It was a bad day for me today, I didn't know what to do. I decided I needed some advice so I called my dad.

"Hey son, how have you been today?"

"Good i guess."

"Hey! Why was the students report card wet?" he asked all giddy, I didn't have the heart to ruin it

"Why?"

"Because his grades were below C level." He started laughing an obnoxious laugh

"That's pretty funny" I said with a smile, I honestly didn't have the energy to laugh.

After a while he calmed down, "so what was it that you wanted?"

"Nothing. I've just been feeling a little~ you know..." I ended.

"Son. It's your attitude you need to change."

I let out a little fake laugh, getting tired of hearing that. I said bye and hug up.

A few hours later:

I was laying on my bedroom floor staring at my ceiling, you know as one does. Basically questioning life, then there was a tear in my eye, and then there were many more. My roommate walked in at that moment almost stepping on me.

"You good bro?"

"Do I look good?"

"Well, I guess not."

"Yeah..."

"Well what's wrong?" he asked obviously uncomfortable.

"Nothing much, Im just on a rollercoaster." I said while closing my eyes, and pretending I was basically dead.

"Dude. Just don't be sad anymore." He said it with such seriousness I almost laughed. Instead I stayed with my eyes closed, laying on the floor.

"Oh my gosh! I never thought of that! You cured me! You've really cured me!" I said sarcastically. I opened my eyes and looked him in the eyes, "Thank you" I replied dully

"You know you're a little-"

"I know thank you very much." I stated like royalty and nodded my head to him. He left the room and I stayed laying there just thinking. I then started singing to myself and put my arms above me head and slowly swayed them to the beat of the song.

An hour later and I was climbing off of the pile of clothes I didn't even know I had been laying on.

A few months later:

I was out with my friends, we went to see the new men in black movie and I was having a good time. After the movie we all went out to get dinner and a few drinks, all completely harmless. I ended up almost completely sober, enough that I didn't sway when I walked and I could still drive, but enough that I could have the light feeling that ensued.

It was now what? 11:30 pm? I nodded half asleep to myself and got ready for bed. I layed down and quickly fell asleep. I forgot to take my medications, but it should all be fine, I thought it my last moments before I fell asleep.

I woke up with a pounding migraine even though it was only a few light drinks, I got the worst hangovers. I literally rolled out of bed and ended up in the same spot I was a couple months ago, the same pile of laundry. Don't judge. Motivation is lacking when you feel like shit 24/7. I have lately come to know this place as the place where I question my life and have breakdowns. But we all gucci. I thought about last night, even though it was painful to think, I thought about how happy I was, and then I made the bad decision to do a mental check up on myself, see how I was doing.

"Okay then" I said out loud to myself and groaned when I realized one of the reasons I was feeling this bad was my forgotten medications. I had no energy to pull myself to my dresser where everything was, so I just continued to stay in the same place, weighing the pros and cons of literally calling one of my friends to come over and hand me my medications. As it got worse and worse I decided to just give up caring about the little "honor" I had and called my best friend over. He was over in a bit with strong coffee and breakfast.

"How's life?" he asked knowing full well, why I called him here.

"Well im just a ray sunshine. I just love life." I say tired and sarcastic, he chuckled and handed me a donut and coffee and made me eat before he handed me my bottle, because he knows that I shouldn't take anything on an empty stomach. "You are a life saver" I said after I took everything and finished my coffee and a second donut.

"I know," he said flipping the invisible hair over his shoulder, dramatic as usual. I chuckled at this.