A LOT OF WARNINGS!!!
READ IF YOU WANNA FEEL SAD!!
SELF-HARM, EATING DISORDER, SUICIDE THOUGHTS, SUICIDE ATTEMPTS AND MORE SAD STUFF OKAY?!
its around two years of so sherlock jumped TTnTT poor John and reader-chan..
Good luck reading this through your tears. ((Btw these are like kinda based on what i have been through bc depression))//

Since the fall you weren't the same anymore, since he passed away your heart went with him..so did ur mind..."(Reader) you need to eat.." John looks down at your small skinny bony form, he is worried. Even he started dating snd stuff again and found Mary he came less and lesa to the 221B flat. You shake your head "please John go to Mary i will eat later, i promise!" Another promise to be broken. John sighs but gave in and left.

You walk to the bathroom quickly and grabbed your favorite sharp razor, all these memories of him and you happy...but he was gone. He now can't tell you to stop or grab your arms. He was gone and that's your fault. You slide the razor across your legs and arms, wanting the pain to fade already. But it didnt. After what felt like hours you stopped. You lay down, you felt weak.

((Start the song now))

You think about the times he played his violin playing your favorite song, about the ones who soon to be come but had peace with it. You feel like that right now, that you can pass any moment to the better world. Like when you are death. You feel so light and lifeless. You smile at some memories

You giggle and spin around in Sherlock his arms and kisses his cheek "oh Sherlock it's lovely!!" You smile and stare into his blue eyes. "I love you (y/n) a lot, i will never leave you my darling!!" You smile feelong happy, but soon this happiness will fade away.

You open your eyes, they were now filled with tears. "Sherlock..." That name was the only one left in your mind. You hear John walk in, you where happy you locked the bathroon door. You smile slightly at more memories.

Sherlock frowns the bathroom is closed. He knocks, and you open only being kn a towel. "What Sherlock i was about to shower!" Sherlock blushes slightly "mind if i join?" It was your turn to blush now. But you let him in anyways.

You sniff softly, but not soft enough. John hears you and knocks on the door loudly. (Y/N)!!! Open up!!!!" You smile slightly. "John it's okay...i am gonna join him..." Your vision went white, but you just could see John burst in yelling something. You were too far gone to hear it.

John Pov
I can't believe (Y/N) still hasn't woken up...it's been five days, but it's a wonder she is still alive. I wish she woke up, then she will know Sherlock is still alive. Even she is here i proposed, well more tried, to Mary when Sherlock suddenly came, like the fck dude!! Ah well, it's kinda sweet he holds her hand and won't sleep until she is awake.

Sherlock pov (like suprise bishes)
I sigh softly as i stare at (y/n) her face, i knew she was depressed....but i never thought she would go so far only because she lost me... I mean yea, we love each other. But i never ever expected this... I sigh again before i hear a soft groan. I look at (y/n) and she slowly opens her eyes. Before she could do anything i kissed her. Yeah sounds stupid but still!!! I almost lost her! Then idk why, she slapped me. I pull away and look confused. She stares at me at big eyes

Your pov
Omg, i can't believe that asshole!! He is alive?! I alnost died and he just sist there like nothing happend?! "SHERLOCK HOW COULD YOU!!" My eyes fill with tears. He looks sad and hugs me and whispers in my ear. "I am sorry....i couldn't tell you...bc Moriaty..... You know how he is... I am so so so sorry babe... I promise i will take care of you and make it up to you!!" He pulls away and stare at me with puppy eyes "please forgive me." I smile slightly, oh god how i had missed those eyes and those lips and cheekbones and, well everything. I grab his face softly and slowly, my arms still hurting and kiss him softly. After a few days i could go home and i was happy with sherlock, that was until his sister came into the picture...

(( thank you for reading, if you feel indeed sad or depressed, please talk to someone about it... Idc if its me. Please , it WILL be better guys/girls/transgenders/idk more peeps, i promise. Even when it doesnt look like it, it's hard. Even when you thought you where going forwards, you have still ur falls. Please i am gpinf through this as well, it will go better. Put those razors, knifes or what so ever away. It is not your fault, even i don't know you, you are beautiful and a wonderfull being. Please look in the mirror and tell urself that you are worth it, bc u are!! You are on this world for a reason, not to die. And think of what you still wanna go through, like fangirling about Sherlock, or starting something or finishing school!! Those are all great things, so please. Dont get too far into the dark, follow that light thats shining weakly but will lead you to the end off the tunnel and makes everything shiny again. Thnx//