Shigaraki stares at his reflection in the bathroom mirror, hating what he sees. He reaches a hand up to his face to touch the creases on his face above and below his eyes. His hand then moves to the scar on his mouth, feeling chapped lips underneath his fingertip.

Shigaraki hates himself.

He hates the way he looks, he hates the way he walks, and he hates the way he acts sometimes. Shigaraki can't understand why Y/N even wants to date him. He's hideous, and he'll never be good enough for them.

Shigaraki feels tears forming at his eyes, so he quickly swallows and rubs at them with a sleeve, determined not to cry. What kind of leader would he be anyways, crying over something this small?

He tries to forget what bad things he thinks about himself when his eyes suddenly wander to his scarred neck. Shigaraki bites his lip.

The scars are in the process of healing, and are covered by bandaids that Y/N gave him. The skin on his neck is all red and irritated from the constant clawing he does there. To Shigaraki, his neck is hideous.

"Damn it..."

Shigaraki cursed softly as he finally felt a tear roll down the side of his face. He's about to dry the tear when a familiar voice startles him.

It's Y/N.

"Tomura? It's time for... Tomura, what happened?"

Y/N exclaimed, immediately rushing to his side. They bring him into a hug, and he doesn't hug back. Shigaraki doesn't think he's worthy of hugging Y/N. Not when he's so ugly when they're so attractive.

"I-It's nothing..."

Shigaraki says softly, turning away from Y/N, and they frown. Y/N leans their head forward to rest it on Shigaraki's shoulder, warm breath hitting his ear and making him shiver.

"Please tell me, baby. I need to know - I hate seeing you cry..."

The nickname makes Shigaraki's body a little less tense, and he lets out a soft sigh as he unwillingly turns back to face Y/N. They smile softly at him, and then before Shigaraki can speak, Y/N takes him by the arm and drags him out of the bathroom and into the bedroom.

They plop down onto the bed, looking at him with expectant eyes, and he hesitantly sits down next to them.

"Now, tell me."

Y/N says, eyes studying Shigaraki as he swallowed hard, feeling intimidated by their strong gaze.

"Well, I just..."

Shigaraki takes a deep breath, struggling to hold back the tears once again as words spill out of his mouth. The light-blue haired male starts to ramble.

"I've been thinking lately, and I think I'm too ugly for you. You're so damn attractive and I'm just some weird creep like Dabi always calls me... I hate how I have these creases under my eyes, and I hate how chapped my lips are. I have scars all over my body, and my skin is sickly pale-looking. I have this quirk that can practically kill you at any given time if I'm not careful. Everything about me is unlovable, so I'm not sure why you're still with me."

He finishes, cheeks flushed and eyes watery, and Shigaraki waits in silence, waiting for Y/N to dump him after finally realizing that he was indeed ugly. The words never came.

Shigaraki was then shocked to feel Y/N suddenly crawl on top of him, straddling his waist. He looks up at them with wide eyes, and their expression is unreadable as they look down at him.

"Baby, I can't believe you think all of those horrible things about yourself..."

Y/N says after a moment of silence, and Shigaraki looks down, feeling a bit relieved. The words soothe his heart, but his self-hatred doesn't go away.

"But..."

He starts to say, but Y/N places a finger on his lips. They're smiling a bit down at him, and Shigaraki gulps, his heart pounding against his ribcage.

Y/N then leans forward to place many kisses across his face, right over the lines there. His eyes widen as he realizes what's happening. He's about to protest when they kiss his lips, hands coming up to hold the sides of his face. When Y/N breaks away, they're panting, but smiling. They move to rub a thumb at Shigaraki's bottom lip.

"I love the lines on your face. They make you look so unique. Also, your lips might be chapped, and there might be a scar on them, but they're still super kissable. Scars also show that you've been through a lot, and that makes you respectable."

They then pick up his hands, holding them by the wrists. Y/N holds them near their face, kissing Shigaraki's hands as well. Shigaraki doesn't dare to move his hands, since he's afraid of harming Y/N.

"I'm not afraid of your hands because I know you can't control what quirk you were blessed with. I know that you won't ever intentionally harm me, Tomura..."

Y/N places Shigaraki's hands back down, and they move their hands to rest on Shigaraki's shoulders. They lean into Shigaraki's neck, and Shigaraki desperately tries to move away. His neck is disgusting so why is Y/N doing this?-

He feels kisses being placed on top of the bandages he has there, and the feeling sends a slight shiver through his spine. The touch feels very intimate, touches that Shigaraki isn't used to feeling.

"I love your neck, I just wish you'd stop scratching at the skin there. To be honest, I practically love everything about you, baby..."

"Y-Y/N-"

Shigaraki tries to speak up, cheeks flushing from what Y/N said, but the words don't come out. His heart is swelling with happiness at the things his lover has said about him. 

Y/N then moves away from his neck, a smirk now on their face. Their hands trail down his chest to grab the bottom of his black hoodie, and Shigaraki quickly grabs their wrists, careful not to place all five fingers on them.

"W-What are you doing, Y-Y/N?"

Shigaraki asks shakily.

"Oh, didn't I tell you that I love everything about you? I'm going to kiss you all over your body until you stop thinking these things about yourself, starting with your chest."

Y/N shakes Shigaraki's hands off their wrists, and then they lift his hoodie from his body, and Shigaraki allows them to. He tries to hold back a moan when Y/N places their lips on his chest, gasping when teeth suddenly make contact with the flesh there.

Shigaraki has a feeling that tonight is going to be a pretty steamy night.

a/n: i love shigaraki so much :')