We talked for a little while when I noticed a hickey on Mandy's neck "where is that from?" I ask "well as I said Gallagher's can't leave us Milkovich's alone" she said with a smirk ian and I looked at eachother "lip is home?" Ian asked "ya he got here early this morning" she says "I'm gonna go talk to him" ian said and mandy and I continued to talk I guess her and lip made up and are gonna be doing friends with benefits we go down to eat breakfast Mickey had already left to go see if it was safe to go home mandy and I ate breakfast at the Gallaghers then mandy got a text from Mickey that dad was gone but he left the house a mess we said goodbye to the Gallagher's and thanked them for letting us stay we then walk to our house we walk in the door and Mickey was right dad really made a fucking mess we all start cleaning up till the house was at least desent after we where done I went upstairs and showered and changed into sweats and a sports bra I lay in my bed watching tick tocks the day went fast and before Iknew it night has fell it was 9:00pm I desided to go for a run I had alot of anger built in her body from what dad did I put on a hoodie because it was a little chilly I walked downstairs and saw my brother playing video games "going for a run" I told him "k don't die" he said back I walked out the door and started to run it felt nice it was a nice release I could hear words my dad had said to me "your nothing but a slut!" "Your the reason your mom died!" I ran faster trying to shake his words I'm out of breath I need to sit down I run to a bench and sit down trying to catch my breath "hey" I hear a voice say and I jump slightly till I realized it was just carl "oh shit you scared me!" I yelled carl laughed and sat down next to me "what are you doing?" He asked "clearing my head" I answered "you know what I do when I need to clear my head" he said "oh what dose the great carl Gallagher do?" I asked sarcastically "I do somthing dumb" he replies "let's doing something dumb" carl suggested "like?" I asked "let's go to the cemetery" he said "and do what?" I asked not impressed by his plan "smoke pot drink alcohol be dumb teenagers" carl said "ok lets go" I finally said "come on" we went to the cemetery and hoped the fince we looked at some of the graves as we drank some beer we smoke a joint we had rolled after awhile I desided I wanted to see my moms grave "hey carl" I said him and I had been walking around the grave yard in silence not in a acword silence more of a peaceful silence wich even tho I just met him yesterday seemed to be a normal thing for carl and I "ya mindy" he hummed "I want to go to my moms grave" I said "then let's find it" he said smiling at me we looked for her grave we finally found it it was a mess I kneeled down "I'm gonna clean this up" I say carl put hand on my shoulder "I'm gonna clean your grave mom I promise" I say putting my hand on the tombstone "I miss you momma" I say tears filling my eyes "I-I love you so much" I said breaking down I leaned my head on her grave I was crying carl kneeled down and pulled me into a hug I kinda forgot he was with me it had felt like it was just mom and I then it hit me I was crying into a guys arms that I just met yesterday I pulled away from carl whipping my tears I'm a Milkovich I shouldn't have emotions carl and I stared at eachother I got lost in his eyes as much as I hated my self for showing emotions infront of somone I felt safe around him and I didn't know why I broke the eye contact by looking down finally carl spoke "I'm sor-" he tried to say but I cut him off "don't pitty me carl" I tell him he doesn't say anything he didn't have to he just pulled me into a hug I had stoped crying I felt numb "carl" I said pulling away again "ya" he said looking into my eyes I looked back "I'm sorry I didn't mean to get all sappy" I said "don't worry about it" he says giving me a smile I smiled back I turned back to my mother's grave "I'll be back to clean your grave ok get you some pretty flowers bye mom" I say taking my hand off her tombstone and walking off with carl we stoped at his grandma's grave then we left we ran around the town like two dumb teenagers I had never felt so alive and free we rid skateboards and drank till it was 1am and I desided I should go home carl walked me home