❝rainbows and butterflies!❞ chan mumbled as he kept on hitting his head from the shelves inside a toy store he is in.

a day has passed and he still keeps on thinking about what happened inside the library. it felt so real that he didn't even notice that he was daydreaming about it. the way jiro's hands moved and touched his skin, the way their lips were connected and being in sync, the way jiro's lips doing wonders to his neck, and the way chan loved it and accidentally made a sound inside the library—

❝raINBOWS AND BUTTERFLIES!❞ chan shouted to cut himself off from remembering every detail.

people around, kids and their parents, teenagers, and people around his age, started to give him stares. chan placed his head down, they must have been thinking that he's one crazy person but honestly, he was just flustered because deep inside he knew he wanted it to happen.

he took a random teddy bear and walked towards the counter to pay and also to avoid the people's stares.

he knew he wanted it to happen. he wanted for them making out to be real. he wanted for jiro's hands to roam around his skin, jiro's lips to abuse his, jiro to lead the make out session and he's willing to submit himself, them having the time of their lives and feeling such pleasure—

❝keep the change!❞ chan breathed out, taking the plastic bag with the teddy bear in it and quickly ran out of the store.

all he wanted was to buy a gift for jeffrey this christmas in peace. but instead, thoughts of him and jiro doing it is haunting him ever since the moment he woke up. his parents even questioned how he is so quiet when he is usually loud.

❝loving him is unhealthy.❞ chan murmured as he was walking along with the crowd, going to the exit of the mall he is at.

at first it was just a mere crush. just having heart eyes, being flustered when he is around, thinking about him here and there, but when it started to grow, chan knew it's bad. he's starting to crave for jiro's attention, he was thinking not just about jiro but also things to do together with him and not only this has happened once. having thoughts about doing things with jiro will often appear inside his head when he's bored and all.

❝chan?❞

going out on dates, watching sweet movies together, making out in ones room—

❝hey, chan.❞

being nudged was what made chan snap out from his thoughts. looking to the side with brows furrowed, there stood the person he's been thinking ever since.

jiro.

❝so unhealthy.❞ chan sighed while rubbing his eyes, ❝even i'm starting to think that people around me is jiro.❞

the person raised a brow and then giggled, ❝i am jiro you dumbshit.❞

❝i can even hear him now.❞ chan said, turning back to his side and observed the person standing next to him who's just giving a confused smile. ❝wait.❞

❝what's wrong with you?❞ jiro then started to walk, pushing chan next to him.

❝you are jiro!❞

❝your one and only.❞ jiro said, but then realized what he just said and decided to stay silent after.

chan was then blushing at that sentence, ❝m-my one and only.❞

the two continued to walk side by side in silence. neither had the guts to break the ice between them. not until they needed to cross the road for the bus stop.

❝so..❞ jiro glanced at their hands.

at this moment, chan wished he knew how to cross the road. he could remember a while ago when going to the mall, he ran across even though there were cars passing by.

but he needed to lie, he didn't feel like holding jiro's hand. ❝i c-can just stand beside you..❞

jiro nodded, starting to cross the road with chan beside him. it was a red light which means they can cross but there is this one car going fast that's making chan anxious but jiro very calm because it was a red light. the car was then coming nearer and nearer real fast and chan thought it would hit them. chan held jiro's hand very tight, closing his eyes and waited for the impact but nothing came. the car stopped very close to them.

jiro wanted to laugh at the sight but remained calm in crossing the road, but inside his heart was beating fast like someone his drumming it.

they were holding hands.

it made him wonder why it's acting like this when he and chan usually hold hands when crossing the road. but now it feels so different. he just realized how soft chan's hand is and how small it his compared to his big hand. their hands fit so perfectly well.

just when jiro was loving their hands being connected, chan removed his. jiro's small smile disappeared in a flash but then reminded himself not to get affected and just continue to walk.

meanwhile chan was deep in thought about his feeling for jiro. he found it to have grown to big already that it feels wrong, that he is starting to hurt. wrong because his feelings for jiro is so big but it's sad thst jiro can't return them. it's starting to hurt because it's one sided.

if possible, he wants to lessen the feelings.

he wants this feeling of being in love to turn back to having just a mere crush.

❝chan, are you not going to get in?❞ jiro, again, snapped him out from his thoughts.

❝huh?❞

the tall male grabbed chan's hand and pulled him inside the bus. walking inside to find seats, the bus started without them knowing, making the younger to stumble and hit jiro's back.

their hearts beating so fast.

❝being in love,❞ an old woman from the side suddenly spoke which caught the two's attention, ❝beautiful, isn't it?❞

chan was about to nod and say something but was pulled again by jiro and this time they settled at the seat second to the last. chan was by the window while jiro was next to him. both looking straight or outside the bus.

❝i-if you want to sleep..❞ jiro mentally cursed for stuttering, ❝my shoulder.❞

chan furrowed his brows at jiro's sentence, ❝what?❞

❝my s-shoulder, you put your head on my shoulder.❞ this was it. jiro was ready to throw himself out the window for embarrassing himself.

chan chuckled, jiro stuttering was such a cute and rare sight to see. moments later, even though he wasn't sleepy, he placed his head down the older's shoulder.

if he could see jiro's face right now, he could see the older turning into a tomato.

⛵

❝should i wake him up?❞ jiro hesitated to poke chan nor nudge him.

the younger was so deep in sleep and was getting uncomfortable that he fixed himself and moved his head. jiro gulped when chan's face was getting closer to him and lips pouted. one lean forward and they could already be kissing.

jiro didn't know what he was doing but one thing is for sure, ❝i should take this chance.❞

chan shut his eyes tight before slowly opening them only to see jiro looking away. noticing the bus had stop was when he sat up straight already wide awake. ❝we're here!❞

jiro nodded, quiet as he stood up and waited for chan outside. the younger followed, looking at jiro but the older would only look away.

❝is there anything wrong?❞ chan tilted his head to the side.

❝n-nothing. let's just g-go.❞ jiro was the first one to walk away while chan followed seconds after.

they were again walking silently. now with chan just confused into why jiro is acting all awkward and why his face was so red.

he didn't mind it and continued to walk until they finally reached to his house.

❝so, i'll be going in first.❞ chan said, only earning a nod from jiro.

they felt like they needed to do something but no one moved.

❝wait!❞ jiro took out something from his pocket, ❝i bought these for you.❞

❝what?❞ chan looked down at the thing that looked like a medicine for headaches.

❝i was worried something might have happened to your head yesterday.❞ jiro said, giving the medicine to chan.

remembering the book that fell down to his head, ❝thank you.❞ he giggled while accepting the medicine.

❝so bye?❞

sighing, chan nodded his head while opening the gates and going inside his house. he honestly expected something more, a kiss maybe?

jiro waited for seconds before turning his body to the other side, opposite to his house, and ran away. he ran and ran until he turned to the other corner and finally reached to a familiar house. he had a lot in mind that he didn't knock and just barged which was a very wrong thing to do because there was his uncles by the sofa, making out.

jaemin, jeno, and renjun froze from their place. jeno pushed himself off renjun while jaemin hugged the oldest of them three very tight, their faces so flushed.

❝i'm sorry!❞ jiro took a low bow, ❝i didn't know you were doing something!❞

❝n-no it's okay jiro.❞ renjun cleared his throat, ❝why are you here?❞

❝may i know where the twins are?❞ jiro didn't have time about what he saw awhile ago, but he sure can see those red marks on renjun's neck.

the three pointed at the backyard which jiro didn't hesitate to go after mumbling a thank you to the three. when jiro was finally out from their sight, jeno went back to face renjun.

❝so where did we stop?❞ he licked his lower lip leaning forward.

jaemin smirked while leaning down to whisper on renjun's ear, ❝don't make a sound little spoon.❞

renjun nodded, biting his lips while the two were pleasuring him. he was just thankful that they still have their clothes on and just limit it to touching and kissing.

jiro panted, causing for the twins to stop playing their video games and turn to the tall male that just arrived at the backyard.

❝what brings you here hyung?❞ jin questioned.

jun raised a brow, ❝and why are you all red?❞

it's red because of what he saw a while ago but mostly because it was caused by chan.

he did not tell it to the younger but he kissed him a while ago inside the bus when he was sleeping.

❝you guys were right.❞

❝right in what?❞

jiro composed himself before he gave them a small smile, ❝i am in love.❞

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