The sound of the constant pitter pattering rain relaxed me as I sat near my window, listening.

I admit, I missed his music that he used to play in the middle of the night.

I'd always wondered why he did, but I just missed it anyways.

It was the second weekend I've been through since everything crumbled, and I still didn't go with Yura and the others to go out....

simply because I chose to stay home to feel depressed. It was me last summer again.

There was a soft knock on my bedroom door, and it was my mother. "Hyeri-ah... are you feeling better? May I come in?"

It was hard for me to tell her, but I've managed to tell her that I liked Taehyung much to her surprise.

She found me a bit odd, sensing something different in me.

"Did he change you?" She asked right after I told her.

And that question was still left unanswered.

"Yes you can, omma." I say, and she opened the door and walked inside, holding a plate with a mug of hot green tea for me.

As she sat beside me, she offered it to me for which I took it.

"Thanks mom." I say as I brought the mug to my lips, and drank.

She looked at me with a worriful expression. "Why didn't you go with the girls to hang out today?"

"Because its raining, and I don't feel like hanging today."

"You've been like this for the past 2 weeks. What is wrong Hyeri? Did something happen?"

"You don't need to know omma." I say, tilting the mug again.

She sighed.

"... Did he break up with you?"

I drew the mug away, and it rested in my hands. I took a deep breath, and looked down.

"Did he?" She asked again.

"He didn't. But its complicated." I say with a shrug and leaned my head on the wall beside me.

"Complicated?" She asked me. "Why is it complicated?"

"He's been ignoring me."

"Why has he been-"

She stopped.

I watched her look away from me, her eyes blinking rapidly like she was searching through her mind about something, like she was hesitating.

Finally, she spoke again.

"...Did he tell to the reason why he's not associating with you anymore?" She asked, her eyes more keened and pointed.

"No, and that's what is bugging me-"

"I suggest you forget about it." She interrupted me, her tone filled with such authority.

"What?" I asked, looking back at her with some questioning.

"If he's not telling you why, he's obviously hiding something away from you." She said, and leaned towards me.

"Don't tell me he has another girl besides you"

"Omma!" I yelled, and stood up.

I was breathing hard, and that idea was too scary for me to think about in this situation.

She stood up also, and took the empty mug in her hands.

She looked at me, and I could tell her eyes were full of sudden disapproval of this.

"You will suffer afterwards if you don't stop having the feeling of needing him and finding out why he's ignoring you."

"What are you talking about-"

"Stop finding out the reason why. Remember what I've said, Hyeri." She spoke over me.

"Why are you like this right now?" I say, feeling myself getting angry.

"Its for your own good."

She said only, her eyes filled with sadness.

"Omma! Please don't be like him too! What do you mean? Why are you being like this?!"

I say, but she shook her head.

"Omma! I thought you agreed that you would support us! Why are you against us now-"

"I'm not against anything. I'm just against the idea of you trying so hard to find out why Kim Taehyung is ignoring you."

I laughed with no humor. "Does that even makes sense? Does any of this makes any sense at all??"

She didn't answer, and I began to suspect her.

"...Do you know about it?"

I asked her.

She turned, and opened bedroom door, and paused and turned around to look at me.

And like that, she just left after closing the door behind her.

Now, even my family was against the idea of knowing why he is like this.

And it made me more curious.

The next couple of days at school was full of questioning.

Especially the Bangtan boys.

The 6 of the boys Taehyung hangs out with are the ones who are the closest to him, as I thought.

Even cornering them to try to get answers... nothing came out.

And that was when I felt the whole world was hiding the answers from me.

And I began to grow even more desperate.

"It just doesn't make any sense," I say, walking back and forth in my room while I was talking to Yura on the phone about the situation. "No one is telling me anything."

"I think they are trying to hide something from you." She said quietly.

"Obviously. There's something very suspicious about it. And I want to find out." I say, biting on my thumb as I thought. "It seems like they all know, but won't tell me at all."

After a moment of thinking, I thought of something. "Hey Yura... remember when I told you the whole story about the day that he started to ignore me?" I asked her, and she replied.

"The day when everything fell apart? Yes."

"Well, remember when I told you when I saw him in the nurses office? He was taking pills..." I say, and thought about it more. The time when he was sick, I've discovered him taking so many pills.

"I've noticed pills are a very close friend of his." I say.

"What do you mean by that?" She asked.

"He's trying to hide something about those pills he's been taking. I've thought that he was severally allergic to something, but since he got angry at me from seeing him in there... I think something is weird... "

There was a pause over on the other line, before she spoke again.

"So you think that he has a sickness?"

"There's only one way to find out..." I say, and stared out the dark window.

I knocked on his door several times, not caring if I was disturbing anyone.

I was desperately in need of knowing.

After a while of knocking, the door opened to reveal his mother.

"Hello Mrs. Kim."

"Hi Hyeri. What are you doing here so late?" She asked me abruptly. I saw that she was wearing scrubs, and I remembered my mother telling me that she was a doctor.

I looked up at her again. "May I speak to your son please? It's really urgent."

She looked back at me, and stepped back, like she was unsure.

"Taehyung? I'm not sure if he can meet you at the time. He's really busy-"

"Please... it's really important ." I say, interrupting her.

She furrowed her eyebrows at me. "Please, Hyeri. It's really not the time right now. You'll see him tomorrow at school again. Like I said, he's really busy with important things-"

Right about that second, the door opened wider to reveal Taehyung standing behind his mother. I nearly gasped when I saw him there. Each times before when I knocked, he would never come to the door, so I would never see him. But today, he was there.

He placed a hand on her shoulder, and looked at her. "Mom. I can take this."

His mother looked at him with an uneasy expression, but he just nodded.

I've noticed there was some faint dark rings under his eyes, and his face has become paler and slimmer and I began to grow even more afraid.

He walked past her, and stood in front of me, his eyes still empty of any emotions.

"What is it that you want?"

His tone was cold, but I was used to it now.

"I need to talk to you... in private." I say, and looked up at his mother.

He turned around. "Mom, please go inside."

She did, looking at him and back to me with a worried expression before she stepped back inside, and closed the door in front of her.

"Speak." He said, and I couldn't raise my head to look up at him.

My hands started to tremble, and I clenched them into fists. On my way here, I wasn't nervous at all, but now in front of him, I was actually weak. I took in a shaky breath, and spoke.

"... I know what you're hiding from me." I say, my eyes never leaving the ground.

It was quiet after I said the words, so I spoke again, and lifted my head.

"I know why everyone is hiding something from me."

"You do? I would be happy to hear what you know." He said, crossing his arms against his chest, a short lived half smile appeared on his lips. He sounded a little sarcastic.

"I do. You're hiding something about the pills."

I say, and waited for him to act surprised, or shocked... but he didn't.

Instead, he cracked a full smile, and started to chuckle.

It was me who was surprised, and I looked back at him in shock, but I tried to maintain myself.

"You're hiding something about the pills from me! And that's why everyone is trying to hide it away from me too!" I repeated myself, but he was full on laughing at me.

"It's not funny! I'm being serious!" I say, but he was laughing so hard, he had to lean a little.

I was now furious.

"Kim Taehyung! It's not funny at all! I'm actually being very serious!"

He stopped right after I said that, his smile disappeared as he stood up straighter.

"You're afraid... for me?"

"What?" I say, and he stepped down the porch, and down the sitars, making me back away each time.

He looked at me, his crazy eyes looking back at me.

"No... you're the same ole Hyeri, right? Haha! Hyeri can never be afraid for me!" He laughed, and I began to feel worried and nervous around him.

"Taehyung... you're acting very strange..." I say, backing away from him as he walked forward.

"Strange? What's strange? Me? You?" He said, and he started not to make any sense as he spoke.

But I've noticed his eyes were dull, and not bright like they used to be. And that's when I realized... he wasn't the same anymore.

We were now on the sidewalk, and he kept on forcing me to walk backwards.

"Taehyung please stop..." I say, looking at him as I tried to speak louder.

"Stop what? Stop us? That's been done and over with a long time ago Hyeri. I thought you remembered that. You stopped me first, but now it's my turn to stop from you."

I was quiet, and my bottom lip trembled.

"You're such a fool Hyeri. A very... foolish Hyeri..." He taunted me, and I closed my eyes. He was hurting me again without knowing how much his airy words were bringing me so much pain.

"Every time you try and get me back now, it pisses me off so much what you're doing. That chocolate milk you left on my doorstep? Did you know what happened to it?"

I was crying, but I clenched my teeth together to keep strong.

"I let it rot outside, and each day I come home, there were more bugs gathering" He leaned in my face, as he spoke. "So, in the end. I threw it away. Like our relationship." He spat.

"I don't care if you know what I'm hiding. It doesn't matter anymore. You know why?"

He paused, watching me cry without mercy.

"Because you're nothing in my eyes now."

I raised my hand and slapped him hard across his face, leaving a large red hand print on his cheek.

"Kim Taehyung. You are going too far."

I said, watching him hold his cheek in his hand as he was turned away from me.

He turned back to me, and smiled like nothing happened.

"How far is too far?"

"Stop, stop stop!" I yelled at him as I grabbed his face, and drew it closer to my own.

"You are sick Taehyung! I know that you're sick!"

I finally say as I endured the pain he gave me.

For once... he didn't answer me, and his head grew heavy in my hands as he lowered it.

I started to cry even harder.

"Why didn't you tell me?! Why are you keeping this away from me?! You think that if you won't tell me, things will be better that way? Didn't I tell you, I have fallen for you? There's nothing you can do now but to accept it! Each day was a pain to me as I tried to find out why you're like this." I took in another breath.

"You were ignoring me... telling me everything was a lie... telling me things that would pain me... just so you could hide the fact that you were sick? You did all of this to try to protect me from that?"

I felt his tears touch my hands as I spoke.

"You shouldn't have you bastard! You shouldn't have..." I say, and he began to sob in my hands.

"It's too late. I'm here, and I'll always be with you no matter what. I don't care what the consequences will be, or worry about the future. All I know for the time being, is that you are mine and I am yours."

I lifted his head, and wiped his tears with both of my thumbs on each side as he cried.

"Taehyung, please look at me in the eyes."

Slowly, and diligently, he listened and looked deeply into my eyes.

I smiled up at him sadly, as I said the words I've been meaning to tell him.

"I love you."

I stood up on my toes, and pressed my lips against his, fully kissing him through the tears and sorrow that we both felt together. I knew I loved him. And I knew he loved me back as well, since love was in need to protect. And he tried to protect me, but I was unwilling and suffered.

But I didn't care if I suffered.

I loved Kim Taehyung and that's all that matters.

He responded to me, and his arms wrapped around my back, and that's when I knew...

He had wanted me all along.

I smiled sadly as I thought.

You sick bastard.

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