This is a translation of the first chapter of my French romance book "Chagrin d'amour".

Back to you - Selena Gomez

Enjoy!!

I had a dream...

A Summer day

It was a summer day.

Neither too hot, nor too dry, but rather warm with a cool breeze like those rare days that we only see when everyone prays very, very hard. I was sitting on a bench, listening to the other girls talk about their boyfriends (how boring TwT), I nodded and smiled from time to time but my mind was wandering far away from here...

Suddenly, I feel someone watching me and I scan the courtyard to find that person. Our eyes meet. These magnificent hazel eyes, tinged with green, blue, gray and gold, meet mine and stay fixed on my gaze. We stay like that for a long time, until I hear my name said by a friend. I then look down, blushing, and look away. How beautiful he is... (I'm nothing compared to his supreme beauty xD) He's been lingering in every corner of my mind for a long time...

A few minutes later, I happily rush down the stairs behind my friends, when I feel a hand lightly grab my hip. I turn around to look at him, and I smile when I see his handsome face. He smiles kindly back and pulls me towards him. Our chests against each other, I whisper  shakily a little "hi". He gives me a big grin and places his forehead against mine. "Hey" he smiled looking into my eyes. My heart rate accelerates.

I let my gaze drop to his lips before returning to his eyes, and I see him doing the same. He raises an eyebrow for permission and I nod before pressing my lips to his. The kiss stretches over time and I only wish for one thing : for time to stop in this perfect moment. How long have I waited for this moment?  I sigh happily. I feel his hand on my cheek and I tug on his shirt a little to let him know that I'm still human and that I need to breathe. Our mouths part and I take a deep breath.

He pulls me by my hand towards an empty classroom. He slams the door shut and leans me against it. I slip a hand under his t-shirt as he attacks my neck with his lips. We continue to kiss passionately and I feel his hand move towards my chest. He gently hugs my waist while I surround his neck with my hands standing on my toes to compensate for our size difference. We continue to kiss for a long time while I feel his chest with my hands. I then run my fingers through his soft, dark brown hair. A moan escapes his lips and I see him blush.

"You're all red." I giggle under my breath. "Same for you, mon amour." he smiles with a wink. A shiver of delight runs through my body at the mention of this nickname in my native language. I feel my ears burning and his smile widens. I want you now.

"Okay, we should stop here otherwise I won't be able to stop." he sighs, looking into my eyes.

"Me too." I can barely get the words out of my mouth. My desire for him only grows with each passing second, but we're in high school, so I have to hold back. I give him one last peck on the lips before running my fingers through my hair to try to fix my hair. I see him straightening his shirt and wiping his lips to remove traces of my cherry lip balm (oops XD).

"Uhm... so... we- we're together? Like, a couple?" I ask him shyly, full of hope, gesturing a little with my hands to ease the nervousness.

"I-I don't know." he says looking down. "I don't really know what love is and I'm afraid of losing you." he forces a little laugh. "It's stupid I know, but I'm not ready for a relationship." he said, avoiding my gaze and running his fingers through his hair nervously.

I feel my heart sink into my stomach. My lungs empty and my breath catches in my chest. Afraid of losing me? How can you be afraid of losing me if you don't even want me to be yours? My head starts to spin with all the questions in my mind.

With trembling lips I try to formulate a sentence to comfort him, to show him that I love him and that he should not be afraid of a relationship. But nothing comes to me, I remain silent, heartbroken. Calm down. Breathe. It's okay.

Finally, after a few seconds of heavy silence, I swallow hard and answer, my voice trembling and filled with pain: "I'll wait."

How long ? The truth is, I don't know...

My heart belongs to him, and I can only hope that he gives me his.

My heart hurts so much lol just writing this xD

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-Your heartbroken-yet-very-much-in-love author ;)