Arthit turned back to confirm his eyes and indeed it is kongpop, his husband. Kong eyes is blank without any emotion, but it stare back Arthit without a blink to confirm what he saw is true. Arthit felt hurt and guilty he hang his head low in shame. His crush and the latter friend were speaking happily with kong who turned his attention back to Arthit crush.

After few minutes Arthit crush return back to the table with his friend. "Who is that?" Knot asked helping Arthit who is also curious. "P'kongpop is our tutor during our school days.. we talk time to time in phone but we miss our hanging with him, he is our best phi!" Arthit crush answered him.

"Is he single?" Tootah asked him. "No, he is a married one" Arthit crush answered him while his friend joined him "And he loves his husband lot, if it is not his husband he said he won't love any boys"

Tootah stick his tongue out at them. "We are really eager to meet his husband but phi said he will introduce to us once his husband finish his studies" Arthit crush told tootah.

Knot glanced Arthit in concern, he knows Arthit is suffering so he nodded at Arthit telling him that he is here as a support. Arthit nods back softly at him and excused himself to restroom. He opened the door and got stunned by the view. Kongpop is standing infront of the mirror with head hang low, his muffled cry echoed in the restroom.

Arthit called him softly and entered inside the restroom "P'kongpop" Kong lift his face and saw Arthit vision through the mirror. Arthit eyes catch kong dark eyes which is red from crying, tears flow through his cheeks to drop on the counter, his eyes shows how sad and hurt the latter is!

Arthit welled up by the sight. Kong quickly wipes his tears and turned to Arthit "I... am sorry... I just lost a deal, n-nothing else..." kong told and walks to the door avoiding arthit eyes. "I have work tonight so you s-sleep Arthit, I don't need dinner" kong informed him before leaving the door.

Arthit snaps to the reality when he heard door shut sound. He opened the door and rushed out to follow kong. He felt hurt and guilty, he never want kongpop to know about his answers in this way. So he runs to the latter to apologise but he saw kong hugging Prae infront of kongpop car.

He stopped and watched them, Prae leads kong to the back seat with care. He stood there watching them without blinking his eyes until they gone out of his sight. His tears finally came out, Did he just hurt the person who helps him when he is in need? he slammed to the nearby wall and cries to his heart consent.

Kong leaves out of the restroom and runs outside, he wants to leave, Arthit presence make him hard to breathe so he hugged his friend to calm his heart which is restless. He whispered softly to her "Take me away."

He wants to cry and pity himself but he don't want to do it infront of Arthit or anyone so he asks her to take him away.

Prae plays a song in high volume after started the car, she knows this is what kong wants, because whenever kong wants to shout, cry or curse he will do it while playing songs with high volume. Kong cried harder and harder mourning for his foolishness, how stupid he is to think Arthit will be his, how could he take Arthit as easy.

He is an idiot to wait for Arthit to finish his studies, he shouldn't have given him time, he should have approached the latter little earlier, if he did so.... by now Arthit maybe his, however now he is someone else, he like someone else, there is no chance for him in Arthit life. He slammed his fist on the seat while crying for his loss.

How foolish for him to dream about his future with Arthit without knowing about the latter feelings. Prae stopped the car and went out giving privacy to kongpop. She can't bear to see Kong cries so she entered the back seat and comforted the latter with sweet words. Kong hugged her tightly and try to take her words to his heart hoping it will ease his pain.

Arthit paced front and back in the living room for his husband. Last night Kong didn't came home, Arthit waited whole night he even called the latter more than twice but it went unanswered. It's already passed 10 in the morning but still Kong is not here, Arthit got anxious so he decided to call Prae.

Before he press the call button the door opened and Kong entered their home. Arthit rushed to him in worry.

"Arthit? What are you doing?" Kong asked in shock, he thought Arthit have class at 9. "Waiting for you Phi... you didn't came last night, I called you....many times" Arthit said softly.

"Sorry Arthit,  my work finished late night so Prae insisted me to stay with her" kong explained him averting his eyes.

Arthit felt a pang on his heart hearing kong stayed in Prae home. When kong walk pass him Arthit stoped him "Phi... I want to talk abou—.."

"I know Arthit, don't apologise and feel guilty it's not like you cheated on me, it's me who didn't aware of your feelings. It will hurt me even more if I hear from your mouth so it's alright Arthit, yesterday i got my answer clearly?.... I will not disturb you anymore with my feelings, I will keep my distance" kong told to Arthit without turning around.

Arthit knows kong is in tears, the muffled voice proves it. Arthit opened and closed his mouth many times conflicting what to say, whatever he say nothing gonna ease kong pain nor will change what happened so Arthit kept his mouth shut.

Kong took two steps forward before stopped to speak softly "Arthit, .... congratulations, he is a good guy" kong comments which bought tears on Arthit eyes.

Kong walks to his room in silence. Arthit sat on the couch with heavy heart and tears. After few minutes kong came down "I am going office Arthit, I will be back before dinner" kong said with a formal smile and went out.

Arthit felt more hurt by kong's fake smile, it's like they're back to first day, No! It's worse than before. He wants to apologise to kong but.... will it make kong happy? His heart wants to see his husband beautiful smile again but he doesn't know how to make that appear without choosing him.

2 months later::

Arthit don't know what he wants anymore, he feels dirty because he wants both person in his life. It's a shame for him to want both of their love on him. Kong is still talking with him but it's all formal. Now a days Kong didn't question him like before, the charming smile is replaced with a thin smile.

The latter seems so far away, because of his husband distance Arthit relationship with his crush start to shake. Arthit crush didn't prey on his weird behaviour although he is not happy about it. His internship is starting from tomorrow he decided to stay with his mom because he is doing in his own company.

"I am gonna miss you" Arthit crush wrapped his hands on Arthit neck from behind while Arthit stiffened and glanced his surroundings awkwardly. Even though they are dating for months Arthit still feel uncomfortable by the skin ship.

Arthit removed his crush hands slowly from his neck and turned with a smile "I will also miss you" Arthit confessed him.

Arthit crush returned the smile and stare Arthit eyes without a blink. Both stare each other with a smile, Arthit averted his eyes with a blush while Arthit crush chuckled in response.

Both walks to the parking lot from the canteen with intertwined hands, Arthit crush kissed the latter both cheeks with a farewell while Arthit peck his crush forehead with a smile, even though Arthit is happy in his growing relationship the thoughts of kongpop feelings is still hunting him.  Arthit reached his home and packed his things to go to his mother's home.

He waited in the living room for kong with his luggage. Time crossed 9 at night but kong didn't reach till now, there is no message nor call so Arthit called the latter. Kong answered the call and informed him that he can't reach until 11. Arthit bid his farewell on the phone with kong and drive to his home.

It's been a week since Arthit saw kongpop, he talked to the latter 2 times in this one week and it didn't exceed more than 1 minute. Arthit felt empty and sad, his mom is pampering him like he always wanted but it doesn't make him happy.

And his crush is calling him more than twice a day, their each call went more than 10 minutes nevertheless it also doesn't make him happy.

He doesn't know what is wrong with him for feeling always lose. His thoughts mostly filled by kongpop, do the latter eating healthy? Do the latter tried to cook again? Did he cleaned the pool? will he visit his mother today?

Many more thoughts, everything is filled with kongpop. He paced around the living room waiting for kong. His mother  saw him glancing on the door time to time so she approached him "Oon who are you waiting for?" She asked in confusion.

"Hmm.. P'kongpop Mom, he will visit you guys every Sunday right!" Arthit answered and glanced the door once again .

Arthit mother released a sigh "Arthit I started to doubt if you guys are together or not?" she asked her son. "Why Mom?" Arthit asked fidgeting with his hem of shirt. "Because kongpop already visited this Thursday and told me he will visit me every Thursday from now on" Arthit answered him.

Arthit eyes widen in shock, he felt hurt and thought in his mind 'Is P'Kongpop avoiding me? Is my presence become unbearable?' Arthit snapped out of his thoughts by his mom call. He convinced her with his lies.

"Arthit here!!" Arthit crush exclaimed while rushing towards the latter. Both Arthit and his crush decided to meet at the weekend for a date. It's been a month already and Arthit start to go insane by his feelings which he doesn't know what it means. He smiled at his crush and returned the hug his crush gave him. He felt warm but something is missing which he can't point out?

He pulled away from the hug and leads his crush to the restaurant. Both digged their food with Arthit crush narrating his internship details, it's not like Arthit don't know about it, infact he knows all things which happened in his crush life for the past one month. He doesn't know why? but his crush becomes so clingy since this internship that he daily called Arthit and talk very long, this attitude is unusual for him.

He also make Arthit uncomfortable with his sweet and intense comments which once Arthit wanted most. Throughout the conversation Arthit avoided his crush eyes, what if those eyes find the guilt and unsure feelings from his eyes.

Another month passed Arthit and his crush met 3 times in this past times, today they are meeting again. Like past dates they start with a hug. Both digged their ice cream silently, none talked anything but in their own thoughts. Arthit crush broke the silence.

"Arthit... do you still like me?.. I know you had crush on me for 4 years, that time you didn't know my character, now you must have studied it during our dates so? You still have feelings for me?" Arthit crush asked him staring Arthit without a blink.

Arthit lift his head and stared his crush eyes back. Those eyes need answer, a honest answer but he doesn't know himself what is the answer for that question, did he still have feelings for his crush? Ofcourse yes! But what kind of feelings he doesn't know because the feelings he used to be have only for his crush now changed to someone else without him knowing.

Gladly Arthit escaped from answering by a phone call for his crush. His crush answered the call nervously avoiding Arthit eyes which Arthit felt suspicious because his crush never spoke this soft nor have this scary expression like seeing a murder.

When Arthit crush about to kiss Arthit lips  for the first time in the parking lot the latter flinched and moves back hurting his crush.

Arthit bite his lower lips in shame and gave his apologising look. After his crush drive away with dejected look Arthit get in his car  and slammed his head on the steering wheel.

He doesn't know why the hell he felt disgusted by the kiss which he wished for day and night in these 4 years.

He dreamed of those lips many times, he wanted that man to be his first kiss but the moment he saw those red lips near his face and the once so pleasant breath on his face he got terrified and wrong, so he backs away quickly.

Another thing he doesn't know why the hell his mind need to flash his husband image on the exact moment.

His internship finished finally, Arthit rushed out of his office in hurry. Reaching his home he packed his things quickly and drive back to his home, his husband home. In this three months Kongpop talked to him only 5 times and that is Arthit most happiest moment in these past 3 months. Even though he scared to admit but he miss the latter lot.

He miss the simple breakfast and diner he had with his husband. He miss his cleaning chores with his husband, he miss his husband nagging about him consuming too much sugar, he miss his husband smile which will brighten his mood, he miss his husband praise for his achievement, he miss his husband omelets which his husband learned only for him.

He miss his husband hug which he had thrice in their 3 years marriage, he miss his husband soft voice, his questions, his praise about his cooking skills and he misses his husband presence lot. He knows....  this all only proves he has feelings for his husband but what about his crush.

He is not sure anymore what he feel for his crush is love or infatuation or admire, whatever he don't care anymore because he gonna find out that soon. He will give a chance for his heart to findout, he will spend time with his husband more and decide what he truly. He doesn't want to hurt anyone anymore.

"May, will you just sit little away from him? For god sake you are married!" Prae yelled at her wife in frustration. Prae is the one who suggested to spend time in Kong home.

Seeing her  close friend heart broken is painful for her, she comforted him many times and given her support when the latter needed but kong is still the same. She even tried to set a date but kongpop rejected saying he is not ready.

So Prae called her friends to distract him, it's second week since they start to hang up. Like past days today also kong friends gathered in a club for a hang but kong drives to his home saying them that he wants to be alone so they barged into his house making him groan at their friends.

Everyone sat at the pool side with drinks which kong offered them. Everyone feet up to their knees are inside the pool while sa. May sat close to kong with her hands on his arms. "So what?" May asked and moved close to kong.

Prae groaned at her wife while maprang asked "Is she still sulking on you for hiding about kong planned divorce Prae?"

Prae nodded her head with a sigh at maprang.  

"Why May? Don't tell me you regretted marrying Prae!" Tew comments and earned a smack on his head by Prae who is next to him.

"I am not regretting it but... I am just upset because she thought I will reject her and go to kong" May answer to him while others chuckled.

"What is wrong in my thoughts? Once after you know about his heart broken  you cancelled our honeymoon trip and always worry about him! even now you were next to him! You still like him more than me don't you?!" Prae raised her voice shocking her friends, this is the first time they saw Prae anger except kong who saw her  wrath more than once.

Kong pulls away from May hold and patted her shoulders "you are wrong Prae, apologise to your wife" kong ordered in his bossy voice, others also agreed with him.

Prae shook her head with tears, why should she? She thought with heavy heart.

"Prae, May may have crush on kong in the past but she loves you in present, she was ready to leave her family for you, she fought many things for you.. how can you still doubt her even after she married you?" Oak the funny guy of their group asked Prae in disappointment tone.

May stood from her place and runs inside not wanting to cry infront of her friends. Prae felt guilty, her insecurities once again messed her up.

She also stood from her place and followed her wife. Half an hour passed the couple didn't return so kong shouted towards the living room "Hey! Don't you guys dare to have sex on my couch!"

His friends all giggled, the couple returned with a sly smile. May were behind Tew while Prae stood behind kong, both poured the chocolate syrup on the latters head.

"Shit!!!";

"fuck!!"

Both kong and Tew yelled at them. Maprang and Ook joined in laughter.

Kong pushed Prae to the pool while Ook pushed kong, soon everyone inside the pool with full of chocolate syrup. The fun continued and they all start to pour syrup on each other, girls vs boys.

when May about to pour tomach ketchup on Tew who was held by Prae and Maprang, her attention got distracted by Ook who called her "May!!"

When May turned towards the boys she blushed deep red by kong who removed his t-shirt in one go, he ruffled his hair with water dripping, he even gave a wink at May. Prae got furious and swim to her wife to smash her lips on her wife for a feverish kiss.

May smiled at the kiss and show her thumbs up at her friends. Kong chuckled while maprang whined at them. Tew pushed maprang and walks away.

Maprang marched towards Tew for a revenge who runs inside the living room leaving pool side followed by maprang.

Oak and kong splashed water on the kissing couple who is not ready to pull away anytime soon. May even jumped on Prae arms while showing her back to cover them from water.

Tew run back to them with a syrup and joined them. He poured the syrup on the couple while kong came out of the pool giggling. When he heard a yell he rush inside to see maprang on the floor. He dropped the towel which he using to wipe his hair and helped her to stand but maprang hissed in pain.

"Slow down.. let me help" kong said and lift her. He made her  sat on the couch not minding the water. "Is it very paining?" Kong asked while examining maprang ankle. She bend and nodded her head agreeing kong.

When kong lift his face he came close with maprang whose eyes got widen in shock after getting caught.

"Did you just ogle at me?" Kong asked with raised eyebrows while covering his chest. Maprang crossed her arms forgetting her pain in annoyance "So what?! You gonna announce it to my boyfriend?"

Kong shook his head slightly and moves close to maprang invading her space, with a sly smirk he whispered at her face "No.. because I know no one can resist this walking temptation!" Maprang jaw dropped by her friend flirting, who is this guy?

"What the hell you are doing with her?!!"

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