It's everything
And it's nothing

It's always there
But when you look for it you don't see it

The words keep it at bay
But when they leave, it lashes out again

You are left to it's onslaught of insults
The fear it leaves in its wake

You wake up
But the nightmare has not ended

You fall asleep
But the pain is still there

It years you part with guilt
Or at least you wish it would, and destroy your heavy heart

It seeps into your soul and makes you bitter
You though you were lonely before, but now you are truly alone

You try to drown it with so many things
Hunger, pain, jokes, arts, gorging, sleep

It never went way
You may sleep, but it never does

So here you sit
Alone, tired, scared

You want nothing more than to hide from reality
But you are forced onward

You are hungry but can't eat
You are tired but can't sleep
You are sad but can't cry
You are suicidal but can't die

And with it still around
You don't know what to do

You can't do anything
So you just sit there

It is everything
And it is nothing