Ciel's POV
It's the next day and we shall go home in a few hours. I feel as if it's important to go today, not just because of the chance of returning to find my mansion in shambles or worse; there is something else, it's like I don't want Alois to grow on my maid too much. I just hope she chooses to come home instead of staying at this old wreck! And no, I'm not jealous! I am a Phantomhive, I do not feel such petty emotions like jealousy!
I.. just want to make sure (y/n)'s safe..
Yeah Ciel, because you've been just AMAZING at that so far.
I still need to finish that duel with Alois. I just have to make sure that (y/n) is far, far away.
Sebastian dressed me in my black clothing and gave me my tea. I wore the patch (y/n) had given me. "Shall I go and prepare the carriage for the journey home then My Lord?" He asked.
"Yes, and while your at it, make sure (y/n) has her trunk packed. I wish to be out of this place without any further distractions." I replied, sipping my tea.
"Of course Master." He bowed, hand on heart before leaving the room and shutting the door. I have no doubt that she will return with me; if I order her to then she must, I am her master after all! but she is a demon I suppose. she has no loyalty unless she is entered into a contract. I frowned sadly to myself as I had forgotten about her being a demon. despite here ears and tail, I had grown to consider her as a person and that (y/n) cared for me as I did care for her.

***Flashback Flash****

"i love you..... both....... my masters....... my....... my friends"

*****Flashback End*****

that was what she had whispered to me as blood leaked from the wound i had caused. i nearly killed her in my blind jealousy (for that is what it was) and yet, she never showed any fear or hatred towards me. she stayed as the (y/n) i knew, the (y/n) i loved. i can still remember the hope, relief and the gratefulness she displayed when i stumbled into the room on the day she awoke. i had believed that she cared about me as a person, but now i realise, she is a demon and only wants my soul. this brought tears that i tried to keep away, but they fell nonetheless. few and silent they were; they were still there.

demons have no loyalty, no sense of trust, they know no feelings other than hunger for the taste of a human soul. and the deals they make to get them.

i called for more tea. tea was one of the few things to calm me. just one cup of the rich and creamy taste of well made, strong, Earl Grey tea could fix my day. i never told or showed it though. it could make me just that little bit more vunerable, weak. and i am not weak. i stood, wiping my face clean of emotion and tears for when Sebastian brought my drink. only, it wasn't Sebastian, it was (y/n) who knocked upon the door and walked in. she wore a maid outfit much like that other demon one, whats her name?.. was it... Hannah?

"i brought your drink Ci-- uh, er, Alph- er umm. that is... Master." she stuttered, embarrassed at her nearly calling me by my name. unsightly for a maid, to call her master by his first name. i wonder though, as i stare at her blushing face curiously, was she about to refer to me as Alpha? why? i would of thought that Alpha was the name for a wolf. curious.

"umm. is something the matter?" she asked, shifting awkwardly on her feet.

"oh, nothing." i replied. i was caught staring at a maid. how embarrassing. "have you packed for the journey home? i trust that your brother delivered the message, did he not?"

"yes, he did. and about us leaving to go home." she took a deep breath, "w-well, i-im not coming." she said quickly, tearing up.

"you must return to the manor! you are my maid and i order you to return with me!" i commanded, the hurt was kept out of my eyes, "you think i dragged myself over to this hellhole and delt with Trancy for the sake of it?! well i didn't, i came for you!"

"Master, i understand. but i cant come with you. i--"

"you would rather stay here? is that it? i came here ,of all places, and took time out of my very busy scheduale to return empty handed? Phantomhive's do not fail at any costs and so you shall come with me. you are my maid and so it is your duty. you are my maid to redeem yourself for--" i lost control of my temper as i said this. until (y/n) cut in, she sounded angry at me.

"for what?! taking a loaf of bread?! i was starving, Ciel! and you think it fit that because i needed to eat for the first time in over a week, that i suddenly have to do what you say? well heres a surprise for all you nobles, you don't own the world just because you can afford to stuff yourselves silly every day of the week and have huge houses!" her eyes were glowing the fiercest amethyst i had ever seen and her pupils became cat slit and feral. i wanted to stop and apologise, i should of right that instant. but i let my ego and temper do the talking. like a fool.

"its not like you even need to eat! your a demon you only understand the taste of a helpless soul. infact, you probably only pretended to be faithful because you want my soul!"

"you know, newsflash, your not that goddamn special! just because my butler of a brother wants to feast on you, it doesn't mean every demon out there wants to!" she shouted.

"what would you know about feelings or desires?! your a demon without loyalty or trust! you have no feelings!" i yelled. i instantly regretted it though as tears poured down her perfect face and her eyes widened, still amethyst but the pupils had grown to a round and hurt orbs.

"is that truthfully what you think of me? that i am an emotionless monster? I'm an outcast, Ciel. that punishment? it became the best thing to happen to me, i had friends, food, a place to stay. heck, i even had my brother back after over a over a million years the only family i had. i haven't eaten a soul since my mistress and dear friend, Lady Maya. and I know it sound silly, but I believed you when you said that you cared for me. I guess it was indeed, to good to be true." she whispered before dropping my tea, turning with tears pouring down her perfect face. she ran weeping with all her speed out of the room and away, some of her crystal blue tears had flown off her as she ran, one of which landed on my left cheek and slowly trailed down until it dropped to the floor below. how could I say such things to her of all people? just a heartless demon? her? never! so why did I say it? I'm the heartless one!

"(y/n)! wait!"i called before I sank to my knees, clutching my hair in my hands, "but I do care, I'm so sorry. what have I done..." I whispered almost silently.

howdy! I'm well again now and have also started that other story I mentioned a while back, it is called 'Black cat (Sebastian x reader)' if you wanna read that I would be so grateful.

remember, I still need opinions on which lucky fella will win the heart of you, the gorgeous and spectacular final wolf demon! or as suggested by @Insanity0Dark I could work extra hard for you guys and try to make a choice ending.

its all up to yall out there reading this to choose what you want me to do for this story. I would also quickly like to thank you all on helping me reach over 3.9 thousand reads! that is unbelievable and I am eternally grateful. if you want me to write any kind of Black Butler fanfics, just let me know and I will try as hard as I can. the only ones I cant do are lemons (cus lets face it people, I'm 12 years old and my friends that read my stories will kill me) and one shots (cus I just get too carried away and they will never be published cus I will keep going into too much detail).

love every single one of ya,

Xena

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