A/N this was based on a DJ. Idek if there are apartments in Totsuki but let's just assume that there is. Warning this is a long chapter lol.

When we first met, we were two meters apart.

When spring ended, we were finally one meter.

50 centimeters.

20 centimeters.

And before we even noticed...

***

"What is this?!" You shrieked, staring at the pile of boxes that just arrived at your new apartment. How many people does he think live here?! You silently raged in your thoughts "There are seven more boxes left!" You heard a voice say.

"Are you kidding me?!" You sighed and sat on the ground sulking about how many boxes there are left. Tsukasa peeped his head through the front door. "Are you okay there, (F/N)-chan?" He asked. You just stared at him with fish-like eyes. "Oh there are more boxes in Kuga-san's room, I had to put them there because I didn't have enough space in my room," He added.

"DIDN'T YOU JUST HEAR ME?!" You cried, still sulking.

After what seemed like forever, the both of you finally got all of Tsukasa's stuff into the living room. You just flopped onto the ground. You were too tired to do anything by this point. "Hey hey (F/N) look!" Tsukasa called to you from the balcony.

"What?" You groaned, stood up wobbly and made your way to the balcony.

"There's such a great view, you can see the sunset from here!"

"Wow you're right, I'm glad we chose to move into this apartment, I guess you can do anything when you're in the elite ten" you murmured the last part well it was unintentional. You laughed gently and smiled at Tsukasa. "Oh, since we're starting something new together, I hope we can get along from today on," You said as you pressed your forehead against his.

***

"(F/N)-chan! What do you want to eat for dinner?" Tsukasa asked as he walked out of the kitchen. You were coincidentally writing a new recipe for homework that night. "Hey you want to try out my recipe?" You replied as you held out the piece of paper which contained the recipe. Tsukasa stared at you for a while and just shrugged and walked back into the kitchen. After a while, Tsukasa came out of the kitchen again holding two plates of food. Your eyes sparkled as you watched him put the food onto the dining table. "Wow you just made my probably inedible recipe into something that's like rated five stars," You joked. Tsukasa just chuckled and placed the plates onto the table.

"Tomorrow's the weekends, do you want to go to the park?" Tsukasa suddenly asked and you almost choked on your food for no reason.

"Hm yeah? Sure haha," you smiled.

***

You woke up and sleepwalked your way to the bathroom. As you brushed your teeth you say Tsukasa behind you which made you jump backwards. "Djwkdjsksj what are you doing here?!" You screamed.

"Ah sorry, did I scare you?" He scratched the back of his head sheepishly.

"Hell yeah you did! What do you want?" You questioned furiously.

"I was going to ask what you wanted for breakfast," he said innocently.

"Ugh do whatever you want, I really don't care."  You sighed and went back to brushing your teeth.

***

"I didn't know there was such an amazing park nearby," you said as you stared at the park in awe.

"(F/N)-chan, let's eat breakfast!"

"Huh?"

"Look there's a bench over there," Tsukasa pointed at a bench. He grabbed your hand and dragged you over to the bench. "I... I made us bento,"

"Never knew you could make that,"

"Hey you don't call me the first seat for no reason," he said and smiled gently at you which caused you to blush a little.

"WAAAHH it's so good!" You said as you stuffed rice into your mouth. The both of you talked while you ate. This kind of thing is nice once in a while you thought. "Eishi look!" You pointed at an old couple, they were holding hands.

"Haha it's such a wonderful thing, they even have a bouquet," Tsukasa said.

"Yeah, they're really, the ideal couple," you murmured.

***

"I'm home!" Tsukasa shouted as he entered the apartment. The lights were off. "(F/N)-chan? I'm home (f/N)-chan!" He shouted again. He knocked on your door but there was no answer. "I'm coming in (F/N)-chan!" When he walked into your room, you were still nowhere to be found. He the. opened the curtains to the balcony and saw you standing on the balcony listening to music. You turned around. "Oh Eishi, welcome home," you said calmly.

Tsukasa suddenly hugged you and your eyes widened in surprise. "Eishi, what's wrong?" You asked worryingly.

***

"Eh a birthday present? You actually remembered?"

"Of course I did, wait lemme find it," He rummaged through his pockets and brought out a tiny globe.

"How cute! What is this?" You asked.

"It's a 13 centimeter model of the earth," He beamed.

"Oh my god how tiny!" You laughed.

***

When I first saw him.

20 meters.

After we met,

Two meters.

In the Spring,

One meter.

50 centimeters.

20 centimeters.

And without even realizing,

Finally,

Zero centimeters.

***

You woke up again finding Tsukasa nowhere to be seen. Ah, he's probably making breakfast again. You thought. You walked out of your room and saw him putting two plates of pancakes onto the dinner table.

The two of you ate in silence. "Thanks for the meal. Eishi, I'll wash the dishes you don't have enough time." You managed to say.

"Okay then, I'll start getting ready to leave." He said and walked into his room, coming out with a suit case. "Okay, I'm off!"

"Eishi... Did you forget something?" You asked smiling.

"Huh? No?" He replied. "Well I guess I'll get going." And with that he began to walk off. You tried to reach out for his hand. Once again, three centimeters. You thought. "Take care." You said with a hint of sadness. 10 centimeters.

20 centimeters.

50 centimeters.

One meter.

Two meters.

The distance to where you are, the distance to you is, just like... What you've promised. At the end of Winter, you cleaned up your room and left. The distance to you is something I don't know anymore.

Liquid began to fall down your face. You slid down the wall and you hugged you knees crying. You couldn't stop.

*** (A year before)

"Why? Do you really have to go to America? Hey answer me! That's basically on the other side of the world you know? The opposite side of this planet!"

"(F/N)-chan..."

"When are you going to come back?!"

"(F/N)-chan... Let's live together. Until I go to America next year. Let's live together. Live with me, please." He murmured as he hugged you tightly.

Little by little, I will prepare for your departure.

***

You picked up your phone and called Kuga.

"K-Kuga-san..."

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?! IT'S TOO EARLY IN THE MORNING!" Kuga screamed on the other end which almost deafened you.

"I might open a hole in my chest and die." You said quietly.

"Today was the day he left huh?" Kuga said in a more calm way.

It's ok, it's not lonely.

"Kuga-san, I really was..."

I will steadily prepare for the day you disappear.

"... The happiest, during the days we did nothing at all."

Even if you aren't here anymore, in various times during my day, memories of you are always around me.

"I know... Yeah I know, I'm the same way." Was all he said.

***

"Are you sure they're going to be okay?" Kinokuni asked.

"Who knows," Eizan replied.

"Aren't you a little bit too cold?" Isshiki said.

"They'll be fine," Kuga sighed.

"How can you say it like its so obvious?" Erina questioned.

"That's because Tsukasa-senpai said it'd be okay," Kuga answered.

"What did he say?" Everyone asked in unison.

"It's just 13 centimeters, I will teach you the distance between us."

Omake:

Since then, we have, little by little, grown older. Everyone went to different countries to become world famous chefs, and me? I'm just pathetic. Though everyone left, they still do come visit me from time to time. Everyone has become so much kinder. It's nice to have some company once in a while.

"So long story short, he's going to come back to Japan. I think he's going to be back in two to three years though." Kuga said one day.

"What?! Wait, w-wait! What is this all of the sudden?"

"It's because the director asked him to help Totsuki as a chef like Doujima-senpai but apparently he's coming back in two to three years because he had something to finish off in America," he explained.

"Ah really? That's cool! Sorry I have to go now Kuga-san! See you some other day!" You waved at Kuga and left.

I regret anything, the past choices I made, the changes that have happened and the current me. Everything is special to me, and very beautiful. While I feel jealous, it's not as if I can blame anyone, not even my past self. It's just, it's not that the grass is greener on the other side. Inside of me, I know that I have scars I've been holding onto. Even so, under the scabs, those 'memories' are there, that body temperature, that scent, that voice, those 'memories'. No matter how foolishly, delicately, desperately, wretchedly, enjoyably I've grown up, and even though I've become an adult, those cicatrices remain. They live in the deepest part of my heart as beautiful as ever.

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I really have nothing to say lol.

Don't kill me.

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