Chapter Forty

Funny how it rained all day

I didn't think much of it then

"Why are you so nervous?" Alex was standing next to me as we walked to the small cafe down the road. He was a little too close if you asked me, but I didn't really seem to mind it. I liked him being that close actually...

"I'm not nervous... It's just cold is all."

"Want my jacket?"

"No... It's yours. It was stupid of me not to grab mine."

"Take it anyways." He shrugged off his jacket, handing it over to me. I went to refuse it, but he put it on my arms.

"Th-Thanks." I whispered, looking at him through the corner of my eye.

"It's no problem." We fell into a comfortable silence, it was almost comical at how often that happened between the both of us. We didn't really need to talk though... It didn't take us long to reach the cafe, he even held the door open from me as we walked in. We sat in a booth against the window, watching as the somewhat clear sky started to get darker. We were the only ones in there besides the one waitress and the cook. He sat aross from me in the booth, his hands on the table as he leaned back with a smile.

"You look good in my jacket."

"It's a nice jacket... I think I might just keep it."

"Go right ahead, it looks better on you than it ever did me." My cheeks felt hot, and I knew I was blushing. That was how it always with Alex... He always had a way of making me blush. The waitress came over, taking our orders with an overly friendly smile before walking away once again. Alex grabbed a sugar packet, opening it, only to pour it's contents onto the table.

"What the fuck are you doing?"

"Making a snow pile?"

"With sugar?"

"I never said it would work." He shrugged, grabbing another sugar packet. I just rolled my eyes at him, shaking my head a little as he poured that packet too.

"I feel bad for Lisa, she has to clean that up."

"Oh she'll be fine. It's just sugar." I rolled my eyes at him again, before grabbing my own packet of sugar and pouring it down on the table. We did this until we had a pretty decent sized pile, before Alex smirked and blew on it. Of course he blew it all on me.

"You asshole!" I shrieked, glaring at him as he continued to smirk.

"Sorry, I just couldn't resist."

"Ugh, why do I even like you?" I groaned, looking down at the sugar all over my shirt and pants.

"Oh, so now you finally admit you like me?"

"I didn't say that."

"Oh, but you did. I knew it was only a matter of time though, I'm rather hard to resist." I looked up just in time to see him wink.

"You're a pain in my ass."

"In more ways than one?"

"What has gotten into you today? You're never this cheeky."

"I guess I just saw the shining sun and realized your life was lacking a few aspects."

"And who exactly are you to decide what my life is lacking?" My anger against him was slowly fading, a smile covering my face as I watched him talk.

"I'm just me. Simply Alex who's kind of in love with one of his friends. He's also kind of trying to figure out this friend of his... He wants to know everything there is to him."

"Sounds like he's in quite the situation, poor little Alex."

"Yeah... but he doesn't care... his friend is worth it. He's worth the wait." He offered me a smile, but it was hard to return it with the guilt I felt in my stomach. I knew he was talking about me, and I hated that I couldn't even return the affection.

I liked him.

There was no denying that.

But I wasn't in love with him.

I didn't even know what love was.

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"Alex... Can I ask you something?" We were on our way back to my place, the sky now completely covered in rain clouds. I guess it was to be expected in late October, although I would've thought it would be snow. Alex's hand had bumped into mine repeatedly since we had left the cafe, not that either of us made the move to hold hands.

"Sure."

"Why do you uh..." I trailed off, suddenly feeling embarrassed for even trying to ask him.

"Why do I love you?" I nodded, feeling semi grateful that he knew what I was talking about.

"Where do I even begin? I love you for a lot of reasons Niall, and sadly if I listed every single one of them then we'd be out here all day. I guess I love you because... You make me feel whole? You make me realize that I don't have to be alone anymore."

"Oh."

"That's all you have to say?" Humor was laced in his voice, which I rolled my eyes at. He bumped me with his shoulder, therefore making me bump him with mine. I giggled a little, running ahead a little so he couldn't do it again. We reached my house a little too soon for my liking, I didn't want to say goodbye yet.

"I'll see you tomorrow then?" He asked as he walked me up to my front door.

"Yeah... Tomorrow." I nodded my head, my hand ghosting over the doorknob. He gave me a smile before heading to walk away.

"Alex, wait." I called out, surprising myself and him. He stopped though, turning around with a curious look.

I don't really know why I did it.

But now when I think about it... I was happy I did.

I took the two steps that were between the both of us, before promptly kissing him. It was clumsy at first, he wasn't exactly expecting me to kiss him.

To be honest neither was I.

But once he realized what I was doing, he kissed me back. His hands cupped my cheeks, pulling my face closer to his. He pulled away after a few more seconds though, looking at me curiously.

"What was that for?" He asked, his voice barely over a whisper.

"I might not love you, but I sure as hell like you... I'm just scared of getting myself hurt where you're concerned so I'm going to take this slow. If that's okay with you?" Alex nodded almost a little too eagerly.

"I'm more than okay with that... God I'm okay with it." He whispered, kissing me again.

And to be honest, I couldn't help but smile.

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Don't kill me.

I left my peanut butter oreos in my friends car and that's punishment enough, okay? 

Also, I was texting my other friend about Shiver's sequel and my fucking auto-correct corrected sequel to sexual.

Like what the actual fuck?

 Why?

I'm never going to live this embarrassment down.

I can just see it. 

So yeah, be nice to Connie cause she's had a rough day. 

Dedication: 

RinlovesLashton

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