents knew," Guilt flashed through her eyes but I couldn't tell why.

"How am I supposed to live without him? " Shel practically screamed in my ear however, this was heartbreaking news.

"It's okay,you have me. You'll always have me," I tried reassuring her but it seemed that my attempt was futile.

"No. Without him.. I'm.. " Her bright and glistening eyes we're replaced with a dark shadow, they lost their sparkle.

"Don't say that! You can go through it! I know you can!"

I didn't even get to finish my sentence.

She left.

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Shel didn't come for school for a couple of days. She didn't answer any of my calls and her parents were of no help either. It was a hopeless goose change. I didn't get to see her at all.

Loneliness engulfed me and I had to bite back the urge to cry.

No. What are you doing? Shel has it worse. You can't be crying!

But that was all before...

It all happened so fast.

I got a text from her- the first in ages.

Goodbye, I love you. I'm sorry I couldn't stay. I will always be in your heart. Take care of yourself, I'll be watching.

"No.."

I dashed out the school without a second thought. I didn't care whether I'll be punished or not. I didn't care if there were people staring at me as I bolted.

I just needed to get there before she does something.

Fortunately,her house was a stone's throwaway from the school. The door of her house was unlocked and I just bursted in.

Her parents were in the living room when they heard me and shot up of their seats. Their faces casted a shadow of grief. But their eyes show a hint of curiousity and concern.

"It's Shel... "

I didn't even need to explain myself. Before long, all of us ran up the stairs. And into her room,hoping to stop her at all costs.

She wasn't in her room. We checked everywhere. But her room was connected to a bathroom and there she was.

Instead she wasn't Shel anymore. She was just gone.

All of us gasped as we took in her appearance - Her body lay lifeless on the floor,her hand gripped a capsule of pills and cuts and slashes decorated her skin.

I didn't even know when I started,I just did. Crouching down, I wept and sobbed .

I touched her body that had been drained of colour and life. I brought her head on my legs and pushed the hair out of the way from her face. Her eyelids we're closed and her lips tugged at her corners. Almost as if she was welcoming and happy to die. But I knew her.

She didn't want to die. She just wanted to be with him. She would do everything. Even if it costed her her life.

That was exactly what it took.

I cupped her face in my hand,she was cold.

"No.. Shel ,why? You didn't have to go. I could've helped you. God damn it! Why didn't you let me help you! Answer me Shel! WHY! "

But I knew she couldn't answer. There was no response at all.

And there will never be.

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This is actually my first time writing this kind of story. Let me know what you think. This isn't a composition,I just wrote it on the spot.

I think there will be a second part to this story though, I'm not making any promises. Even if there was,it probably won't be the next chapter,maybe a few chapters down the block first. But that only if you vote! Byee