I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, sitting in an unlit balcony listening to the music of the traffic. 

There's so much you don't know and, what if you knew? There's so much you know yet don't and, what if you didn't know?

Things I care about, things I worry about.

Stuff I like and that that makes me cry at night.

At times, you love too much and others, care too little.

You overlook those tears that never fall on my shirt or yours.

(for, they're not tears if you don't know of them.)

Little acts of love here and there, throughout the day,

but, that ignorance in the evening-

kills me little by little as I choke on silence.

i smile in the bathtub full of cheap gin.

(And, you buy it. I no more know what hurts more?)

Burnt cigars and ashes, All that's been said-

But that "little" that's not?

Makes all the difference, darling.

"reveal too much"

( that's killed me about 1452 times.)

I heard a thunder when you said,

whatever you did right then,

'cause i was waiting for the rain.

rain- washed over wounds and simple numbness.

(pretty please, care even if i don't rhyme)

 I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, sitting in a room full of people, listening to the music of my heart's uneven beats.   

baby, my knees bleed now. tell me something i need to know.

"..."

That's all i need, my love.

 That's all i need, my love.