Thank you for waiting for me so patiently and respecting my thought of taking a break, it's almost about to 2 months I've been here I hope nothing has changed much, you all still interested in the stories.

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Leaving behind everything and walk on the path which has no destination can never be easy, a lifetime wanderer too seek shelter, no matter how hard we all deny the fact but the reality is we all need love and secretly prays for it too...

Life was never easy for Manik and Nandini, neither it promised to be easy but then it is also true - the things we receive after loosing a part of ourself is the only one about which we care the most and what could be best than getting your own self in the process of loosing everything.

Manik committed several mistakes in his life but his true resentment has even all, he was wrong initially but gradually he rectified every single mistakes of his past life. It's a saying- God is watching over your shoulder, you can fool the world but not your own soul.

On the other hand Nandini was the one who patiently waited for little happiness in her life though he had snatched everything from her but she still loved him with all her heart, her love never came in questioning area because she never let anyone point on that. When she loved him she loved him with all his flaws and this is the essence of true and pure love, we should learn how to accept the other personalities with their pros and cons.

He hugged her so tightly today in his arms that perhaps his soul is trying to mould in her only, he wants to hid her in himself so secretly that none ever be able to take her away from him.

He broke the hug unwantedly but as soon as the realization hit on him he loosened his grip on her, he realized what just happened and the uncertainty of his heart made him loose all his confidence and once again pulled him towards the intense darkness.

When she felt him stepping away, she opened her teary eyes and unwantedly released herself from his protective embrace, something very bitterly broke in their soul once they both parted but still they both composed themselves and stood straight. Meanwhile, security cleared the crowd and with all the unwanted audience Cabir too left from the scene leaving the two behind with only one wish in his heart- may these two resolve all their issues and get back together.

Manik: "tum yaha Kya karhi hu Nandini?"..he asked after breaking the eye contact with her which was captivating him..

Nandini: "Is this the first thing we are going to talk?"..she stunned him. He looked elsewhere just to avoid her question but she took one step ahead towards him and his heart started beating at the fastest rate.

Nandini: "Main tumhari Dil ki dhadkano ko sunke bata sakti hu ki tumhara Dil Kya feel karha Hai, magar aj main tumse Sunna chahti hu Manik. Kyu nahi kabhi kaha? Kyu mujhe khudse door rakha tumne? Bas ek sawal Manik.. Kyu?"...her question brought all the memories back and he dwelled in their awful dark past. He recalled their last conversation instantly by her last question..

"Kya gunaah Tha Mera? Yeh ki Maine tumse itna pyar Kiya? Ya yeh ki Maine tumhe apna bhagwan samjh liya? Kyu Manik? Akhir Kyu kiya tumne woh sab? Kya mila tumhe mujhe todh ke? Kyu manik? .Bas ek sawal... Kyu?"..

That one question when she asked one year back had broken him in zillion pieces, that day there was only pain in her eyes, in her soul. And surprisingly, today there is pain but in that pain as well there is some kind of happiness; happiness of knowing that he loves her..

Manik: "I don't know what you are talking about."..he replied softly after diverting his eyes, which made her smile weakly. She placed her hand on his cheek and made him look straight in her eyes, the passion in her eyes left him understatement.

Nandini: "Now repeat the same. And prove me wrong."..she made his heart skip a beat, his eyes welled up instantly; don't know how long he craved for this right. As soon as tears eloped from his eyes she washed them off his face and cupped his face in her soft hands, looked straight in his eyes and said something which collapsed all the walls he built around his heart.

Nandini: "I love you Manik."..her voice echoed in the atmosphere, angels from heaven started dancing in happiness while almighty himself shed tears of joy. Whereas Manik was boggled by her sudden confession, he wasn't expecting this coming his way from any corner.

Nandini: "You heard me? I love you Manik. And I know that you also do but there is something which is stopping you to take one step ahead, please share with me Manik. Let me help you please."..her pleading tone at the end left him hurt, he can't see her helpless. Once he was the only reason of her pain but today he want to be her salvation.

Manik: "Am scared!"..he uttered after grabbing all his strength but she didn't loosen her grip on him, she held his face with the same intensity and looked in his eyes with more passion.

Nandini: "Fear is only there where is love Manik."..she stated with only love in her eyes..

Manik: "Am scared if you get to know the reason you might start hating me. ".. grabbing all his courage he finally uttered his only fear, his statement left her boggled but she still maintained her rationality.

Nandini: "Hum jisse pyaar karte Hai Na Manik, usse naraj ho sakte Hai, uspe gussa ho sakte Hai magar use nafrat kabhi nhi Kar sakte. Hate can turn into love but love can never turn into hatred, because love is that seed which once sown in the soul then it's forever, even if you want to you can't take that out of your system ever.."..she explained but her first some lines made him recall how he once imagined her saying all this to her and today she is saying the same thing in reality..

Manik: "Tum mujhe maaf nhi kar paogi..main bhi khud ko aaj Tak maaf nhi kar paya.."..he blurted out and she looked all calm and compose just like still water..

Nandini: "Try me.."..she encouraged but he has already lost all his strength and is not able to keep his soul united..

Manik: "Not Everytime we can get what we wish for. I learnt it the hard way.."..he replied painfully, with tears brimming down his eyes whereas she only found him utterly broken and shattered from inside.

Nandini: "Similarly, not everytime we fall when we try so hard to take a step ahead."..she gave a booster but all he looked was lost in his own pool of guilt but today his love for her over powered his guilt in which he is drowning since ages.

Manik: "You think it's all easy Nandini?"..he asked after taking her hand off his cheek, she looked surprised by the intensity of pain in his eyes, she has never witnessed this side of his before but still her heart tells her that she has seen more broken him.

Nandini: "I know it's not easy Manik but it's not that difficult either as you are presuming it to be. Dard humse aur hum dard se tab tak juda nhi hote jab tak hum Kisi ke aur koi hamara humdard na bane.."..her words left him speechless..it was the same sentence he once told Kajal after he burnt his feet..

Manik: "Agar Mai yeh kahu ki aaj Jo tumhe Kuch bhi yaad nhi Hai uska reason kahin na kahin Mai Hoon toh?"...he asked looking straight in her eyes, she looked shocked by his question but held his hand.

Nandini: "toh Mai yeh kahungi ki Jo hua that was with the consent of almighty, you were just the medium.."..she explained, he smiled weakly.

Manik: "agar Mai yeh kahu ki jisse tum aaj pyaar karti hu, Mai wahi insaan hoon jisne tumhare past mei tumhe sabse jyada dard Diya tha. Itna dard ki tumne khudko kho Diya, itna dard ki muskurahat Kya hoti Hai tumhe woh bhi yaad nhi, itna dard ki tumne pyaar jaise Kisi bhi word se trust he kho Diya, itna dard ki agar tumhare pas kuch bacha tha to woh sirf dard Tha...."..he told everything to her by looking straight in her eyes, it won't be wrong to say that she didn't got scared by his words but somewhere she had the idea that there is something more to the story thus she heard him line by line, word by word so that she can answer him well.

Nandini: she tightened her hold on him and said "Toh Mai yeh kahungi ki woh humara past Tha Manik, Jo hua woh past mei hua, hum sabki life mei kuch ese phases aate he Hai Jo hume andar se todh dete Hai. Accident happens but that doesn't mean we stop travelling..."..her last sentence left him under spell, she is perhaps the only person who can find happiness even in the darkest hours under the shed of stars.

Manik: "What if I say...."..he stopped and gulped the lump built in his throat with the mere thought of that one terrible thing. She held both his hands tightly and with eyes encouraged him to spill the beans but he looks too fragile to open up the whole truth to her, or perhaps he isn't capable enough to tell her even the partial story. But still he collected all his broken pieces and told something which snatched floor beneath her.

Manik: "What if I say- you lost our baby because of me.."..he managed to throw her off guard, she looked utterly shocked and hurt at the same time. Before he could say anything more, he felt her grip loosened and this was the moment he dreaded the most. He knew that this one truth can take her away from him forever, she looked at him with shock. Her lips started quirking, her hands started shaking instantly and she took off her hand, he shut his eyes tightly as he can't witness her leaving him all over again.

Nandini: "our baby"..that's all she muttered, he wasn't in the state to even evaluate whether it was a question or a simple statement..

Manik: "Our baby.."..he repeated with the same pain, he still remember that day when she told him about her miscarriage, how she lost their first baby even before feeling him taking breath inside her, he clearly recalled how much shattered she was that day..he remember every inch of pain induced by that one memory..

Nandini: "What has happened in our past Manik?"..she suddenly asked out of the blue and now he raised his face to meet her eyes which is filled with several of questions...

Manik: "You'll hate me.."..he simply put forth his one and only fear. But she looked in his eyes fearlessly..

Nandini: "Let me decide that please..".. she answered with some motivation in her eyes and tone.

Manik: "Nandini........."..he closed his eyes, took her name as a true devotee and finally committed all his sins in front of her, with his head hung low, eyes closed he has no idea what impact the truth has made on her. While he was blurting out the whole truth, she was busy in processing his each and every word along with his every reactions, his every gesture.

Manik: "I never respected you, I never respected us, I lost everyone in my male ego. I'm responsible for our doomed relationship.."..he accepted the facts and suddenly he felt her alluring touch on his wet cheeks.

Nandini: "Look at me.."..her soft voice broke him apart, he opened his eyes and found her teary eyes looking at her with much more love and respect, which actually surprised him.

Nandini: "Galtiyan hum sabse hoti Hai Manik, magar tumhe pata hai who is greatest amongst us? The one who accepts his mistakes and tries too hard to rectify it.."..the way she explained things to him made him feel like choking himself to death and it's only because he feel like he is the biggest sinner of this era, how could he not see the inner beauty of this angel, she never held anything against him and even today after hearing everything she is still there comforting him.

Manik: "Don't you hate me?"..he asked being totally nervous, she stepped closer, cupped his face and looked straight in her eyes..

Nandini: "When I said I love you then how can I hate you?"..she asked or rather than a question it seems to be like she is assuring him about her love.

Manik: "You should hate me Nandini..I killed our....."..before he could say anything she placed her hand on his mouth and stopped him from uttering anything wrong...

Nandini: "It was a accident Manik. Neither you nor me, no one is responsible for that. Look at me..."..she made him look in her eyes and he tried too hard to look straight as tears engulfed in his eyes..

Nandini: "You told me everything, but still I didn't remember even an inch of our past may be it's a sign, it's a sign of universe that I shouldn't remember that ugly part of our life,may be almighty want us to create our new memories..our good happy memories.."..she told him softly and he was speechless..

Manik: "You can forgive me? But how can I forgive myself Nandini? Am the reason of your misery, am the reason you went through all of that, I used you for my benefits, I crumbled your soul...I can't forgive myself.."..he vent out everything in pure anger for himself while she took a step back with the intensity of his reluctance..

Nandini: "Mai tumhe Jo keh sakti thi maine keh Diya. Now you have to decide Manik. Tumhe is Dard ke sath rehna Hai ya mere sath, kyunki Dono ke sath toh main tumhe nhi rehne dungi .. decision is yours! Bas itna yaad rakhna..that i love you.."...she told him straight away as tears fell down her eyes, she took five steps backwards away from him and he is standing still with all his guilt and pain..still trying to process everything.

What he should choose? Her? Who was always there for him? Or that Pain? Which he inflicted in her and asked from almighty in his part? His heart is standing on a cross road one side there is his heaven and one side is his self made hell, he has to make a choice today but he isn't able to. Because it's too hard for him to forgive himself, it's too hard for him to look in her eyes without guilt, it's too hard for him to forget everything he done, he can't erase his past and somewhere holding on to it thus he isn't able to step in his present and clear his future. The baggage of past is still on his shoulder which he wants to give up but not trying for that...

Screen freezes on their hurt face...

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What will be Manik's decision? Will he accept Nandini? Or he'll accept the pain and guilt in which he is living Currently...

And my dear readers! Am back!! 😂😘..missed you all a lot.. Sachi!!

Yours truly,
Storyteller!!❤😘