"Love can sometimes be magic,
but magic can sometimes just be an illusion. "

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Stupid.

Its what I feel, I don't know why I allowed myself to sink into my feelings yet again. Yes I saw a text from some woman but that gave me no right to call another man and meet up with him, ignore John's calls and kiss Allen to a point where I wanted more. To a point where Allen realized I wanted more and chose to push me away.

I admit the rejection did not feel good but I couldn't ignore the fact that he had confessed that he liked me. It was a simple 'I like you, Nicole' that could have been friendly but he waited awfully long before deciding to be righteous. I couldn't suppress the fact that I indeed felt something for Allen but what happened on Christmas day was me trying to use his bit of weakness from being a good man to make me forget about the possible betrayal. That was wrong of me on so many levels, I cared about him and using him would be horrible of me.

"Hey, stop moping around will you?" Baron rolled his eyes having thrown a piece of paper at me.

"Hey, those are my lines!" I sighed and he reluctantly stood up and picked it off the floor behind me where it had fallen and uncreased it for me.

"Not that I give a damn, but are you okay?" His expression backed up the not caring yet his voice was filled with concern.

I hated the question, it was that one question that no matter how high you built your wall could drag you down. I had avoided everyone and focused on my feud because I knew everyone had questions about John and I wasn't sure what my thoughts were on what happened. Apart of me was living in denial, my love wouldn't do that to me, he wouldn't make me a fool in some woman's eyes because she surely knew he had me. My love respected me but how did I respect him when I had ran into the arms of Allen Jones the moment an alarm went off?

"Yeah" I smiled and focused on the slightly creased page he had set before me.

"Okay maybe I do give a little bit of a damn" he sighed and I stared up at him as he had come to join me after having entered the cafeteria and scanned it while I watched him. He was a unique character and didn't really mingle with most and I had rolled my eyes at the bright smile on his face as soon as he saw me seated with a referee and had told him to scram. He hadn't said the words but had given a look that said he didn't want a third wheel at our table.

"You do not want to know, I can't even speak to my own sister. Its just something I have to figure out on my own." I shrugged as even if he cared, was I really going to tarnish John's name when I had no solid proof? Would he even believe me or just think I was pathetic and lonely looking for things to busy my thoughts with.

"That's what I say but then you tell me I'm too closed off so I end up asking you for advice. Now I suck at it but you're supposed to kick ass out there tonight when right now you look like you're about to fucking break down." He rolled his eyes and of course there was no subtlety for a wolf.

As I said, we were in the cafeteria and so many friends and colleagues were on each table as my eyes scanned the room.

I stood up and heard a grumble from Baron and narrowed my eyes at him as he knew I had a tolerance for his harshness until I'd bring up the 'your fiance loves me so cut the bullshit or I'll tell on you'. "I'd rather not speak here so can we go find an empty locker room?"

He smirked, "well well well while the offer is tempting I love Rochelle so.."

I giggled and he chuckled as he stood up and followed me. Baron wasn't really pushy or interested so I could easily just tell him to get lost but I didn't.

It had been over two weeks, over two weeks since I saw the text and I hadn't spoken to John since. He was away on business and it wasn't odd for us not to talk, I mean it was odd there were less texts from him but I welcomed the distance because I couldn't stand putting on a facade for him. I knew he was back on Smackdown but I avoided him which wasn't as difficult as it sounded. Even when I debated having feelings for AJ my love for John had never been less, I grew with him and found myself with him but now I felt sick. It didn't help that my current storyline was based off of my relationship.

"I'm going to start charging you for my wasted breath, Nikki." I heard the annoyed voice behind me and frowned as I saw him in a doorway with arms folded.

"Sorry" I mumbled and followed him inside and he closed it.

I took off my snapback and sighed as I took a seat on a bench and I felt the lump in my throat rising, "please don't cry. I did not sign up for that, I'll go get one of your chick friends or something"

I smiled at his calm yet slightly uneasy tone, I could almost laugh picturing how awkward he would look approaching one of them to come to me, "Please don't. Look thing is, I saw something or found out something that could possibly turn my world upside down if I confronted it."

He frowned slightly and cleared his threat before running his hand over his face, "Look that night we were all pretty out of it so things happened, its no reason to want to feel so bad about it. I mean..."

"What are you talking about?" I wiped my tears before they could fall and he seemed confused when he was randomly talking about what I didn't know.

Did he see something? Had he been with John and seen them hook up? I shook away the thoughts as he would have told me, he wasn't really a secretive type when it came to bashing John. He had always said my boyfriend rubbed him the wrong way..

"I er... Nevermind, I'm talking shit. What were you saying? I don't have all day, you know?"

I sighed as I spoke allowing the sarcasm to be evident even though he helped me not be an emotional mess, "you make me want to open up to you so badly"

He chuckled but then folded his arms as he leaned against the wall and stared at me, "I actually know I do cause I could care less. So telling me wouldn't make a difference for you cause its not like I'm going to run to the locker room and shout shit out. I'm pretty good at keeping things to myself, it will only benefit you."

"I think John's cheating on me." I blurted out so fast I actually wasn't sure if he had heard me correctly but the shock in his eyes and him pushing himself off the wall told me he had.

"What?"

My eyes widened as his voice raised slightly and sighed as the unwelcome tears fell and hoped he would understand my babbling as my words were croaked, "I saw a text from what could only be a woman mentioning that he had forgotten his jacket, I think she called him babe or something. Point is, the tone of the message wasn't of a friend and she was saved under an initial which was highly suspicious. I know all John's friends and this 'S' person made him laugh and he lied to me when I asked him about it. Am I crazy or does that sound weird?"

"Fuck" Baron muttered before taking off his t-shirt and handing it to me or well tossing it into my lap. "I never liked the guy but now I really don't like him."

I wiped the tears that had fallen, happy the black attire caused it to be less visible as he paced the room. For someone who could care less he seemed pissed, "Baron..."

Pacing..

"Baron!"

He stopped and bit his cheek as he stared at me and for the first time in our friendship it seemed he was actually thinking before he spoke, "Its not fucking weird, I mean its weird cause why the fuck would he cheat on you. But other than that it sounds sketchy. I'm guessing you haven't confronted him?"

"Why would I? I mean maybe there's another reason." I shrugged as that was all I could hope for, that I had become delusional or I was overreacting.

"We both know you're anything but stupid, so don't be in denial." Maybe he could have been using his words better, maybe he could have offered a hug but I didn't want it. This is why I chose to tell Baron, he wouldn't sugar coat shit but I didn't like how pissed he seemed.

"Corbin, you can't tell anyone what I told you. Not AJ and you definitely can't confront John."

He chuckled with an eye roll, "I know. Look John is fucking stupid, I've listened to you talk about this guy for most of the time that I've known you. Read over your lines and watched how upset you got seeing what Natalya had to say. So you with him for so long sacrificing shit and this is how he repays you?"

I smiled and stood up, "you care."

"You're my friend. My fiance's friend, I sat there annoyed while you two gushed over that idiot. I don't care" he shook his head with a small smirk.

I held back the voice that wanted to immediately defend 'the idiot' who I loved but knew it was better he ranted off to me. I felt a slight weight lift due to telling someone, my first instinct had been Brie but if I were wrong she'd have those thoughts and I didn't want to tarnish their thoughts on him. Baron already hated his guts for his own reasons so I suppose no harm was done.

"What do I do now?"

"When are you seeing him again?" I shrugged. "I don't know. I told you I suck at advice but be more aware now, don't be blinded by the fairytale. I think he takes advantage of the fact that you're crazy in love with him."

I sighed, "okay I just need to not hear more about him. I need to mentally prep myself to be the woman he knows and not show something is up cause I'm in a storyline where I'm defending it all. Once I view him differently, it can easily be reflected to the world and I might just have a breakdown then."

"Well if you do at least you'll have me. All the other losers will probably take his side" he scoffed and I fought a smile wiping the remaining tears before wrapping my arms around him. It was good thing he hadn't fought yet since he was shirtless and all.

He was no hugger really unless he wanted to taunt me with a sweaty body but I needed one and his reaction had surprised me, he cared. It meant a lot from the closed off wolf who only showed emotion when talking about his fiance.

"You're lucky I feel bad" he sighed and I soon felt his arms tighten around me and closed my eyes.

Admitting to someone, what I had seen had instantly made it all real, there was a chance John was unfaithful to me. How long? With who? Why? Was he lonely like me?

I heard the door opening and immediately jumped back to see AJ who stared back and forth between us seeming confused and as he did I noticed the door had his name on it. Of course Baron would just think it was okay for us to take over the champ's locker room.

"Oh hi AJ. I need to go to my match uhm I'll see you later, Corbin. Thanks for the shirt."

"No problem. You can wear it, show some support for me. Maybe then the fucking fans will quit their shit on twitter." He rolled his eyes and followed me out but before he could walk far I heard a 'Tommy' from inside.

"Fuck. Its fine I'll go down for it, you head to your match and don't let them fuck with you." He narrowed his eyes.

"You're so foul but thanks" I smiled before turning on my heel.

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"Care to explain?" I questioned Tommy as soon as he was done saying his goodbyes to Nicole outside. Sounded like he was wishing her goodluck which I would have liked to do but it was clear she was back to the avoiding game yet again. It was really beginning to get old but I wasn't the confrontational type so I let her be.

He frowned before searching his backpack and pulling over a t-shirt which reminded me that he had been shirtless holding Nicole while she held his t-shirt, "Explain what? We needed somewhere to hangout and didn't think you would mind us being here. I mean technically we share."

I wasn't sure what to think of their friendship that seemed to be becoming closer and closer everytime I turned a corner. I was surprised he was still travelling with me because at this rate he'd probably ditch me for her when he had been the one reluctant to travel with her for one night before.

"Technically you just toss your things in here despite me reminding you to try and be more social" I rolled my eyes with a scoff and sat down and switched on the monitor to see Nicole and Nattie going at it.

It felt like their feud had been going on forever in all honesty, they were quite close and Nattie was sweet so seeing her badmouth Nikki's relationship was painful to watch. I tried not to watch most of it mostly because I wasn't sure whether Nicole was really upset or just playing the part most of the time and didn't want to get in my head about it. Also I'd see her running over her lines pretending Tommy was Nattie a couple of times which just annoyed me. I was not annoyed easily but Tommy sure knew what to do to make me want to strangle him at times.

"You know you love my company" he shrugged before focusing his eyes on the screen. "And if you don't, at least Nikki does"

"Here, I thought you had a fiance" I tried not to give Tommy any reaction at the mention of her name because I knew he liked it but I couldn't stop myself.

"I do. Stop getting the wrong ideas, she's my friend and very comfortable with me. With you she's probably afraid you'll pounce her" he chuckled entertaining himself.

I liked to believe he didn't really care for her but I'd constantly see them together and he wouldn't mention any of it. And it seemed the more she tried to avoid me, the less I saw of him. He'd toss his things once we arrived and then disappear like that...

"Not this time. She's pissed at me because I pushed her away." I sighed.

"You what?"

"She kissed me and it got intense but I stopped it. I couldn't let her mess up her life over some moment of weakness." I shrugged, I would have liked to keep it to myself but despite his suspicious activity with her he was the only one I could confide in about her.

He sighed, "I should be a fucking guidance councilor, look a moment of weakness happens once. You two have had lots of close calls, we both know you want her. And maybe she needs you to want her."

"She has John Cena. Why would she even need me?" I had told her that I liked her, admitted it to her but I hoped she hadn't taken it as heavily as I meant it. She hung out with Tommy more than she did me and I was sure she felt nothing for him so I didn't see anything from her side for me. Maybe she gave hints here or there but I took it as her being confused that's all. All in all I knew she regretted it just as much as I wish I did.

"She kissed you first didn't she?"

"Just because she kissed me first doesn't mean she needs me, I should really stop spilling things to you. You don't like Cena, for all I know you'll walk up to him and tell him she's cheating on him."

"You like Cena but you're the one wanting to fuck his girlfriend." He knowingly pointed out and my eyes left the screen to shoot him an unappreciative look which he did not pay any mind to.

"I don't want to..."

"You sure?" He smirked and I rolled my eyes and shook my head standing up.

"I don't know how your fiance puts up with you, how does Nicole even put up with you? I don't get it." I frowned genuinely interested as to what their friendship consisted of.

"Chicks love the lone wolf idea. Nicole knows I don't hang out with anyone especially women because I'm engaged so she feels special. Not in a she's in love with me sense but she knows I ain't going to tell the world anything she tells me." He shrugged before muttering a fuck as Nicole got hurt.

"And what does she tell you?"

"Now see if I told you it would defeat the purpose of our friendship, wouldn't it?" He pointed his finger with a small smirk.

"As long as its nothing involving me" I shrugged.

"In all honesty, you're not really brought up that much"

"Seriously?" I had mentioned it in hopes of him actually saying something.

"Yeah. I guess her bad activities are one thing she keeps to herself. I think that's a good sign, means it means something to her"

"You need more friends" I sighed not sure when he had become so wise. I was used to a few words here or there but ever since Nicole it was like he couldn't shut up.

"Believe me, the friends I have give me enough of a fucking headache."

I chuckled before seeing a Cena sign in the audience and being reminded, "I saw Cena arrive before I got here, I see you're on the card with him for the night"

"What?" His head snapped to me so fast I was sure he had some whiplash.

"Look. I told you the last time I'm not your messenger, you need to check these things yourself" I shook my head as sometimes he really could care less about being on time for things.

"Since when is he fucking here again? Did you speak to him? Was he looking for Nikki?"

I frowned, "What's with the third degree? Honestly, if you and Nikki are..."

"We're not. Can you answer my questions?"

"I don't know since when, maybe since last week when we had our contract signing?" I rolled my eyes not hiding the sarcasm.

As much as it was awkward for me, I was in a current feud with John Cena believe it or not. Its why I chose to give Nicole her space she wanted as I assumed since he was on the road again she'd be with him. I hadn't seen her with him though, she'd been with Tommy whenever I had seen her. But John Cena was looking to make history and she was probably fully supportive and hanging out with the guy she kissed wasn't her idea of fun I suppose.

"He was here. She said that... Nevermind." He scoffed.

"What the hell is going on, Tommy?" I breath because clearly I was missing something.

"Nothing. But if we are having a match I can't wait to kick his ass." He smiled, a smile holding nothing but destruction behind it.

I shook my head as I focused on Nicole, maybe it was best if I missed everything involving her because I was getting dangerously close to something that would cause its own destruction.

John Cena was back, she loved him and that was that. There was no need for me in her life anymore...