He sat on his bed and stared at his phone as he looked at the words on the screen. His boyfriend was with a guy while dating him. No matter how much or what way his boyfriend explained it, he couldn't wrap his head around why he wasn't enough. His boyfriend tried to explain he was only using the other guy, yet that somehow made it worse. His eyes felt dry, as if they knew this was going to happen, or simply saving up the dam. Then, he started getting text messages from an old friend that seemed to know just when he was need most. They talked long into the night, and the old friend asked out the heartbroken and still healing boy so many times that he felt obligated to say yes, so he did. Two days later, he was texting three words that felt so heavy to say, text, and even feel; I love you. The boy was crushed by his boyfriends answer; "This isn't working. It was a mistake."
      The boys emotions that had been piling up over the past few days gushed out, and he wasn't crying over his old friend breaking up with him, he was crying over the one before. The one he had wanted and could see marrying, adopting with, telling, "I love you" the rest of his life to, yet, it could never happen now because the boy had been so broken, so terrified of letting anyone else close that he'll never marry. He contemplated going to see the razor that lives in the shower that night, but decided to wait till he felt a week later.
     I'm sure by now your all asking, "How do you know? They could get fixed by the right person." And, by God I hope your right because I'm that boy. I'm the boy that's never enough to anyone. So please, how do you love without being used?