"Jungkook, please look at me," you say softly. You watch Jungkook's back tense up but he doesn't answer. He ignores you.

You couldn't help but run out into the cold rain and look for him. You hoped he was inside but deep down you knew he wasn't. You couldn't risk it and come out here as fast you could.

You didn't want to leave him out here. So now you stand here soaked from the rain with teeth chattering.

"Jungkook," you say again and take a step to him. When you placed a hand on his shoulder he violently flinches and moves away.

Confused and hurt by his reaction you stand there silently watching him move a few feet away from you.

"Why are you here?" He asks in monotone.

It was as if the liveliness in his voice was gone. And that put a stinging pain in your chest. You try to ignore it and swallow hard.

"You need to come inside," you answer. "You'll catch a cold." He shrugs with his hands in his sweater pocket.

"So? Why do you care?" He says coldly. You flinch at his words and stare at him in shock. Why was he saying this all of a sudden?

"Why do I care?" You repeat in disbelief. "Jungkook, did you just say that?"

When he doesn't answer you scoff and with the shake of your head. Well, there's your answer.

"You know why I care, Jungkook. Your condition will worsen if you stay out here."

Jungkook could hear the worry in your voice and it took all of his willpower not to turn around. If he saw your face and your worried eyes then he knows he'll do anything to make that go away.

He would listen and follow you like a lost puppy. He can't do that anymore, it'll just lead him to feel more pain.

"Go back inside, Jisun," he says firmly.

"I will if you'll come too," you say. "I can't leave you out here."

"Really, because you never thought that before," Jungkook says without thinking.

Immediately he regrets his words but he couldn't take it back. You heard it loud and clear. You blink, processing what he just said. Despite the rain, your lips become dry as you stare at Jungkook's back.

"What are you talking about?" You ask softly. He resists the urge to sigh and clenches his fists instead.

"You heard me. You never acted like you were worried about me. Until now."

"That's not true--"

"It is true!" Jungkook shouts over the thunder. Your body flinches, either from the cold or the volume of his voice you didn't know.

"Don't act innocent, Jisun. I've been out here every day and you've done nothing about it. You weren't worried because you don't care. You never did." Jungkook says with his body shivering.

He knew it wasn't because he was cold, no it was because he was angry. Angry at you because you never cared to realize what he's feeling. Angry at himself because he shouldn't shout at you like this when you don't know why he was upset.

But most of all, he was angry because he knows that no matter how many times you act stupid or make him upset he would still run back to you. He can never stay upset when it comes to you.

You were like a beautiful drug. No matter how hard he wants to push you away, he can't. He was addicted to the love he felt for you.

You had no retort for his claim. He's right, you did nothing. This whole week you did nothing for him. You wanted you, deep down you wanted to talk to him and go to him.

But you didn't and the way he is now was your fault. You wasted a week of his remaining life. You glance down at your soaked shoes as you tried to control your tears.

"Jungkook, I'm sorry. I am. I just--"

"You just what?" Jungkook snaps suddenly. He finally turns around to look at you and the sight broke his heart.

Your shoulders sagged, your hair was drenched and so were your clothes. You stare down at your feet while fiddling with your fingers nervously.

He hated seeing you sad, god it hurt him. It was like someone punched him in the gut. He had to avert his gaze to control his urge to hold you.

"You don't care, Jisun. Don't start now just because I got cancer." He says a bit too coldly. You bit your lip feeling his icy words stab you in the chest.

You slowly lift your head and stare at him. He looked to the side angrily, his rosy lips were pale. His hair was drenched and covered his forehead. He seemed miserable out here in the rain and you felt miserable too.

How can he think such things about you? Of course, you care for him and worry over him. Was it not obvious enough? Sure, you didn't see him this week but that wasn't your fault. It was his.

He was angry with you from the very beginning and he never thought to give you the reason why. You stare at him both in sadness and in irritation.

"Don't act like everything is my fault, Jungkook." You try to say sternly but it came out in a soft tone. "You started this whole mess, you know."

Jungkook shakes his head in disbelief. "No, I didn't."

"Yes, you did because you're upset with me for a reason that I don't know." You clarify.

"You should know the reason," he replies.

"Well, I obviously don't, Jungkook!" You abruptly shout. He presses his lips into a firm line and clenches his fists tighter. His nails were digging into his skin.

"I don't know why you're mad or why you're avoiding me. If you just tell me then maybe I'll be able to understand why you're like this."

"Why I'm like this?" Jungkook repeats. "You're the reason why I'm like this." He deeply regrets the words he's spoken but he wanted you to go. He couldn't stand being like this to you. It hurts him more than you think.

His words pounded in your head like rushing waves of the ocean. It took you aback leaving you with no comeback. You had to look away from to recollect your feelings and keep them in check. You will not cry.

"Take that back," you murmur. You hope his words weren't true and you pray it wasn't.

You couldn't possibly be the reason because you don't know what you did. How could you make him be like this when you don't know why?

Jungkook closes his eyes and takes in a sharp breath. "I can't," he says. You swallow hard feeling guilt wash over you.

"Why?"

"Because it's true. You made me like this." The thunder vibrated your bones with a flash of lightning illuminating the sky. It only took that one second for you to see Jungkook's face perfectly.

He didn't seem angry, no he looked as if he was in pain. As if saying these words were hurting him. And that only gave you a small amount of hope that he wasn't telling the truth.

Hesitatingly you take a step to him. He doesn't move away, he stands still like a deer caught in headlights. You take another step then another until you were right in front of him.

You gently grab his icy cold hands and hold them tightly. "Jungkook, look at me," you say softly. Slowly, he does and stares at you with dull eyes.

"I know you don't mean that. You know that I care about you more than anyone here." You say to him.

He doesn't answer and attempts to look down. But you don't let him, you place a hand on his cheek to stop him. You feel him stiffen under the touch but you didn't care. If he looks you in the eye then he'll see that you do care.

"I care about you and I worry about you. Seeing out here all alone every day and miserable hurts me, Jungkook. It really does."

"Then why didn't you do anything?" He asks in a soft, pained voice. Asking this question he knew he was contradicting himself. He wanted you to stay away but at the same time, he was hurt when you didn't get close to him.

You frown and tighten your grip on his hand. "Because you wouldn't let me," you answer. "You closed yourself off to me."

He doesn't react to your words and lowers his eyes. He did close himself up. He figured that his heart won't be deeply devoted to you if he stayed away. He knew that wouldn't work though, it was a fool's hope.

Jungkook slowly looks back at you and stares into your sad, worried eyes. God, he was still in love. He could still feel the same tenderness for you in his heart.

"Jungkook, I know I'm a horrible person for treating you in such a way and I'm so sorry," you say softly and squeeze his hand.

"I'm so sorry and I do understand why you hate me now. I won't force you to be my friend again but I care about you. I'll do anything to make that beautiful smile appear on your face."

You felt your bottom lip tremble yet you shed no tears. You had no right to but you couldn't help but feel a twinge of pain blooming in your chest. You wanted him to stay as your friend but that would be selfish. You know he's done with you.

Each word was a stab in the heart for Jungkook. He couldn't stand it. He couldn't stand being cold to you or hear you say those words. He was done with this.

Just when you think Jungkook didn't want to hear from you anymore, you drop your hand from his cheek. Your frown increases and you lower your head. When you were just about to pull your hand out of Jungkook's his grip becomes tighter.

He yanks your hand and you slam into his chest. He quickly wraps his arms around you and holds you tightly. Surprised by his action you don't hug him back. You stare at the empty darkness to your right with wide eyes. He was hugging you.

Jungkook doesn't say a word and holds you tightly as if you might run away. "Don't go, I don't hate you." He tells you in a soft tone.

Astonished by his sudden mood change you stay rooted to your spot not knowing what to do. You try to form words but nothing came out of your mouth.

"You don't have to be sorry, Jisun. I forgive you so don't leave me." He says in a soft, desperate tone.

It broke your heart to hear him talk like that but you had to leave. You didn't want to hurt him any longer. "Jungkook, I have to because it'll be best for you. You won't have a friend like me who hurts you like this anymore." You felt him tightening his hold.

"It's not the best for me. If you stay here with me, by my side then I know that's for the best. I won't be in pain if you stay with me."

Jungkook knew that was a lie as soon it came out of his mouth. But he couldn't stand being alone anymore. Like it or not he needs you. Yet he knows how painful that'll be because you don't love him.

"I won't be cold to you anymore, Jisun." He says desperately. He was done playing this game. He was done ignoring you. He was done with it all.

And you were too, you want things to somehow go back to the way it was before. You want to hear his voice and feel that vibrant joy and excitement that radiated off of him. You just want to be with him.

Slowly, you wrap your arms around his waist surprising your friend. "I promise I'll be better to, Jungkook. I won't hurt you again." You tell him.

"Promise?"

You nod, "Yes, I promise."

Relief washes over Jungkook with his heartbeat soothing to your words. He believes you. Every ounce of his body told him you were telling the truth.

But he knew better not to take it to heart. He knows that you'll end up breaking your promise like the ones in the past.

But if it meant he could be with you even though he was worthless then he'll deal with the pain. Just like all the times before.

Jungkook couldn't help but scoff to himself in disbelief. So much for trying to push her away.

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