Heshiena's Point of View

Today's Saturday. Weekend. Nandito pa rin ako hanggang ngayon sa aking kuwarto. Nakatihaya akong nakahiga't ginamit ang aking dalawang kamay bilang unan. Habang ang mga mata ko naman ay nasa kisame lang nakatitig.

Rinig na rinig ko na ang ingay sa labas ng kuwarto ko't maging ang mga ingay sa labas ng cabin.

A natural sound that cause by nature. Cold breeze of the morning suddenly enter my room, made me shiver. Napalingon ako sa bintanang nakabukas. There I saw leaves are rustling. Napangiti ako. The leaves are as blue as the ocean.

From afar, I could hear the waves of the sea crushing against the shore. Subalit ang ngiting namutawi sa aking labi ay kaagad ding napawi. Bumalik na naman sa isipan ko ang sinabi sa akin ni Sir Michael.

"You can't forever stay in one place, Heshiena."

That was the exact sentence that hit me to the core. Been years of keeping the blame, regrets, and grief all to myself. And most of the time, those are pain in the ass.

Gabi-gabi ako kinakain ng lungkot. I wanted to shed tears. Subalit wala akong mailabas na luha dahil tila ba'y napagod na ito. Simula noong bata pa ako, kahit ni isang kaibigan wala ako. Yes, I did try to make friends, but no matter how many times I've tried, nothing happened.

Minalas na nga ako sa ibang bagay, maging sa paghahanap ng kaibigan. When I am attached to someone, or started to like them, kukunin naman sila sa akin sa pamamagitan ng kamatayan. 'Yong parang lahat ng bagay sa mundo ipinagkait sa 'yo, ganoong pakiramdam.

Sa labing walong taon sa mundo, nasanay na ako. Lahat ng mga taong nakapaligid sa akin, hindi ako gusto. From that moment onwards, I promised that I always distance myself away from others.

"Mukhang habang buhay na akong maging ganito," bulong ko sa aking sarili. Sinundan naman ito ng mapait at malungkot na buntong-hininga.

"I am sorry." My eyes grew wider when I heard Poseidon's cracking voice. I could trace sincerity in his tone.

Kumunot ang aking noo pagkatapos. Bakit siya nagso-sorry sa akin? May nagawa ba siyang mali para humingi sa akin ng kapatawaran? Nahinto ako sa pag-iisip nang makarinig ako ng tatlong katok sa labas ng aking pintuan.

"Heshiena?" it was Violeta's voice. "Breakfast is ready," she said.

A smile plastered upon my lips. Violeta, a friendly demigod who had the ability of empathy. Maging si Ace din. Bumuntonghininga ako nang malalim bago bumangon sa pagkakahiga. Naglakad ako papalapit ng pintuan at dahan-dahan itong binuksan.

Tumambad sa akin ang maganda niyang mukha. When she saw me, a sweet smile plastered upon her lips. Marahang nagsilakihan ang aking mata nang bigla niya akong hawakan sa kamay. For unknown reason, it made me feel at ease.

"You don't mind, right?" she asked.

Habang ako naman ay napatango lang kaagad. Naglakad na kami patungo sa staircase. On our way there, Violeta remained silent. Napakunot na naman ang aking noo sa pagtataka. Mas lalo lang nadagdagan ang aking pagtataka nang makita ko ang ekspresyon sa mukha ni Violeta.

She seem sad, but at the same time it's as if she's draining. It's as if all her life energy were sucked all out. Nang makababa kami sa hagdan ay hindi ako handa sa mataas na energy na sumalubong sa akin.

When Violeta removed her hand off of me, her facial expression came back. 'Yong parang bumalik na sa kaniya ang liwanag. 'Yong parang lahat ng panghihina niya kanina ay bumalik sa kaniyang mga ugat.

"Heshiena!" Nagulat na lamang ako nang marinig ko ang pagsigaw ni Ace sa aking pangalan. Dahilan para mapailing-iling ako.

One week after my arrival here in the academy has been great. Perhaps because I am avoiding them most of the time. I don't know. But I appreciate them because none of them tried to force me to tell them what's been on my mind. Like asking questions that might offend me. Or put me in a hotseat.

They've been so sensitive to everything they showed me. Maybe because they don't want me to be upset or anything that makes me feel like shit. And I am thankful because of that.

I was so surprised when Ace suddenly hugged me tight. Pero kalaunan naman ay tila unti-unting natutunaw ang puso ko. Dahan-dahan namang sumilay ang matamis na ngiti sa aking labi. My heart won't stop pounding in happiness.

Napadaing bigla si Ace nang lumapit sa kaniya si Chry at kinaladkad siya nito palayo sa akin. Habang hawak-hawak ni Chry ang kaniyang tenga. Ace looked at me, it's as if asking for help. Dahil doon ay napatawa ako. I was even surprised to myself that I am able to laugh . . . again.

"Can we eat now?" I heard Zuki ask.

I chuckled. Dahil dito ay pumasok na ako sa kusina. Hihilahin ko na sana ang upuang nasa tabi ni Nkri, subalit naunahan naman ako ni Mavros. We looked each other in the eye, but we are both quick to avert our gaze and chuckled awkwardly.

"Thank you," pagpapasalamat ko sa kaniya.

He just nodded as a response. Nang makaupo ako ay kaagad na inabot sa akin ni Mavros ang flat na plato na may lamang sandwiches. I smiled at him as a thank you and pick two sandwiches. Dalawang magkaibang klase. Ang isa naman ay may palamang scrambled egg, habang ang isa ay bacon.

Tumayo muna ako para mag-timpla ng kape. After that ay bumalik ako sa kinauupuan ko kanina. Masaya kaming nagsalo-salo ng agahan. And it somehow melt my heart and bring me joy with this simplest time together.

Isa-isa ko silang tinignan. Nakipag-kulitan si Ace kay Dash. Nagtatawanan naman sina Fuego, Zuki, at Blaze. Violeta and Blei are talking. Erin is like the ear of the group. Kahit ano'ng klaseng pinagsasabi ng iba ay talagang makikinig siya.

Nkri is spending time with her book while eating breakfast. Chry is surprisingly good mood today. Ibinaling ko ang aking tingin kay Mavros para tignan kung ano ang ginagawa niya. I was taken aback when I saw him staring at me.

Ako na ang nahiya sa pamamaraan ng kaniyang pagtitig. To stop me from embarrassing myself, I drifted my eyes back to Ace. I smiled.

Ace, I may have found him boisterous most of the time, but he's a guy with an innocent heart. He always brings people together. 'Yong parang gano'n. He always makes everyone laugh. He's sweet, emphatic, and kind.

Tumingin ako sa katabi ni Ace. Dash, he somewhat fussy. 'Yong parang puro kalokohan lang nasa isip. But despite of that, I could sense in him that he is protective. He had this energy within him that produce positivity.

My eyes drifted to the girl who was peacefully reading a book. Nkri, she's brilliant, quick-witted, and disciplined. She always takes precautions before acting. She's fierce on the battlefield and an unpredictable warrior. Same goes to Blaze.

Subalit ang kaibahan lang nilang dalawa ay sa kabila ng pagiging disiplinado ni Blaze, may nakatagong pagiging naughty niya kapag may napupusuan. Napapansin ko 'yon kapag kasama niya si Blei.

Her, on the other hand, a shy of the group. May nasagap pa nga ako na tinagurian siya ng academy bilang, the shy seaweed. I noticed that she always takes care of others before herself. A selfless one indeed.

Sumilay ang ngiti sa aking labi nang makita kong nakatitig si Fuego kay Erin. Fuego, the chef of everyone. I mean, he always cooked for us. Kahit na alam niyang busy din siya sa armory. Like his deity, Hephaestus, specialize on designing and improvising weapons for the academy.

Fuego is someone like wants everything to be done at exact time. Para siyang parent-figure naming lahat. He cooked for us every day before drowning himself inside the armory. Ginagawa niya ang lahat para lang hindi kami magutom. At nagagawa niya naman.

Si Erin naman ay mabait naman siya. She's ready to listen anything. Siya 'yong tipong tao na walang pakialam kung ang sasabihin namin ay puro kalokohan o may kabuluhan. She's that kind of person. I've read about Eros that he's vengeful if someone offended him. And I wonder if ganoon din ba si Erin.

Zuki, as the son of Apollo, he's beautiful. Hindi ko siya masyadong nakilala dahil hindi ko siya palaging nakakausap o nakakasama. But what I know is he's caring and friendly. One time, nakita ko pa nga siyang may tinutulungang estudyante.

Napunta naman ang tingin ko kay Violeta. She's the first person that makes me feel comfortable. She can calm me. Kahit na maarte siya, I didn't find it annoying. Personality na niya 'yon. Palaging nakalugay ang straight at hanggang beywang niyang buhok. Palagi din siyang concious sa suot niya.

But she sometimes braided her hair in half tied at the edge with a golden ribbon. I've noticed that she's temperamental when her patience is taken for granted. But despite that, she's also sweet and kind.

Napatingin ako sa babaeng nakaupo sa upuang nasa dulo ng lamesa.

Chrysos, she had the authority. Napapansin kong sinusunod siya ng lahat. She's brave and rarely show emotions. Though at times, she can be profoundly stubborn, prideful and assertive like his father, Zeus, from what they said.

But I know myself that she cares on the inside.

Because I've been through like that. Finally, Mavros, I've noticed that he's a solitary and independent demigod. He despise negative things. And always take precautions when talking to someone. 'Yong parang nag-iingat siya na walang masabing salita na puwedeng makasakit sa taong kausap niya.

He maintains a casually calm and reserved manner. But I know the opposite, based on his godly bloodline and his abilities, I am sure he is capable of being violent and with a terrifying temper. He respects the laws and decisions of everyone. And I experienced it yesterday morning.

I scoff in silent. And a smile plastered upon my lips. Bigla kong pinagsisihan ang pag-iwas ko sa kanila. I mean, these people are diverse.

With different personalities, and with different beliefs, but they aren't that people who force others to do their bidding. Ito 'yong klaseng pamilya na gusto kong makamit.

A family who are teasing each other, but understand each other.