"... I can properly express my feelings."

I scream into my pillow.

It's less of a scream than a forced breath.

Frustration and anger and sadness rush to my head

A fiery mix coursing through my veins and arteries

And

then

it

just...

Disappears.

Potential energy gone to waste.

I bottle these dark feelings

because I don't want anyone to get hurt.

Selfish selflessness.