Dahan-dahan akong lumapit kay Mom. Naka upo sya sa gilid ng grand piano habang tinitipa ang gitara nya. She told me that she was once a musician back in her college days. Also I was very shock when she told me Dad was very very famous, up until now. My hands are shaking and the lump in my throat is still in me. Natatakot ako sa pwede ko malaman, parang ang daming hindi tama nitong mga nakaraang buwan. Pakiramdam ko ibang katauhan ang ginagamit ko, hindi ko alam kung ano ang totoo.

Sa sobrang kaba ko ay nawalan ako ng balanse at napa hawak sa grand piano nilingon agad ako ni Mom at saka ngumiti ng makita ako. Kinagat ko ang labi ko at saka lumapit sa kanya, naupo ako sa isang superior single couch na kulay velvet at saka sya pinaka titigan.

"What's the matter? Hindi ka ba aalis?" Nilapag nya ang gitara sa tabi saka tinignan ako. "Usually, ganitong oras narito na si Jonas para sunduin ka. May problema ba kayo?" Umiling ako bilang sagot.

I want to know the truth. Sino ba talaga si Enrico sa buhay ko.

"Baby.. Kung may problema ka, I'm always here for you. Always remember that.." Malambing nyang sabi saka ako inabot at hinawakan sa kamay.

"Mom.. I want to know the truth. Sino ba talaga si Enrico s-sa buhay ko?"

Nakita ko na natigilan nya. Naging malikot ang mga mata nya at para bang may gusto syang sabihin pero hindi nya alam kung paano. Mas lalong lumakas ang hinala ko na hindi lang sya basta kapatid ko kung di meron pang iba. Alam ko. Ramdam ko.

"Mom tell me the truth please." May pag mamakaawa sa boses ko habang naka titig sa mga mata nya. Mabilis na ginagap ko ang kamay nya ng mag iwas sya ng tingin. "I never told you about this but I remember some fragments of him in my dreams. I don't want to worry you and Dad but I feel like it wasn't me if I will keep this to myself."

Nabasag na ang boses ko at agarang pag tulo ng mga luha ko ang pumalit sa pag pipigil ko ng mga hikbi. Niyakap ako ni Mom ng mahigpit at ramdamn ko na nasasaktan din sya sa nakikita sa akin. Hindi ko na napigilan at umiyak sa dibdib nya.

"Its the real you Rhyon." Ilang saglit lang ay bulong nya. Nag tatakang tinitigan ko ang nanay ko. Real me?

"I don't understand you Mom."

"You were the most aloof kid in the family. I don't know if I should tell you this because your father wants you the way you are now.. easy to approach and very vocal to her thoughts. All the things that you thought you are now is the opposite of who you are before you were found by Enrico." I can hear how pain started to cover my mom as she said every words. And it was like knives starting to dig through my body.. and heart. "Ayaw ko na sa iba mo pa malaman ang mga bagay na ito but baby know yourself one at a time. Hurting you is the last thing your dad and I wanted to do. I hope you understand."

Parang dinudurog ang puso ko sa mga nalaman ko. Kaya ba ganon na lang ang reaksyon ng mga tao sa paligid ko? Kaya ba parang ibang tao ang kaharap nila sa tuwing kasama ako? Is that the reason why Jonas keep on tracking every move I make. Pero akala ko may.. may kung ano kami kaya ganon kami kalapit sa isa't isa.

But its impossible. I know to myself that I'm vocal. That I was sweet from the very beginning. I know that I love my family more than anything else.

"How about," Enrico. Pero hindi ko maituloy ang gusto ko sabihin dahil kinakain ako ng kung anong emosyon sa dibdib ko.

"About what, Rhyon." His cold voice made a shiver to my spine. Nakita ko ang pag aalala sa mga mata ng nanay ko. I look from my shoulder and saw dad standing at the door frame.

"A-about.." I closed my eye then after gaining some guts I look at his chest. "About Jonas, dad. M-magkaaway kami and I don't know how I'm going to ask him out para bumili ng e-earphone. I think I misplaced it."

Ang hirap mag sinungaling lalo na at kasama ko si Mom.

I saw him walk and wrapped his strong arms around me. His scent fills my nose and it felt like I'm protected and safe from anything.. or something.. worst is someone.

"Why dont we go? The three of us. Para naman makapabas tayo ng mag kakasama like when you were young." Parang kinurot ang puso ko sa excitement na mababakas sa mukha ni Dad. Was I really an aloof one? How come I stayed away from a sweet man like him? I couldn't help but hug him tight. "What's the matter sweety? Is something wrong?"

"No Daddy.. I'm fine.. I just miss you."

"Good Lord.." I heard him whisper."I still can't believe I have you in my arms again."

I felt his other arm move. I was about to protest when I felt another hug came from my back. And just like that my heavy feelings lightens as I felt dad hug me and my mom. He's a big man and its comfortable that he can easily hug the two of us in a tight way just like hugging a single person.

"We love you baby. More than anything in this world." My mom whisper and I nod feeling the sides of my eyes heating.

I saw how his eyes widen when he opened the door. I was about to knock you know when he open the door. May mga ngiting sumupil sa labi nya at saka nilakihan ang pagkaka bukas ng pinto. Tumikhim ako saka pumasok sa unit nya. My eyes wonder around the living room of his unit and straight ahead to his couch. I turn around to ask for his permission so I could sit when he's already inches away from me. Smelling his after shave soap.

"What are you doing!" I push him and made a few steps away from him.

"Getting close to you. I miss you so bad and its killing me already Rhyon." He said helpless.

Pinaka titigan ko ang mga mata nya habang naka tingin ng nag susumamo sakin. Those almond eyes. Thick brows making his eyes hooded. Long lashes and the high bridge of his nose is too perfect to be true. He look somewhere and given me the access of seeing the tip of his perfect nose and those jaws. God! Give me a reason to descriminate this man!

"Come on, sweety.. say something." Pag mamakaawa nya at akmang lalapit sakin ng ikumpas ko ang mga kamay ko.

"I have something to tell you and it won't take long I promise." Alanganin kong sabi saka dahan dahang naupo sa single couch malayo sa kanya.

Sumusukong tumango si Enrico saka naupo sa katapat kong upuan. Kinumpas nya ang mga kamay pahintulot na pwede na ako mag simula ng makuha ng atensyon ko ang litrato sa ibabaw ng cabinet. It took me a good five seconds to realize that it was him and a girl who looked like a model in the picture.

I don't know why it felt like someone punch me right before my chest. Ang hirap huminga at parang gusto ko na lang tumayo para iwan sya dito. Pwede ko naman malaman yung lahat ng tungkol sa amin kung mag tatanong ako sa mga nakakakilala sa amin. Sa akin o sa kanya.

Tinignan nya ang tinititigan ko at saka bumuntong hininga. Nang mag angat sya ng yingin ay kita ko ang pag sisisi sa mga mata nya.

"That's.. that is George." Pag uumpisa nya. Yeah talk. I have to know something. "She was.. my girlfriend. You met her before, Rhyon." My brows arch. I felt a different wave of emotion again.. anger.

"Really? Don't remember her and I don't think I have to." Kinuha ko yung paper bag na dala ko saka iyon inilapag sa ibabaw ng coffee table. "I.. I think someone forgot that things in my room. I just came here to give you that."

Liar! You know its all yours, Rhyon!

All the things I saw in my room is on that paper bag. Malaking paper bag nga ang nagamit ko para dyan. Tumayo na ako para sana iwan sya ng mabilis nya akong nahabol saka hinatak sa braso.

"I don't give a fuck about those trashes. Gusto ko makausap ka ng maayos. Gusto ko malaman kung bakit nilalayuan mo ako. I don't know what happened to us Rhyon." He said as if he loosen all his temper from all the time I ignore him. "I want everything to get back to what it was before."

"What are you talking about?" I was nervous and shaking. I feel like I regret coming here all alone. Without Jonas to back me up.

"Ikaw at ako." Mariin nyang sagot.

Walang kami. Wala!

"You're crazy! Wala tayong relasyon no-" he hold me in both arms. He's shaking.

He's mad.

No.

No..

"Then I will tell you everything. Hindi na ako mananahimik para lang panuorin ka kasama ng ibang lalake! You have to know everything Rhyon. About you and me. About your feelings for me. About the things you can do just to be with me. To own me!" He said inna dangerous tone as his eyes starting get darker and sharper.

"I don't believe you! Walang sinasabi sa akin si Jonas about satin dalawa." I shout and tried to get off from his grip pero malakas sya. "Let me go, Enrico!"

"Why would he if its the only way he can have you alone?" He said like a venom. Like wanting Jonas to get killed by his word. "That guy took advantage of you. Took advantage that supoosedly you are mine but you forgot who I was in your life. You forgot that I am the man you love, needed and your world. Your everything before you went missing months ago."

"Stop that! Hindi mo sya kilala!" Tili ko. My eyes heating from anger. "Jonas is better than you! Way fucking better!"

"And you think he's better for you?" He said in a dangerous tone. Tumaas ang mga balahibo ko habang naka titig sa galit nyang mga mata.

Pinatatag ko ang sarili at walang emosyon na tinitigan sya kasabay ng pag tutuluan ng mga luha ko.

"Of course not. Because Jonas is meant for me." I said in conviction.

"Why?" He said without any emotion. "You love him? You already fall for him? That chinky boy is nothing compared to what I have and who I am now."

Hindi napigilan ang pag hikbi ng bitawan nya ako. Nawalan ako ng balanse at napaupo ng wala sa oras sa sahig dahil sa panginginig ng mga binti ko. Niyakap ko ang sarili dahil hindi ko nagugustuhan kung saan patungo ang emosyon na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Pakiramdam ko may mga naka titog sa akin kahit na alam ko na sya lang ang kasama ko dito. Pakiramdam konay may hahawak sa katawan ko. May masakit na tatama sa akin at pononh sakit ang mangingibabaw sa katawan ko.

"I hate you Enrico. I really really hate you!" Iyak ko.

I'm disgusted.

I don't know what to think anymore.

Leave me alone Rhyon. George and I plan to get married once I get rid of you.

"I hate you so much!" Iyak na sagot ko sa sinabi nya. "I hate you!" Sigaw ko na nawala na sa kontrol.

"Rhyon, baby are you alright?" I felt him walk toweds me.

"Stop!" Iyak ko.

"Baby I'm worried. Ano ba nangyayari sayo?" Taranta nyang tanong. "Rhyon answer me! Ano bang nararamdaman mo-"

Tangina ang sarap nito.

You sure we're going to do this?

Careful babe. It won't take long I promise.

We're gonna let you feel wasted baby.

"Get away from me you sick pig!"

Images of three men showed in my head. They are all familiar but I dont know where I've seen them.

My body started shaking and I can feel my jaws starting to get numb. Mybchest tightened and and I couldn't catch my breath. Ayaw tumigil ng mga luha ko ng pangkuin ako ni Enrico at mabilis na giniya ang pinto. I can't hear anything but another image pop inside my head kasabay ng napaka kirot na pakiramdam ang gumuhit sa ulo nya.

Enrico with those men.

Five hours after

*Jonas

My heart skip a beat when she moved her hand and rest it about her eyes. Naka hinga ako ng maayos ng may mahihinang daing syang ginawa dahil sa liwanag ng hospital lights.

Seeing her beauty in this distance make some butterflies fly inside my stomach. I know Rhyon changed. A lot. And I know we're not like before. She's being vocal about it.. But I don't want to take advantage of her situation right now. She needed a friend. And it happen thay I'm the only one she has.

Agad kobsya inalalayan ng naka pikit na bumangon nya para maupo. Napangiti ako ng lihim kahit na ba kanina pa nag ngingitngit sa galit si Tito Rhyne dahil sa nangyari.

"Careful android." I whisper to her ear but instead of slapping my face for being so near what she did shook the hell of me.

I closed my eyes as I answer her kiss. Not caring about the people around us. Just a light kiss but it made a warm feeling in my chest, wanting it to last for life. I let go of her lips and rest my forehead in hers as I look at her

Cold gray-green eyes.

"Jonas.." she whisper in a painful way. No baby.. no. She's hurting again.

"I love you.." instead I whisper.

I saw how she nod and smile to me. Not erasing the pain in her eyes.